Humanism | + a dive into Kosti's Journey

There was something said within one of the more recent videos I've watched. Something about ... stopping to react and instead being more pro-active. And I want to do some of that as well.

I mean, it's complicated - as in a fight if you're too much of either You risk loosing; And whether it's this or that, You should try to "land on both feet" as it were.
There is the narrative, I'd say, that is driven by an agenda. Things that are put out there for us to react to - things to which we're most likely only able to react in either of two ways. And then there's the narrative as driven by common interest. And it's a fight where one would try to outcompete the other untwoards some decisive blow perhaps.


But who is who? What is what? How do we filter the information provided to us?
More and more we rely on patterns to identify things of importance to us; What a 'Fact' is, is more and more about words written on paper than what's actually happening around us.
I mean ... it's less and less paper and more and more digital also, but ... nevertheless.

And hence ... I'm feeling uneasy about the Epstein files. The narrative they present is clear: "You can't prove anything" - and if there's video evidence ... well, who's going to look at it, or see it, to then pass judgment?
Well ... surely there's stuff they don't want us to know. And it kind of seems like ... they've failed. They're yet buying time for their fascism to take off ... so they can then finally burry it all - and while they try to push the narrative to ignore the files ... well ... we should do the opposite. Or is the "ignore the files" narrative itself the issue? Another tower in the desert for people to look at ... while we're left wondering: "How?".


There is no right answer I presume. To assume that either side is perfect and incapable of error ... well, that's a way to start a thought experiment but otherwise possibly problematic. But ... in that regard there's also the factor of money and influence.
With it comes the luxury to lean back, look at the pieces and strategize. Launch operations that fly under the radar. And as the Bible puts it: We must prove to be diligent - a.k.a. "to overcome" - to get through this.

And so, let's turn this around and look at what's under attack.


Well, OK ... that would be ... everything that is good.
Well, OK ... "define: 'good'". Well, right now ... that would be ... everything that's under attack.


But sure. Our humanity. Our concept of humanity. The very faith we need to have in one another to exist as a whole, a society, a unified society ... accross cultures and ethnicities - and the ideals one such society would adhere to.

And You probably get it. I mean ... it's the thing people are laughed at for. "Goodie Two-shoes" ... they say. The very concept of the hero fighting for what is good ... is a joke these days. What is one to do in a world where everyone only fights for themselves; And women are conditioned to adore those that slap the bigger wallet onto the table.

And as the stakes are getting higher, the slopes are getting steeper.


What is normal? What is right?
Their best defense is for us to say: They did nothing wrong!


Leaning into it ... feeling the pressure behind it ... there is no end to the Tyranny. Each and every right we have ... that's power they would yet claim for themselves. Every venue we have to defend ourselves ... that too. And it goes further. Every thought, every idea, every word, every sentence ... that would allow us to describe ourselves as anything but Toys for their amusement ... would sooner or later land on the chopping block..


ABSOLUTE POWER ... would be the term. Not as in Star Wars, though ... sure, if a thing such as the Force existed ... that too.
But in this world it's more about the Dispute. Right now we're seeing it happen ... and the people put in power to oppose the Evil Empire ... well, ... those would be the final breaths of what little room for dispute there is left.

Similar to World War 2. I suppose Hitler was just about to tighten the boundaries and from there try to create an indomitable fortress. Though to that end ... the gaping maw that is the eastern boundary would also have to be dealt with. Which is probably where Greenland comes in.

Sidenote: People mention that Epstein's ties to Mossad are frequently overlooked. Well ... take it one step further: His ties to the Mossad, the KGB AND the CIA ... they should have us wonder whether Epstein is the only thing that would unite these three under one blankett.


It's harrowing. I used to wonder, how anyone might stomach sifting through ... God knows how much material there is ... naturally, thinking that all of our worse expectations could be rather naive ... - but now I understand that I don't need images or videos to feel fed up and disgusted by all of it. And ... what's wild is, that once we put all that aside ... saying "OK, let's ignore the Epstein Files" ... there's still all of the stuff from before. Not to mention how suddenly they went from priDEMONth to "Well, Pedos are based actually".

It's harrowing because ... the frequency with which we're drawn into a world of excuses that would have landed flat on their face just a few years ago.
Did You hear? Apparently they're building incinerators in their new concentration camps also.

"Way to go, humans ... way to go".


That and ... Datacenters. I mean ... Datacenters don't kill people directly ... but I don't see how they make our lives better or easier in any way shape or form either.
In how they operate, we're not too far away from ... what is it? A thousand souls a day for the Golden Throne?


