... "Everything!" ...
So, I was about to write something after being triggered by something stupid I read on the Internet. Or so I thought.
Then I came home and didn't know what I wanted to write about anymore; And so ... naturally ... I didn't.
But eventually it returned to me - and while showering I realized that ... it's actually such a widely thrown about
comment/idea, usually in close proximity to other stuff that rather obviously only exists to "trigger the Libs", I
didn't feel like it anymore. So I would think that I don't know what to expect from lecturing folks who apparently
aren't capable of independent thought - and realized that actually, also, banking on independent thought is kinda my
brand. Although it might seem like a bad idea. And so ... I figure ... under the line ... I want to pin that onto the
"curious, but whatever" board. A.k.a. the forget and discard if only I could pile.
Then, while taking the same shower - I remembered some other thing I wanted to write about. And it may just be what
had me turn on my Computer in the first place - as ... I knew I had SOMETHING to write about. And I noticed ... that
... this topic may actually play favorably into what I wanted to write "about" going into the showever.
What it means to Love God with all your Heart and all your Soul
So, "back in the day" - or so: at multiple occasions - I figured that I probably should write about this. But as
an opportunity never presented itself, I settled with leaving it up to independent thought. At the time I was
primarily concerned of - at least within my mindset - catering to atheists. So, the least likely group to "figure
this one out" - and so I also wouldn't really stress it. I suppose ... there wasn't really an angle to doing that
either ... and platitudes ... aren't a thing you'd need me for.
And yea, I was actually somewhat optimistic. What I got on the matter now ... does however go a bit beyond being
"just a take" on the matter. I might be something like ... the actual core reality/truth behind the statement.
And so I would have started by stating, that "one thing that the Bible leaves out about that" - is that God can
be many things. But maybe that's a bit too provocative - where, I think it's time I also cater some more to the
Christians and other Believers. But it is certainly true.
It may sound like I'm saying that the Bible tries to obscure something - and I, quite frankly, am sure that it does
in deed obscure the one or the other thing, but this one is more a fault of lacking. A lack that can be credited to
the very brief time that the scripture had to develop any kind of meaningful theology. Especially given that the
Gnostic component has ... I'd say: effectively been torn away from what it could have been.
But to those that come from a Believer's background ... I'm sure this will be/is a treat. I mean, I get it. Harsh
world, dark colors everywhere ... though yea, something something victims and abusers - but ... I get it. The Bible
(or corresponding counterpart) is barely at the core of the believers appreciation for God. As such it is far more
pleasant to heed the spoken word - than it is to sift through ancient text. Given a few exceptions.
And so are the scriptures often somewhat harsh. Therefre it is quite popular, I reckon, to cheer on people who
manage to talk of the loving God that people believe in. To take a Character as apparently mean as the God of the
Old Testament; And shine a light on the loving aspects thereof. Atheists might be totally out of the loop concerning
this one - even the formerly Christian ones if their Christian background is yucky enough.
But so - what does it mean to Love God ... so fully and so entirely ... as the Bible seems to require?
I wouldn't be surprised if the one or the other preacher/pastor/whatever stumbled accorss the answer - and if
atheists wouldn't right away resonate with that rhetoric. That because on the surface, it speaks of sacrifice.
Of letting go. Of giving up. Of waiving. As ... to commit your heart fully to God implies ... there isn't a lot
left for other things. And what I wrote previously ... is a really good context to get a little bit beyond the
platitudes of it.
So I said, that God can be many things. By that I don't mean to say that one can make anything their God - but that
God can "shine His light" through a great many of things. What one is to understand is - as I've tried to point out
here and there - that God has chosen His very own transcendental nature as the one to approach us from. As such He
doesn't ultimately present Himself through a figure - as Jesus so spent a great deal of his pointing things out to be
pointing towards the Father. As that, God is immaterial to us. Inevitably and intrinsically a part of us. And in that
sense, for us to become Christ-like implies as much as becoming beacons of the divine Light towards each other. But
not so in the dull way where we're perplexed by some lightshow - as 'the Divine Light' is a far more magnificent thing.
