Black Pilled

For years now have I been trying to "say something" - and I sure am not alone.
While I personally couldn't expect much from saying stuff, others certainly could - and ... still nothing. Give or take.

But more to the point have I been trying to say "something" - and it doesn't seem like I've actually come close to actually doing so. Which, I guess, for me - is just another way of saying that my mind is a jumbled mess. What I do focus on versus what gets forgotten along the way ... has sort of taken its toll on my conscious constitution it would seem.
I feel lost sometimes.

Followed by the occasional "nothing I have done matters" downward spiral.


Then, bad news piles upon bad news - and overall the challenges seem to only get larger as humanity at large seems to only get dumber.


What sucks is this feeling that I could do something - but then having no clue what or how. To then find myself back at square one. Like everything is forgotten, nothing ever mattered. That's my personal groundhog day.

And ... I don't know what to say.


Well. The problem may be that I'm trying to vent off some of that seething hatred for humanity that's been flaring up - be it by hope-posting or some other, well, form of cope probably. But yea, whether it by be writing of the opposite that ought to make things better (leaning into the 'right' direction) or just ... venting ... it's difficult to address this stuff. It's like ... not even to be addressed.
I feel like I'm psy-oped into it, as ... for the most part I'm just fine (TM).

But where's the Love and the hope? I mean ... what's going on? Like, the US Supreme Court feels fine granting the US President legal immunity while a Democratic president is still in charge? That - well, is like one sign of how weak ... Democracy has become. But that aside, I think we're all slowly awakening to the realization of how immediate the fuck is. Like ... we may have heard a thing or two that should be front and center, talked about 24-7 - but ... nope. Nothing.

And all that is just an extension of the "Clickbait nonsense". I mean, if anything - that's like the real problem. And I thought it wasn't all that important. Like ... it goes without saying. I mean - in the modern day and age ... how many views or clicks one gets seems to be end all be all, but how are people legit going to justify or defend that when click-farms are a thing? I mean ... I wonder how much of modern engagement is just bots talking with bots. And whoever controls it is really having a great time right now I'd think.


And that's the thing in as far as: If 'we' wanna ... change something, it's paramount that we control the narrative. At least enough so that our side of the story isn't going to get lost. And I'm afraid that this open marketplace of ideas isn't going to cut it - because ... it's just a fantasy.

It's almost as if it never mattered. Like free speech. I mean ... it's like with free speech. We all love it, we'd all defend it - let's say - but the more that people did, the more the entirety of it was in danger. Well, because some group of people understood to co-opt the concept to now politically mean the exact opposite. Of course the "Muh Free Speech" crowd is then going to applaude Elon banning Queerness from shitter - as it is the success of their freedom of speech; And apparently they're not bothered by being hypocrites.

It's strange. And politicians didn't care about all of that happening - until the whole narrative was so utterly in the favor of fascism ... that all they yet had to do is lean into people's prejudices.
Not that there wasn't much anyone could have done.
Other than ... trying to make good politics I suppose.


And it's so frustrating that our problems aren't even real. Well, apart from the problems caused by people thinking that they are.
I mean - I don't know. Here in germany all that stupidity is like even more frustrating. I mean, on the one hand side we can look at the Brits and be like: "Uhu, so ... that's not a good idea!" - and still people be like: "Let's leave the EU!". But sure, like ... we don't have any proper mechanisms to digest what's going on and learn from it. Just more and more clickbait nonsense.

That's why we need to have some safe-space, some public Roundtable to make sanity a thing again.
Some place, virtually, where people can go to - with enough info material for the downtimes - to also maintain the upper hand of all the "controversial topics" that aren't actually controversial.

I'm sure that's what PragerU is ... well, I can't use 'trying to' or 'supposed to' (be) because they most certainly aren't - except for being the evil version of that.
That and ... InfoWars I suppose.
And all the other nonsense that get's inexplicably favored by the algorithm.

But for all that we also need to keep a spotlight on our internal condition. To properly mirror to the outside how we evolve internally. Eventually that's the most important part of it.


But that's me probably leaving in a dreamworld. I mean ... what am I expecting? Probably ... the truth is that we're all waiting for Armageddon and at which point ever I get to have "what is mine" it's so over that none of what I personally did actually matters.

... in Bible-speak: The Lord will be my vengeance. When and how ... I don't know. I certainly have tried, but ... whatever.