And of course ... those that benefit from it ... and are committed to it ... we don't need to expect help from them. What we can expect is for them to kick down the ladders behind them ... eventually. To then consolidate ... ABSOLUTE POWER.

And we're not ASKED if we would do the same. We're TOLD that we would do the same. And how could we prove that wrong?

We're stuck and powerless ... and every asshole that decides "Yea, BASED!" ... is another blip of hope gone dark.

And like so: Your Enemies, Our Enemies ... in as far as they're not part of "The Elite" ... aren't our enemies.


So, there's really two things I'm getting at here. Outside of loosely trying to shift the focus on to "Humanism". The one thing is "Moloch".


Left leaning Atheists tend to quote the Bible for the Atrocities committed in the name of God. What they see is an invasive culture with a barbaric religion imposing theocracy on a bunch of cultures for believing in a different deity or pantheon. Like Israel is the Fire Nation and the rest were just ... chilling. How Jahwehs crusade against the Idols of the Region is the blueprint for Tyranny through Religion.

Similarly ... people rather often fail to see what Sodom and Gomorrah was all about.

The conversation usually revolves around ... well ... again ... why God is the bad guy in the story. We're talking about "Sodomy" as if "being gay" is the problem ... and berely ever take a step beyond that, but go straight to Lot's wife or what his daughters ended up doing with him afterwards. And in the end, I'm usually left with the impression that God was totally cool with the practices of letting the mob rape the girls as opposed to the strangers; But I suppose ... while typing a way ... the story of Lot's wife ... is often left out. I suppose it's ... a moment of reflection. And we're at a similar point now.

Like, give Greenland to Trump or risk World War 3? Well ... how would it end? Sure, let's give them ALL our weapons BEFORE we realize that maybe ... we should fight back. /s

Sigh ...


When I was Young ... I didn't really read the Bible, but I tried to ... every once in a while - and Moloch ... I didn't understand. It seemed like ... well, the kind of stuff I'd expect from a story where there's a good side and an evil side; Being however not mentally capable of properly parsing the stuff I was reading.

But so, when it comes to the Bible ... and the concepts of "atrocities" as God/the Prophets would describe them ... well, it's not easy or simple. It's easy enough to be misled and in consequence never learn of this or that tidbit that flips the story on its head.

Sure, there's "the Law" and what God dislikes according to it. And yea, if You wanted to establish Your fake theocracy on the back of what You assume to be another fake religion ... You'd go to the text of the Law and alter that. You'd remember some stories here and there ... and go to change the details there too. Like ... what scholars believe was done to ... Edom? I don't really remember. But the decendants, or so called decendants of Esau. It's a ... smear campaign. Propaganda as it were.

But then, hidden in the guts of the text ... are other descriptions where atrocities are being spelled out ... in a pretty unambiguous context regarding where God stood on the matter. It's not JUST that it's an Idol ... for why else would the author feel the need to add a little sidenote about what that particular Idol stood for.

And yea. Presume that one year ago, people were a lot more willing to shrug it off with a: "Yea, it's a story! Kind of hard to believe tho!". I would believe it knowing that Human Sacrifice was in fact a thing ... but would also shrug it off as possibly ancient history. Well, in fact, I didn't really make this connection up until recently. Like ... how Epstein is really THE kind of person ... that "would be" one of "those Kings" that would eventually turn to Moloch rather than Jahwe.
And I assume ... in some twisted way ... they have more going for themselves than I initially thought.
Well, sort of.

It's like ... what some describe as Hedonism. "Harkonnen Worship" perhaps. Leaning into Biology, or more to the point: Primalism, Predation and ... well, there are a few more P words that come to mind but I suppose those could be considered debatable so I'll leave it at that.

And such a thing ... if it appears in Force ... what can Pacifistic resistence accomplish?


Which takes me to the other thing, though ... I'm probably not done with this one just yet.
But the Book 'Kosti's Journey' details exactly this situation. Not in its text, but in its appendix. Or what to call it. The image is this: There's a bunch of children in a house, their parents leave and ask the elders to take care of the younger ones. The elder ones however want to party and thus lock the younger ones into a room. They lock the doors and cover the windows. Thus the younger ones have no Light; Resorting to fire for illumination. Eventually ... that ignites a fire and the house ... err ... palace burns down.

Well. I just looked it up, and it's a bunch of stories actually. They are like extended versions of parables You find in the Bible. This one being not even in it.
Eventually a more proper translation would have to follow, but I want to try myself on one of them as I think it really ... nails the situation.


