So - how bad is it?

I recently had to think of John Bain a.k.a. Total Biscuit. I mean, to me, the way his death co-incides with this shift in gaming and Nerd-culture that came about through Gamergate ... is a bit too fitting. Now one of our Trainers (?) is in hospital due to stomach cancer, that's the rumor at least, which also co-incides with like ... the death of the print industry. It's not going to die, but it's certainly changing.

And now I'm here. Feeling similar issues.

And yea. I do in deed feel it. My hopelessness. I used to think big and optimistically, but now I feel like the window has closed. The milk has gone sour. And so, inevitably ... one thing or another.


But has the milk gone sour? I mean, ... maybe not.
Depends.


But, that's also not really what I had on mind.
But it's still true and I am in deed curious. But on the other hand, the triggering idea was more like: "Just HOW crazy are they?". Or what kinds of crazy are there? Just what kinds of mindset are we talking about?

I mean - somewhere in my mind there's this bad guy, who would order like 50 virgins for New Years eve because he's in a bad mood or something. And the keeper is already like "50?!" while cursingly lamenting over something. And there's like a Sex Dungeon where kids are raised on Disney cartoons.


But somewhere in my mind there's also a deep and wide elaborate labyrinth/dungeon beneath the Vatican. So ... "the 9 circles of Hell" or something like that.


And so, what's happening? How is it happening? Why?

To me - this is also about me. This is about how I'm not being listened to, and what reasons people might have there. It's about how I feel laughed off as though I couldn't quite possibly know a thing or two - and there's this kind of ignorance and other things that twist the good things into ... parts of the whole. Helping Hands. Useful Idiots. Oh the irony.

Is it so? Could it be so?
At the end - I think there might be those that tried (yea, if there's even just one I'd be ... I mean, sure I hope, wish and such for there to be more - of course - but being a bit more realistic my bets would tend towards zero. OK, a Handful maybe? Well, then we're in happy wonderland where ...) and those that didn't. Hmm ...
By trying I mean - to knock, basically.


I wonder about how fiercly people hold on to their crazy.
Oh, by the way: Revelation 6:6 - isn't this what I wrote about yesterday? About fairness and respect? The Necessities are made expensive, like ... if I want what I need - it means that we have to deal with Nazis that want to go to the Women's prison. If we want people to respect our identity, that means we have to deal with mass unrests amidst a wave of hate-campaigns.

And somehow all this - well, eventually rolls over into another issue, the quasi elephant in the room.


But I don't really feel like torturing my mind over these questions right now. It might even be pointless. I mean, at this point ... it seems like, nothing that isn't already in motion can really do anything. Honestly, I hope I'm not mistaken, it kind of feels like ... Sunglasses + Popcorn time.

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