Nightmares

I woke up this morning, yet again soemewhat perturbed by one of those dreams. Yet it was kindof slow going; At least near the end where I was trying to explain to "You" how "this thing" works. Why it's a thing - and then maybe, why I'm having those dreams. But as I then started to think about it, I started to actually wake up; And that to the tune of: "Well, no. This is Bullshit!".

So, near the end I was trying to explain to You why I needed this or that; The "thing" itself being some kind of contraption that creates cobblestone and then sends it through a pipe to some other place, which is virtually like ... on the opposite corner of a room. But for some reason it was important - but I kind of realized that, no, actually there's no machine in minecraft that could take this cobblestone and automatically ... build stuff with it. I mean, there's machines that create Basalt roads on Magma ... but that's different; Although technically ... starting with a cobblestone generator ... it's kind of the same "tech"?

And then I realized: No, my base isn't even laid out like that.
It kind of starts to look like ... it isn't my base. It exists there, somewhere, "occupying my lands" perhaps; And whatever interest there is in that ... then negatively perturbs my soul.

But maybe there's more to that.


I mean, if it isn't ... any of what I think it is; Like ... if it isn't something I can ... interact with ... or so ... I can see a narrative. Previously it was my base, but stuff around it was getting weird. That was back when I was building my "Hyper efficient" Dwarf Fortress. On and off it came back, and shit was just getting weirder. Eventually I had the idea to build some kind of "Airlock" into the cavern so when the Dwarfs go in and out they walk through some water and get cleaned.
Anyhow, throughout all this I also learned that I am no Architect.
Then more recently, the dream started to look like Minecraft rather than Dwarf Fortress; And at some point it started to focus on something within me. Like, the image was me, with a golden thumb drive in the heart of the Avatar, running around doing Minecraft PvP against a gang of griefers. And now I'm there explaining this machine that doesn't exist in a base that I don't know. Well - I recognize tidbits. The layout for instance. I've been starting to build Niryagazareth like it's Dwarf Fortress. I carve out 3x3x3 cubes for rooms, with walls each room is 5x5x5 cubes large but they also share one. It not "quite" like it, like ... You can get away with walls just 1 block large rather than 3-5; Anyway. So, this little "Machine" could also be Tech that I developed that someone else could sell as theirs. But so, the impression now is ... like, they captured my base. And that now ... actually reminds me of something I wanted to write about Yesterday. Kind of? I mean, it was getting late and I was already tired/busy; And if it's important it comes back.

But this is definitely important.


Throughout these struggles I had recently, my mental conditions, changes and other things - the what is what of what's going in my mind has kept me occupied. And part of that, somewhere caught up in the all of it, was like ... a waning sense of righteousness; Until eventually I kind of "lost it" and then "they" proclaimed victory. Like, "having destroyed righteousness" or some such thing.

At the time I didn't make much of it. But it makes sense. If "their" biggest enemy is "our" Humanity, our sense of Righteousness, they would want to undermine it. And for what it's worth, I've been losing it. Like ... watching things unfold; All the heartbreaking and vile and disgusting and ... ugh ... You know what I mean ... stuff ... I more and more ... .

Well, whatever my read was - that's probably not important. That I read the other thing correctly is.


So, they kind of ... won ... something. But it's like ... a MacGuffin, but also a Red Herring, sort of. A decoy maybe.
See ... the "real answer" is quite simple: The more we accept the narrative of "people having value (IQ, skill, labor, money)" - the more we accept the Capitalist narrative. Or more to the point: The ANCAP Agenda.

I mean ... OK, maybe it's more complicated than that. It's like ... "it sounded way smarter while I was thinking about it"; But ... that's not the problem of the words, it's a problem of context. So, let me give it to You!


The ANCAP takeover works as follows: They get to Power, then they delegitimize themselves; And what we're left with are the Capitalistic Entities - free as illegitimate as our Governments.

So, if You THEN accept that people only have value if they can earn it - well. You're kind of right.
And that's the thing. That's the "loss" that I suffered. Because ... yes. If we wanted to go strictly by the numbers; It is so. There then is a word for that: Triage - but Triage isn't really what we're talking about here now ... is it?

But so, in my mind they're lost in some fight over some thing ... and what they don't get is that the world in which this thing is anchored ... isn't the only thing there is. So, it looks like "oh no, the magical seal of Righteousness has been broken" (which, yea, is kind of serious) - but we can also just, turn around 180 and have a different reality. Well, doing it in action is more difficult than to just get what I'm trying to say here; But the concept itself is alive and well.

