Clout

I understand. I don't understand. The two can be leagues apart, but also seemingly identical.

Is the AI Bubble going to pop? Is it smart to count on it? What if they have caused enough Bubbles to pop so far, to know how to salvage it happening? Could one then not pre-emptively do the salvaging, to then prevent it from popping? Or have it pop, except for the part that "cannot"?

Right now ... these seem to be the important topics. Either I know too little to talk about it or too much to be trusted. Perhaps. Who knows? It's either way ... the same ol same ol. Sure we can say that ... no one is to, or needs to, listen to me. Either I know too little or too much ... either way ... it's the same ol same ol.

Then maybe people get smart. Do I know? Can I tell? If so, why don't I this or that? Like, not knowing one thing precludes me from knowing anything, but understanding one thing precludes me from having a lack thereof in others. Sure it makes no sense, but that's kind of the reality I live in. You know ... internalization is a bitch. Like ... you wouldn't know. But I've been going through my patterns - or have been walked through them while being pretty much not busy minding other things - and to call what I see a 'mess' is like ... an understatement. It's like ... multidimensional.
And I understand now what it means to be 'broken'. When the mechanisms you're used to relying on fail or start to cause harm (pain) ... that's not good.
Well, that's the cracks. And when it's broken ... there's no more strength to speak of. Just weakness.

But do I understand this or that? How could I? Or why would I tell You the truth at all. See, either way, it's the same ol same ol.


And ... I realized: This word, clout, it pulls it all together. Because 'clout' here means: You can't agree with me ... because of politics. Like, if You agree with me or not - it has nothing to do with what I'm saying. But all with ... sort of ... "the right" to say it.
If You agree with me ... You give me ... like ... 'money'. But it's more valuable than that. It's ... 'clout'.

And why would You give it to me?