?? Calming Down ?? / a Tutorial~sortofthing
Something's stirring in me and I don't know ... what and why. I'm like down under - and ... well, I guess I don't
know where this ship is sailing. I mean - there is or was a bit of an expectation; And I'm not sure if I even know
what I'm looking at. A thought did occurr to me: I don't feel at home on my own computer anymore. And in a sense
that's right.
Since I've "moved into" my flash drive, things have changed. I've drastically re-arranged my partitioning to focus
on all the room that's available on it while still having space to thinker around with Linux. And I'm still not
entirely sure what to use - how and why. I tried kde desktop portals - and, well, I'm not sure if I want it. I've
somehow gotten used to the commandline. But yea - every now and then it doesn't quite do the trick.
I've come to a crossroads - so it seems; And a part of the way has already been chosen. And I hate it when I'm
like ... out in the wild with a goal that I can't really seem to put myself into. Or how to put it. So far I suppose
things have been easy in that the own way out, the isolation and such, was the only way to go. And it possibly still
is, for what else am I going to do?
And to try and fill it with purpose is a mistake I assume. And still there's reason behind it. I feel pushed onto
this road - and while all my mind tells me that it's a mistake ... there I am, more purposefully leaning into this
'something' then.
So, so far I was working on a "Game". And now I'm a bit split about it because ... what am I going to prioritize?
I was starting to work the engine into the code - and while I was still trying to figure out how to properly set it
in, my mind shifted back to where I was in the beginning. All the stuff that's now stuck away in crystals.zero/_SYSTEM_/_ROOT_
... alongside the little mT.
There's still work to do. But what? I mean, ... Let's think about it ...
...
And somehow I neded up doing
/codex/X6_posixShell.pdf ... an 11 page introduction/tutorial
to X6 so far, going over the posix update and creating a simple 3D environment to move around in using a controller.
And now I'm still just where I was, but a little bit more tired ... XD ... well ... . (technically it's the 22nd now)