And Lift Off ...

Oh man ...

Got my hands on some weed.

The whole day was ... weird. I had this feeling in my knee and was trying to figure out what it was. On and off I had a moment - but as I was trying to develop the thought, the feeling came back.

Yesterday I was having a thought about what to write ... and on and off I had to think about it. Like, how it made sense again. Anyway ... at some point a vibe came in, "asking one last favor of me" - which was to calm the fuck down - or something along those lines.


I did ... and realized that I'm way too spun up. "Up in the craze". I mean ... now that I'm high and I can let things sink in for a bit ... it's kind of crazy. What's going on in the world. How brazen ...

I mean, there ought to be a reaction ... but there is none. We keep pointing to things that we find outrageous, and yet it continues to happen. I'm looking around and ... I see people who would for the most part agree. I mean, the only Characters that I could point to that ...


Anyway. Yet another branch. So ... to get to the point.

I can't - or shouldn't do this any longer. I low key think that I'm seeing into the future, as ever so often I'm getting things ... vibes ... that later then, some day in the future ... 1 to 3 ... somehow come back at me in reality. I mean ... so I started to think that some of the things ... I need to plant. Or learned it the hard way.
Somehow however ... I ... . Maybe it was like ... I started to think of a thing, in a way. An expectation or whatever. And it would keep coming back. Then eventually I did something - and via some cause and effect it then led to something that mirrored that expectation.

So, the thing with the knee might thus be ... well, let me ... spin this out ...


So, there is a future in which things happened, without me planting those seeds. I mean, it is maybe just a convoluted way of thinking ahead. Except that the causality ... the chain of events isn't necessarily clear. The ripple effect. Butterfly Effect.

So, if I'm thinking too far ahead, I'm in a world where I myself would be - as though I had not done the things that I would do. Because I have no way of knowing them yet. Hmm ... can you follow?


I mean ... "the Kneefall" ... that would be a ... theoretical future. Not to say that it is possible. I mean, maybe that's the question. Which future is the one that is going to happen?

This particular future however ... doesn't look like "Bad for me". It's not that I'm put to the knees, it's more like I parade around and sincerely subjugate myself to him voluntarily. Which is straight up never going to happen ever. I mean ... but perhaps in a hypothetical scenario where God would have just abandoned me ... so I would have to realize something along the lines of "he was right all along".

But so then ... there is then what arises, as I deny that future. That is then where the "bad for me" comes in. Then I'm back in the now - and I'm in a bit of a weird situation.

This is then where God comes in. Or "would" come in. I mean - I'm pretty sure that God a) knows of me, that He b) gave me a high five in public, basically and so - there is then whatever is to come of that. So, here I am ... and I'm trying to calm the fuck down.


I mean, my RPM is way too high. I'm kind of not thinking straight. Or ... there's just way too much going on. And for what I'm doing ... I also have to give things time. So, I apologize for any inconveniences that may have arisen - and I'm actually going to try and enjoy Factorio. In the meantime ... whatever.

You're certainly allowed to translate and transcribe what I've written. Just keep it whole.

When touching things up, make sure to leave a note and register the hands on deck.
Same for the translators.

If it rings true, it'll check out. It's a quasi co-operative between God and myself, so He is co-responsible for it.


And because there's some kind of "Spiritual Warfare" thing going on - like how pretty much at the start of my Journey the topic was introduced by "bam" dropping Perfect Cell into my mindscape. It's a thing ... where ... I feel like I've been invited to a Game Night expecting Dungeon and Dragons but everyone was playing Pokemon. And I don't have time for everything. Ever so often something happens - and I'm distracted from my workflow. I mean, it requires attention to detail ... often also at speed. It's repetitive of course. So I would also wish to summon an Angel to "Guard" me. Like that Perfect Cell guy ... though I was thinking of something along the lines of "in place of me". Same thing. Virtually. But to set a power level, for reference. If it breaks it breaks and has to go to maximum settings. So, power level: Me, warmed up and ready.


And with that I'm off. Sort of.

I mean, yea ... [sweaty smile emoji] - the baseline is that there's still a Part 3 to come, but I don't have enough content just yet. And I really don't want to stress out over it. I don't have a clear concept and ... I don't think I'm really adding anything new ... I mean, I'll need to give it time.

And yea. That's the thing. By so getting involved in the issues that course through my mind - as they intersect with things that are very much in the flux or charged somehow. But what is there to do? What is there for me to say? What is the argument? I mean - I for myself want to be heard. I mean - I think there's a Level of Respect or Attention I might expect. Given my circumstances.

Fair?


Until then ... I try not to go insane.

Fair?
Oh, there's more:


Blessed be those that have received the True Gospel, they are the guidance unto those in need.
Blessed are those that stand up against False Christians, they are the are the defenders of those in need.


- Safety Smokebreak -


TLDR: It doesn't make sense to speculate.
For me, that is. To get involved in that is a futile chase. And since that's what's on my mind, looking into the future sends me spiraling into an odd realm of possibilities. Arguing therein is as chasing a Tornado, by foot.

If you need anything from me, I'll be "here" - I assume.

All in all - the way it stands: They started it. On the side of Russia:Ukraine I'm willing to accept that there's some top secret stuff going on or whatever - cold war nonsense or whatever - to which I'll say that I've prior to Putin's invasion also been on the NATO withdrawal side of things. I mean - to show respect to earn respect. Something like that.
But USA and Israel are different issues. South America is ... uh ... South America. And so is Africa ... uh ... Africa. Being the "Butt end" of everything, there's all sorts of stuff - I assume - that would shock my innocent heart.
As for Asia ... I'm trying to ... . I mean, they're not culturally Christian/Abrahamic, so they're like ... quasi not my concern in that sense. And thinking of them as potentially Christian is a ... thing I'm warming up on. As an idea.

Anyway. So ... it started with ICE doing the usual Police Brutality stuff. Ignoring civic respect. Overstepping boundaries. But - yea, it was going to be that way. But instead of dialing back, Trump and his Team dialed up. So, expanding on to further groups. Handicapped, Homeless and Mentally Ill. That's where I put up a defensive shield of sorts. Some time later Charlie Kirk got shot, and since then the circle of Targets has been expanded once more. "Anti-Fa" and "Anti-Christians".

I'm not saying that Aunt Ethel need a Shotgun, but I myself wouldn't turn it down.


Of course an offensive might be stupid - I mean, the issue with killing people over a disagreement is that sometimes it's murder and sometimes it's self-defense. The former possibly due to a lack of the latter. And yea, I hope that all the self-proclaimed protectors around us are ... actually that too. I mean, if we can scare them enough, maybe that'll suffice.

So, no need to argue over semantics here, right?


And with that ... I can close this whole thing out I think.


Peace!