Finding Composure

So - whatever I was, or am, on when talking about violence; I suppose it usually only gets to fragmentarily tell what's really going on with me. You can deduce that probably there's like a prequel ... or let's call it foreplay ... and generally I would need You to be in that exact same kind of mindset to really get what I'm saying. And while violence might not seem like the answer to You there and then ... imagine You had to go through it over and over again, trying every conceivable argument from every conceivable angle and what You get in turn is a fascist dictatorship rising in the background to then tell You that You suck.

Or something. I mean, these things don't happen in isolation. The issue is that once they start lying and aren't properly checked on that ... there is no argument. There is their lie, then there are those that don't have the tools to read it as one - and that's their base. Sotospeak. I'm not talking real life here, I'm trying to model what's happening.

And as their base grows and supports those lies; And the web of lies that people believe in grows; It's not like uncovering 'a single' lie would have an effect. But so, having this body of lies they then just continue to do so ... and what do You want to do? What do we want to do? What can we do? I mean, ... it's not supposed to happen.

So then - I end up imagining myself in such situations. The person on screen is telling a lie and I ... blip myself into that scene and ... wrestle with my emotions over it. You could ... see it like ... my demeanor might change. Like ... something is on my mind other than the conversation or the debate. Like I'm distracted by something, nervous maybe. I start to breathe more louder, start licking my teeth, squeezing my lips, starting to shake my head - get an increasingly ... more and more concerned look on my face. Then maybe I'll fold my hands to like lean my chin on something, or my teeth, like on my thumbs, while I try to ... find composure and formulate a response.

I mean, to be fair ... I suppose a team of fact checkers would be nice because ... I certainly am not all that knowledgeable and ... I know the ways ... and know that I'm not familiar enough with them.

The thing is; That in a debate I'd have to then debate the lie. And some people will argue that lieing is fair in a debate. "Bbbut You said nobody was going to fact check buhu". So, I'm God's appointed judge, bringing a shottie to a debate is also fair ... but only I may do it.

But no. So, for me that's a moment to turn towards the audience - at occasion someone else would have to do some video about the details because at that point I'm not having a conversation with that person anymore. I'm trying to like ... ask You, the audience, what we're going to do here. Because to me - from there on out, the only thing I want to hear is something along the lines of "I'm sorry, I repent".


Naturally - I suppose, when ... thinking of time correctly, I would first have to earn execution privileges. So, realistically - either I'd leave the stage ... virtually dusting off my feet ... or I'd send the other person off stage. Then all hell would break loose in the media and the comments; And what do You want to say? Like so, more and more the conversation shifts onto the lie, the concept of lieing, the reasons and so on. And then we can get ... to Level 2.

Because ... as I see it ... there's like a whole "alternate reality" ... where, all the lies eventually have some "good reason". And that might be the most perplexing - but simultaneously most easily anticipated thing in all of this. And I'd say that most people are uncomfortable engaging with that type of stuff because it's so far out of anyone's comfort zone that You kind of have to be legit crazy - which I am a little bit - to be like, seriously affected by it. I guess.

So, Level 2 is then foreplay for Level 3, which is where we would/could/might have a more serious ... diplomatic engagement with like ... "the Antichristian Empire". Which ... is entirely hypothetical because it presumes that any kind of ... "civility" they proclaim of themselves that we're like ... asked to believe in ... is actually real. The alternative is that this would turn into therapy session having like ... a shit load of delusions and other stuff to deal with first.

At long last I suspect "he" will fall into like ... an infinite feedback loop of "I don't get it" - and to cancel their subscription to society is the final conclusion of the exercise.


I mean, as I'm made to understand ... this final condition will like ... remain. It's like a turtle shell ... and the moment they then see an opening to get back on their BS train they'll come out and be "capable of thinking again". And that's ... the effective hard point I keep stumbling over. A hypothetical - where, going back a little, to ... the part where I'm torn out of the converation perhaps ... the question is: Is there a possible resolution? Not saying 'compromise' because ... uh ... I don't assume that any of the things they want to "but" into what we want is like ... acceptable. I mean, we're at "I want Greenland" levels of ... absurdity ... IRL ... so yea, I want their heads on a chopping block, how about that?

So ... what would a resolution look like?
Well, it starts with us having the tools to even ... stop and check. Because ... if You're a public figure, doing politics and stuff, and You're dealing with important information that's like ... real world stuff with like real world stuff going on ... and You lie about it ... there's a word for that. There's a word for someone ... 'like' that. Someone "so heinous" ... so ... wrong ... so ... unacceptable ... that in pretty much every culture there's the same way of dealing with them. Well, it's exile - which is usually when You weren't TOO TOO bad but still bad enough ... and then there's execution. Because treachery ... is like ... unacceptable. I mean, it kind of depends but here ... here we're at the very core of human togetherness. And to take out a knife here ... to sow dissent and such ... oh boy ... You have no idea what's coming Your way.


But if we're now unable to broadcast our ideas ... like, who's going to broadcast the fact-check? Well ... thank God for me!

I mean, however You want to put it - in terms of "magnetism" ... I have to be bigger than Michael Jackson ... a lot bigger. It's the best guarantee to get as many eyes to look at the same thing ... that we have. And that's really ... where we can start doing this. Because hey ... what are You going to do once the genie is out of the bag ... if You're like a news host? I mean ... what if say ... Channel 669 frequently has me on and we're fine but say Channel 777 is constantly broadcasting nonsense of how I'm a fraud and ... yea ... I mean, the whole Pedo thing won't fly anymore I suppose ... so, sooner or later it's a litmus test in and of itself.
And if there's no invaders we have to defend against ... well, we can go hunting.

Like, if You have something to say ... come on stage; Where everyone will look at ... where, if You had a case against me, if You wanted to gatcha me in misbehavior or so ... that's the way. There is no other way because ... at that point, where I am ... there's "the thing".


So, where do we begin? Do not bear false witness! it's like ... You can "but God is anti Homo" Bible thump all day long, but that's the 10 commandments telling me that You have no leg to stand on. So, where's Your ... mission statement? What's the legitimacy of Your religion or Your faith? Because ... believe You me: I have bags to put onto those scales. What do You have?

And yea, it starts with what we think we know about the world and I suppose ... the scientific background to this would involve people I ... have higher hopes for. Like, why would I look for some conservative dipshit to have a debate about this stuff ... if I, presumably, could just pick anyone I want?

You think You have a better scientific understanding? Well ... cool - eventually I get to relax back and be the host/moderator - and we'll see.


An underlying issue is: Why should I/we believe anything they say? Why should You believe anything 'I' say? Potentially ... we kind of do have to start from the beginning and do like ... baby steps. I can tell You that I'm not going in - probably - like ... "complete complete". It's like ... the answers that WE seek, I don't have YET. And THAT THING UP THERE ... that's how we get them.