Is this it? (Hello (alpha) - pinned)

Hmm ... does God communicate with me?
I'm currently not so sure anymore. I mean, between the things that did and didn't happen ... the things that do HAPPEN are mostly just in my head. Like today ... while I was walking and thinking about the "no sympathy" thing - I got a little thing into my head telling me that this would be the final point.

Then ... I feel like I got nowhere else to go but to try and namedrop my site. So - "Hello"?

Not sure. Like, it's not the first time I feel like cleaning up this page or what have you.
Then there's the ring. I mean - this "Key in my Heart". On the eventuality, I did some recalling of Angels - and ... realized that "maybe" ... . Maybe I there was some activity that would support things I was afraid of. I mean, it's a nice trick I suppose. Like ... by simply existing I'd create my own undoing. So, I did the same. I locked them out and now I'm playing around with this same idea. I mean - first target was ... Trump I suppose. That's however the Character in my head when I think "THE Fiend/Anti-Christ". I'm not sure I tried this before, but so ... for the record.


So - I'm not sure where to take things from here yet. I do however feel that I can't really exist to any public capacity with the material that's on here right now. "Too problematic" or whatever. I wish people just had the balls to roll with the Truth.

Also, the Matrix Phenomenon ... I mean. I get it now. It's just a big hallucination! Like yea. Are you kidding me? I mean, I get it! I can look for patterns and such, but Music either does or doesn't fit on a Movie. Like ... cogs don't work by accident. There are tooth that like, fit into each other and I can't convince myself that it's all just in my head. (By the way: There's a DIY Manual on here somewhere. It's not too too hidden. You can then do your own trials. Do it with the "charge" and then without - look for objective matches versus non-matches. I'm not crazy!)


But yea. Given that someone can just say "I don't see it" to basically gaslight you away from seeing what you saw ... it's difficult. It's a weak argument in that frame. Like ... "just you wait until I pull out the movie and some music - that'll show you!". It doesn't mean anything in that setting because it doesn't belong there. Like ... you don't get on stage into a debate to be told what politics is - you go there having your own political ideas. Right?

But yea. So ... there's room for both I think. In some instances it makes sense to ignore it. In others ... well. I don't know. And in case my "spell" don't work ... yea. I still challenge people to challenge me. But well.


Maybe I still have some ways to go. We'll see ...