Once upon a time there was a "Housefather" who posessed a great many lands. He distributed them among leaseholders and gave them a plan in accordance to which they were to care for the lands given to them. The happiness and wellbeing of all citizens was the purpose of this plan. To this end he gave the leaseholders all the powers and sanctified them to represent him in the little things.
The leasholders discussed among themselves how to best manage the lands entrusted to them and thought it wise to divide their government into an inner and an outer part. The inner management was to be the measure of the outer, and in the inner the Plan of the housefather would be kept.
One of the most important points was, that all barren grounds were to be cultivated with the seeds the housefather sent them.
The leaseholders went on to employ servants, but soon enough stopped checking in on them and instead of caring about the economy they started to feast in Lust; And instead of cultivating the fields they consumed the wheats and yet others sowed upon unplowed acres. There came the birds of prey and ate the seeds, the region was overrun by thistles and thorns.
The wheats ("seed wheat") which the Housefather sent was shared by the lazy and wanton servants amongst themselves, and the righteous ones had to feed themselves off of roots and herbs they found among the weeds upon the acres.
So did the leaseholders of the outer parts act; Those in the inner part who held the plan of the Housefather in their hands allowed themselves to be tempted by the outer ones and wanted to share their power and fame with them. Instead of instructing them towards order, they themselves contributed everything to disorder; Claimed it was in their might to change the plan of the housefather or to ignore it wholesale, and thus made the confusion even greater.
Through this ill example the disorder of the servants came so far, that they claimed that there was no housefather and that they were allowed to do as they wanted.
Hence they also no longer obeyed the leaseholders; The lazy servants multiplied daily as did the weeds and the thorns that covered the fields.
Every flower, that a diligent worker planted, was smothered beneath the weeds; And every unplowed field was spoiled by the animals that found a safe home amidst the weeds and thorns.
Since the beautiful grounds were no longer cultivated and needs amongst the leaseholders increased, so one sought to usurp and betray the other and turned this bad habit into a science.
The leaseholders became divided among themselves; One sought to outdo the other and even so did the servants. Quarrels increased in frequence and one killed the other.
Some good and righteous people foretold the others, that this kind of management was impossible to maintain in the long run; For once the time of lease was over, the housefather would demand accountability. But they ridiculed the righteous ones and dismayed them for fools.
The righteous ones now turned towards those that had received the Plan of the Housefather; Yet those held on to the disorder of the others and decried those, who referred to the plan of the housefather as liars and insurgents and persecuted them to the death.
There it then happened that in one of the bordering leases, the servants amongst which there was neither law nor order, became incendiary. We want to distribute everything among ourselves, they said, slay our leasholder and kill his followers.
They grouped together, in deed slayed the leaseholder and his friends and distributed the grounds among themselves. There the remaining leaseholders yelled: See Friends! In this region the servants slew their leaseholder; The same could happen to us, we have to be careful.
So they spoke; But did not mind, wherein the cause resided, why the disloyal servants had slain their leaseholder, and that this would not have happened if he had managed his good in accordance with the plan of the housefather.
The leaseholders now moved with their servants against the Land in which the leaseholder was slain, demanded accountability regarding the blood of the leaseholder and said to themselves: We want to slay the disloyal servants and make these grounds part of our own. There the servants in the land of the slain leaseholder shouted: Who wants to eat, cultivate the fields. But a large part of the people yelled: We have no seed-wheat, for we have delivered all to the lease, and the floor is covered with thorns; How can we cultivate?
There came thousands and thousands that were driven about by hunger; In their desparation they walked through the savaged fields and there came Wolves, Foxes, Snakes and abominable Toads forth from the thorny thicket, and the confusion was immense, for one Wolf ate the other, one Fox bit the other, and one saw the lands covered in corpses.
The yells of misery however did not impress the leaseholders which moved against this Land. They saw the huts burn and instead of extinguishing them with water, they in the trance of their passions poured out barrels of oil and the fire struck back and befell their boundaries, which too were ignited by it.
Some sages again yelled unto them: Exterminate the Weeds, Cultivate the Fields, stop the profeteering with the wheat-seeds among each other but lay it faithfully into the bosom of the earth so that it may yield fruit and thus fulfill the plan of the housefather.
But the sage was carried to prison and treated as a stubborn and unpeaceful person, who wants to bring reform unto the people - and it was always done as they used to. The wheat-seeds were carted to the servants that had moved into battle instead of cultivating it; And those who had hands to exterminate the weeds were slaughtered and dismissed.
Within this confusion a few evil leaseholders secretly laughed and felt Schadenfreude in their soul. They hid among the weeds and drew benefit from the confusion; To enrich themselves, they killed some and stole from the rest what they had --- as the housefather suddenly appeared.
Give accountability, you inner and outer leaseholders, about Your Management! he shouted, and give account of the seed-wheat that I have given You. -
But they did not want to give account; The leaseholders resisted and claimed, that the grounds entrusted to them was their property.