One might vibe with the take, that Loving God implies Love for the things He's given us. But what I think needs to be
watched thereby, is what we recognize as something 'given by God'. Thus I don't mean to speak of worldly things. For,
while the one was born rich, the other was born with a serious physical condition. So, it doesn't really ... work out
in the macro to take things that way. Like sure. While some might win in a lottery, others get run over by cars.
And so - on that note - these things that we might think are 'given' to us - they are also things that inspire us to
become really vile. Or be it something that "is given" to someone else, while you think you deserved it more - or
So, I watched Titans the other evening. That DC show on Netflix. Which I find hillarious ... because ... in a lot of
ways it reminds me what we nowadays might regard "bad shows from the 80s and 90s". But it wasn't unpleasant to watch.
And so there was that one Episode in which Nightwing got thrown into the Lazarus Pit - and had a bit of an emotional
episode watching it. And yea, what ... TV shows or movies generally tend to do a really miserable job at, is to
communicate different Levels of emotion. I mean, there are these really abstract fever dream like conditions in which
some inner turmoil gnaws at one's psyche and it becomes a real struggle to come out the other end - but on the screen
it's difficult to not present it in a way that appears to be as lucid of a situation as sober reality.
And that segment of the show I'd say deals a lot with identity or fake identity. Masks. The idea of or behind a costume
and the association its wearer has with it. And so is the whole Batman and Robin and Nightwing narrative one around
fear - using fear as a weapon - which for Nightwing clearly meant to inhabit an appearance that commands respect by
fear; That coupled with an anger-fueled sense of righteousness that probably comes with hish line of work - being by
all accounts a normal human being trying to play in the league of superheroes. And so he has anger issues. And that's
what his episode in the Lazarus Pit meant to highlight - I'd argue. So, his visions of scarecrow giving a voice to his
dark side, "being" himself (as) the Joker ... with a crowbar in his hands beating down on Red Hood - that is the anger
driven personification of Nightwing. And is probably similar to what motivated Red Hood. And while it might not translate
well into the context of the show - as there isn't really a divine angle offered to those things - these 'bad' fragments
of what we fill our lives with can so become "fake identites" - a.k.a. things we love, cherish, put our hearts into ...
and subsequently strive for - and the more we do collectively serve them, the more we're prone to making this world a
living hell for one another. That because these things are selfish.
So, that is the context that ... we might say ... helped birth this realization in me. And that right into my ... well ...
I wouldn't really call it an identity crisis. I don't have an identity crisis - just ... comprehension issues and ... the
only thing I know is to be confident about it. So-to-speak.
So - internally I'm already celebrating myself to be THE Queen; Because in all fairness ... that's what I am. Or am I?
Well - the problem comes with the kind of authority that people might require for such a thing to be established. And
as the tropes have it - wanting to be something you're not; Or so, someone with fame and power and influence and all that
- is a bad thing. Being His Queen however ... I'm in this situation where when I heed the logic of humble; I'm moving
away from what I truly am. And if He would let me - I'd eventually start wanting to deny it - to then live as though
I weren't. In as far as He however makes me understand that I'm His Queen ... my ... relationship to life develops in
such a way ... that I would then live in denial of a part of me that wisdom would require me to own.
So yea. Previously the point of contention was my Clarity. The same kind of struggle - but - I guess on the opposite end
of the "status quo" spectrum. And I touched upon it briefly - concerning "the Spine" - that it resembles some kind of
counter-balance. And balance is basically the important word here ... . So, being myself submissive and devote - the
danger is in not realizing when the accommodating reality were to grow toxic.
Theory aside - being Queen is certainly a more palettable example for what God's love does deliver to me. Maybe it's not
less controversial - but that's just how it is.
To not get hung up on terms and their implications though, the thing - in simple terms - is about Loving God by the things
He gives us - and is alive through and within - as we receive them directly from Him. Which, naturally, are at first - or
ultimately - intangible things. So is there not a crown or a scepter I could hold on to, to tell myself that I'm Queen. I
just notice that I start loosing myself when I fail to ... 'live up to it' ... I guess.
I mean, I try not to "doub it with untempered mortar" - as it were. To say ... I can be sloppy and put it as what is implied;
But the actual truth right now is still a bit more nuanced.
