And then there was ...
... uhm ... apologies?
Well, I'm kind of scatterbrained right now. I mean ... what I'm doing, day in and day out, is that I get up ...
depending on how I feel I struggle more or less to have breakfast - eventually I settle down with coffee and some
highness and focus on the code. Previously I set out with targets on mind ... reaching certain goals ... and working
from there on. Now I'm expanding on "the idea of what's missing" - before actually trying to make it work.
So - at one point I had something from where the next logical step was to rethink the approach; And like that certain
things also kind of ended in nowhere; But with the one or the other thing in the backpack.
I'm certainly not feeling "at ease" right now ... but I suppose these are the times where the promises of God have to
... well ... 'reveal their true purpose' ... we might say.
Anyway. So, I'm sitting down - code a bit; And then ... like two to three cups of coffee later I usually find some
... exit point. I feel like I have to take my mind elsewhere before getting lost in the sauce; And the challenge then
is to get the mind back into it. But well, this is possibly where practice makes the experience.
However - that leaves me with some time to watch Videos or play Videogames. Sometimes I spend more and sometimes less
time doing it. It's not really like I can 'stress' my recovery past a certain point; But ... I kind of haven't even
begun to figure these things out yet. I'm just stuck in a routine and ... at times I can't help but feel ... terrible.
Like, things are falling apart and I can't do anything about it.
On the other hand ... I don't know. I want to say that it's weird ... how much things can change while nothing actually
seems to have happened. Is it the power of suggestion? To speak things into the world and make them stick in the own
mind, like an echo that acts like a self-fulfilling prophecy; Although it's unclear how much of it is real and how much
of it isn't?
Anyway. So, for once I think I'm supposed to catch up on some things, so ... here a lazy dump of what has been written
so far ...
And past that, well ... here's the thing. I personally feel somewhat confident - though perhaps not brave enough to really
carry it through - in this idea of some kind of ...
Show of Force
And ... I figure, we could just collectively decide to turn Wednesday into a holliday. To set a foot down and transition
towards a four-day work week; As a conscious effort to decrease pollution and move towards rethinking how we want to live
our lives; To 'act' on behalf of the idea that these things are more important than "the Economy"; To require the economy
to adapt should one have further questions.
Naturally ... as we move towards more and more Automation, the 'benefits' of that automation has to implicitly cover a
wider and more general sphere of people. The 'individual' labour that goes into maintaining the whole is more and more
specialized to the point where direct 'effort:pay' equivalence has to be discarded for something more fruitful.
And such. Well. Anyway. It just is. At long last. For when it is wednesday it is wednesday.