And ... then some numbers, the housefather explains to them that if they even just cultivated a third they could have made rich yields; And then a somewhat patronizing section about how to cultivate a field ... and then it CLOSES as the parable of the weeds among the crops we find in the Bible. And honestly, this seems like ... a hack. I mean, the parable in the Bible can stand on its own and in this context ... well. The weeds are less so a symbol for 'bad people' but more so ... a symbol for "what's left of the rot that came prior". Well "so large" was the misery; That even after reclaiming the whole land ... there would still be plenty of weeds left; And it would take time until we're completely rid of it. That's my reading at least.


And so it takes the edge off of the concept of a violent revolution. So, let's revisit the other one:

Another housefather built a grand Palace for his children and said: Live there among each other in peace and enjoy Your lives!
The Palace was large and had various compartments. The housefather said: Children, if you want to change something in the palace, so build in accordance with the plan that was started, such that the building will be complete. - But the elder brothers presumed they had more insight than the housefather and defaced the building through various bays; Also they attached outside of the Palace various side-buildings, separated from their brothers and submitted themselves unto their Lusts in these side-buildings. That the brothers would not see into these side-buildings, they began to seal the windows and transformed the most beautiful auditoriums into dark rooms. Outside of the building they also nourished various animals to glory, and since they had to feed those animals, they brought hay and straw in great quantities into the palace, and they bereft their brothers of what little light yet shone through the openings of the palace.
For all was dark, those living in the Palace bereft of natural light, they sought to replace the loss with lanterns and conversed in the light of the same.

Some sages said to the elder brothers: Brothers, you act unjustly! You have bereft the others of natural Light and filled the Palace with Hay and Straw for the feeding of animals; This will not do good. How easily can the straw be ignited by the lanterns and your palace be turned to ash! - Open unto the pure Light the entrance itself, for secret and through artifice made Lights are dangerous.
Alone the elder brothers didn't want to open the windows, for they sad, if we open the windows, so would our brothers see the side-buildings we built and we can no longer indulge in our Lusts. Also they cleaned neither hay nor straw from the Palace, for they did not want to get rid of the animals of their passions.
There it then happened, that through multiple lamps a fire ignited and the palace burned down to the ground.
The elder brothers then went to the housefather and accused the younger ones that they had created this fire with their lamps and demanded that lamps and lights should be forbidden in the future.
O You wicked ones, said the housefather, why do You accuse your innocent brothers? Had you not shut them from the Light of Nature, so would Your Brothers, needful of the light, never have brought dangerous lamps into their residence. You have filled the Palace with Hay and Straw to fatten the wild animals of your passions; Wasn't it natural that it had to burn? - You I want to pull towards punishment.
As the Palace was burned down, all saw the despicable side-buildings and the housefather called all together and rebuilt the building again according to its eternal foundation.


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"As the Genius was done speaking, Kosti fell upon his knees. Patron Spirit of Mankind, he exhaled, your speech fills my soul with dispair. The more I learn of human nature, the more I learn of the rot of those that rule, and of the humiliation of those who are ruled upon - the more my life disgusts me. - What is left for us, as to either be a co-conspiritor or be the victim of "systemic oppression" (common oppression)? - Oh let me die! I feel the burden of Government and my own weakness. O that the earth would reclaim my limbs into its bosom, before I desecrate it with malefaction."

So, it wasn't the appendix after all. I ... maybe should re-read the story. I mean, it became difficult to follow at some point, for me, back then.

Well, the story is about Kosti, a young Prince that is sent on a journey to find Wisdom - as he would once be the ruler. And I don't know how much You or I want to lay our faith into these words, where his guide eventually tells him: "Learn, Kosti, the Power of the Sciences and Arts - the Power, that they have over Spirit and Heart of man, and govern Your People in accordance with the eternal Principles of Nature".


Which is kind of where I'm at. We can look towards the scriptures for guidance ... but what can we expect from them?


And "Oh patron spirit of humanity" in deed. I mean, what am I doing here? I'm like ... trying to start a revolution I guess ... but is there even a soul reading this? My situation very easily strikes me as ridiculous ... and after all these years, I find that I have yet somehow internalized all the nonsense ... . Like ... somehow ... I feel like I have in deed done nothing. All this time. I feel myself as though I'm but a myth, surreal, unrealistic, a fairy tale maybe?