Now, to say that I Love God by what He has given to me ... is a little bit wrong. Deflectively. But what one is to
consider is, that God isn't a thing that can be easily Loved. As Love tries to fathom - it gets clear that by Loving God
one tries to fathom the unfathomable. So we can substitute God with Jesus, the Holy Scripture, Doctrime, Pleasantries ...
but those then are substitutes. Some of them may be introduced to us via this Love. And my work is an expression thereof.
And so, yet and still, God maintains Himself as transcendental. Intangible. Unfathomable. And this is also how we can
exist in the Mangle - or so: As the imperfect beings we are - limited; Or more to the point: As social beings. In this day
and age it might be more abstract to argue for seeing God in the other - so lets for now just stick to: "Life begets meaning
God can be many things - as He is within and through the Son and the Holy Spirit; As He was through a burning bush or a Light
piercing the skies. As we thirst for meaning and guidance; We seek truth that delivers us unto life. And in the truth that
reconciles us with the divine - we may individually find God ... and love Him by virtue of the life given to us.
And unto the evening followed Night
Now, what I wanted out of writing ... "today" ... was to trigger 'the Conservatives' (for a change) ... "so f***in hard" -
"it'd make their heads explode". But more. A lot of things. Spiced up with a little bit of my ego. Or a lot. Whatever.
Generally I think I'm on a good course towards that. What I want is to trigger them so hard - that everyone who has a stake
in their f***in nonsense is going to get a proverbial aneurysm trying to defend their position; And so everyone brainwashed
to follow them - with the rest being happy that they're not a part of that.
I'm not sure if I can qualify that ask in terms of how reasonable it is - but it does feel like something I need. And so I
figure ... throwing them some "Oh, look at how demonic I am" type of bait ... might help a bit towards that. At the end of
the day it's however mostly about what 'you' are doing ... and being awesome certainly helps. So, it's a lot that I ask ...
maybe ... but as we just learned: It is bad to get hung up on the wrong things. Even if they're right - or at least a part
of that - it's ever so often also a matter of the 'how'. Sure is there so what "I want", what "I (think I) need" - and that
may very well be good and fine and awesome ... and all ... but sometimes things take time - as I'd argue: Especially when
they are to come in unexpected ways. So, whatever it is that I want ... or need ... right now ... I have this idea or
insight ... philosophy ... that ocurred to me once which I think to share here.
And in essence the story goes ... that it has been morning ... it has been day ... during which, let's put it that way -
it's probably cool and epic and all that, we had an eclipse; And then came upon us the evening. What must logically follow
... is the night. It might sound scary - but what a lot of people might know is, that the night ... doesn't have to be
scary. It can be quite pleasant. Sure ... a bonfire ... some music ... but in the grand scheme of things ... that's somewhat
limited. Nowadays we however also have elictricity and other boons that would have been miracolous even just 200 years ago.
So, what the night brings ... isn't entirely beyond our control. Like so could we start to panic, lay everything to waste and
be ... exposed and naked when it falls upon us. Or ... we can ... as the Bible advises us ... try to be prepared. That sure is
The other angle ... well ... . I had to think - about the legalization of Cannabis. In the context of german/european politics.
Maintaining its illegality, to me, is as a symbol for the reign of the day. It is the reign ... well ... I guess: Of capitalism,
but ... I don't mean to take it there. It is also, but not really the point either, the reign of conservatism. The working class.
The maintenance of law and order for the sake of productivity. But as evening comes ... one shouldn't maintain the whip to brute
force all of mankind but an elite through a night shift ... as it were. And ... in however many ways ... people may find truth to
this allegory. With plenty of warnings - no need to hear it from me. My point would anyway be borderline supersitious - as I
might be speaking of we might get good or bad weather during the night ... depending on how favorable "the fates" are upon us.
And sure - as ... a divine entity ... I suppose I've got some PTSD that informs me that I'll probably be blamed somehow for
whatever it is that'll come - but from a position of optimism I would hope that we could have a thanksgiving rather than lamentations.
After all ... I'm stuck here as one of you - regardless of the who's stuck with whom situation.
So - in other words: You might try to spend the night hiding from the shadows ... or give the night life a chance. It's not all ...
drugs and sex and rock and roll. The day also has plenty of that!
Anyway ... I hope this to be a bit of an inspiration ... carrying a new optimism.
Have a nice one!