So ... I'm totally misreading this and the reality is that ... now we really have no choice but to fight?
Hmm ... . Whatever ...


And so ... what we had in the past is like a blend of the two things. Hmm ... like Clay mixed with Iron?
And the thing is that Iron and Clay are two distinct things. And, this very issue here is that, basically we're seeing that the more Capitalistic the narrative is, the less we can argue for Justice and Humanitarianism. I mean, the arguments are there and a "Hybrid System" is very much in the realm of possibilities; But ... of course ANCAPism is a Nightmarish Fever Dream so You kind of HAVE TO Ignore Long Term gains over short term Benefits to really "get it". I mean, You might try to say it's the other way around; Thinking of some Sodomite Dystopian Hellscape as "the Dream" of ANCAPs (for as long as they have could be part of the few) - but, if they're holding on to fantasies like the Harkonnen or the Imperium of Mankind ... is there really a way .. to tell them?

Tell them what? How misguided they are?
I mean, to make a case grounded in reality ... I need the other to care. But Anarcho Capitalism, from the ways it acts in this world, it's just "Might makes Right", "because I can" - and it's all ignorance from there on. If "we" believe in it hard enough, Sodom and Gomorrah/Gideon can be real (again).
And that's the issue. You have to convince them that Warhammer 40K is not real!
And how do You do that? You say: "This is Fiction!" - and they go "so what?".


And then go on about how all our aspirations start as fiction and Yada Yada ... see where this is going?

In other words: No Rights means: They have ALL of them - like, violating another human being. That's the bottom line of it.



And on a sidenote: My biggest mistake Yet, that I've noticed, is in the back of the Extensive Introduction to Neo-Gnosticism. Like, I don't know right now if we're Anti-Tankie or not. I mean, I had a point there - but if it's right to make it about Tankies ... I don't know. I'm feeling kind of Tanky myself lately, anyway.

How does it go? "Sacrifice Yourself to the Satsui No Hado".

So, ordinarily we can do both. We can have discussions over value and productivity - which happen to fall into an environment where our technical possibilities are like "Space Communism" can be real (and I think that's better than Anarcho Capitalism) - and still watch out for our fellow humans.

And I think what I read as a loss, and "they" presumably as a victory, is low key a victory in disguise. I mean, this concept of righteousness or humanity that was lost ... it was also kind of Lazy. Like, not real. "Feelings" as it were. A feeling rooted in sympathies - and sure, let's casually agree with all the Conservative Hate-Speech for a moment - because in all seriousness: "What the Fuck?".
What the Fuck are You (they) talking about?

And yea. ICE is an ANCAP army. Isn't it?


And no, the alternative to ANCAP isn't Fascism. Fascism is just a part of it.


And it all really hinges on the Money. The CAP in ANCAP. So, if we accept the virtue of money as it is presented to us today; Which means: The first instance of consideration should be directed at those in control of it; It's not like we have a choice anyway. I mean, I saw that video the other day of that Speech Bernie Sanders was giving where the bird Landed on the podium and while it's depressing to think that it didn't go anywhere; I must wonder: Given all the things that were going on ... there being a big plan and such ... I don't think that ... they would have just taken the L. By which I mean: I rather he be alive and well. Like, what's the best we could have done? Delay the Inevitable?

Uhm, so, if we accept that virtue of money ... we accept that it "is the way now" ... because if we don't want it, we have to reject it. I mean, You need to go through these motions Yourself - at the end of the day - and yea. Take the L ... and practice Your Evil Laughter.


"You need to Chill man" (recently on Joe Rogan (seen via Sam Seder)) ... pfft ... they have nerves.

Anyway.
Was that why I had to stop playing Minecraft? To give my mind space so I could read this dream stuff properly?
I mean, I was playing Elden Ring Yesterday, and my Journey to beat Midra kind of turned into some kind of deeper Quest of self and ambition and meaning and purpose and all that. And it fits into that. Even if I could have written these things without "Getting the Dream Stuff" - to not be alarmed by those dreams (in a wrong way) seems kind of ... a good thing.
I did play some Terraria also, enough where it was showing in the dreams - but not enough for it to take over.
Hmm ... I don't really know ... but well. Little by little ...