And yes in deed ... as it would seem that peaceful resistence may in fact bring this whole chapter untowards a good ending ... oh mea culpa ... I feel ashamed. But ... well ... that's silly!

It's not up to me or up to us ... for as long as we might. And yea, You can love Your enemies, we can be friends ... and still ... make things right. We are many; And hence can do multiple things at the same time. Might I be an exception - by status and fame? Well ... then that's what I have to be. For within the natural order ... this exception has no proper place. Let them whine ... about the hypocrisy or whatever they want to call it.


I mean ... here's an idea: We cannot prove anything? Well - but clearly ... something was going on. Ghosts maybe? Well, I don't think so. So, we'll look at what we have ... compile the most incriminating questions; And then we ask them. Give me a stupid answer and You're "auto guilty". Like, whatever someone accuses You of; For as long as it seems legit ... bam ... granted and Fuck You!

No answer? Well, guilty!
And actually ... we don't need to ask them. It's merely a formality to present ONE statement that clearly implicates guilt - and without a satisfying answer ... we need to satisfy ourselves somehow. For that's what we want! Satisfaction!


Well, I don't want to make this the end all be all of my legacy. (*caugh*Dolphins*caugh*ants*choo*) .... and yea, logistically ... there is no violent option. ...

but ...

"Then Aban sat down upon a hill, and all priests gathered around him. Attentive silence ruled amidst the listeners and Aban so began to talk:
Priests and Initiates! Had the people long regarded the power, which the Sciences and Arts have over their hearts, and had the Sages used this power to the enlightenment of the people, they would have had to fear less damaging consequences of their fallacies! -- Fallacies only spread there, where the power of the Sciences is unknown, where the Spirit is suppressed or acted against, or where Science is abused for selfish gains. Is the sun now harmful, as it stands as the Queen of the Stars in the firmament, as it benevolently illuminates the hut, sending its blissful rays envigoratingly downward and raising flowers that we plant, warming the acres that we cultivate? - If now a boy collects its ray of light in a magnifying glass and ignites the hut of a benevolent person, is this the work of the Sun or the work of a twisted wanting of man, which abuses all in nature?"

See, I don't want to go down in history as a "Know-it-all". And I hope that throughout all of my shortcomings, I was yet able highlight my own fallibility. Seriously! I feel like a freak, standing apart from all - set aside, willingly or not - and somehow ... it's all in the Bible! So yes, a part of me feels cut out - violently so - and a spirit of vengeance burns in my stare. But is it just me? Am I alone here? Are my words truly so profoundly idiotic that one can't but turn away from me?
Or is it tempting?
Temping as the Sun? A ray of warmth perhaps in anotherwise cold environment?
Should it be God's will? That our minds be humbled to the point where we ask for forgiveness, thinking that anything but suffering is a sin? That we are to be as animals unto those privileged to hold the sword against us? Where is the logic in that?

To take reign? To be strong? And side with those who would slay their brothers over nothing but a twisted sense of order?

How are we to comfort one another? How are we to stand in for one another? If at the end of the day we need to yield back and betray our own mind over the words carried in our hearts? Jesus?
Yes, it is said that the Lord is Judge - that He is the vengeance of the Righteous - that He will condemn the wicked. So, tell me - where is Your mind about it? Is it right of Him to do so? Bow unto the Lord and crush Your heart as is asked ... what then is the guilt within You that needs redemption? What is the good around You, that He is to avenge?

In times where we can't but carry the humiliation with dignity ... the Father will take note. But are these ... such times?
Am I here to tell You to ... well ... just suck it up? For at any moment now the Christ might return - thus better be prepared?

Well, let's call that Plan B. For as it stands I'm not willing to condemn the rest just yet. The rest through which the few that we think we are become the many that we could be. And then? If all that's left is a single step ... ? A step unto what? Plan A!


Take me as a beacon. There may be others, and You might choose. But at the end of the day ... You need the true Light to defeat the darkness. For a false one, the darkness will merely embrace as it recognizes it as an ally.
Am I scared? Sometimes I am! Sure ... . It's uncertain to me ... what lies ahead. What is certain though are two things: 1) Whatever gives us reason to be afraid of standing up for what's right ... needs to be dealt with. And 2) We need to overcome the matters that divide us and come together as a family. And the two ... come hand in hand as one calls upon the other.


Hmm ... I'm hungry now.