Raped
to be real ... - the Reality of things is:
I want to 'be' raped!
Regarding my clarity - quite a few bunch of ideas sprung forth; And the more they dealt with rape the better. That is clearly so because I for once am a Slut and thereby wired to my sexual satisfaction - and depravity by sex is my 'destinct' paradise. And it is no big secret that Rape is a general and big thing for me.
Enough to also be a thing of its own.
Firstly, my 'desire' for Rape 'effectively' concludes in my death. Rape Torture to Death - that is a thing that falls in line.
Next - so there are five bulletpoints: 'into a Sex Doll', 'Fucked Blank', 'Rape Tamed', 'Depersonalized' and 'Programmed'. Now - these are of the type: mainly decorative - so I can't call them a finite list. But: into a Sex Doll firstly expresses the condition as Pet/Doll - whereby the 'rape' into 'a doll' is the 'base line' on which my 'main consciousness' is being shaped 'thus I can' be '~as a Pet~' when reliefed. The idea is there literally to 'fuck me dumb' sotosay.
A.k.a. "Fucked Blank". More to the point: a real target kink is to be 'fucked blank' as to the point that solely sex matters. While this would normally be a temporary state, there is an iteration to it, alias: 'Rape Tamed' (Link). This in part is about the 'real life consequence' where I 'melt to rape'. Being 'rape tamed' thereby is to firstly say: 'Tame to get raped' - thus alias: 'Tamed by Rape' - so, calmed down by it. Rape is thereby as 'positive temperature'. ... Depersonalized is basically 'another' way of rape - whereby my social position as 'human' is being eradicated; And this may happen in a variety of ways. Yet so does this 'subjectification' further "jack up" my experience as 'Doll'. Programmed is there - well - so my individuality is drawn back - by force and blessing - allowing me to adapt to external setups for things ranging from deep intimacy to general patterns of behaviour.
Details and Realism
Yet so 'even more' an 'etiquette' of some description. Consciously reviewed does 'rape' fascinate me, in that I try to think about conditions and consequences that I might enjoy. This happens to the point that I think up scenarios of rape when I'm having Sex - and generally embrace a cognitive consequence of perceiving myself as a victim of it. This in general 'draws the line' of how I intimately wish to exist in line with a 'home'/society, and this
In all simplicity thereby shows "what I want to be".
And this is where the story would actually begin. I say that, people go like "whaat?" - and I have to think about the right words to tell what is right. So we would need rules. Rules like, first of all: Words we use should have pointed accuracy. So that when I then go and rhetorically mean to ask: What is Rape? - the right answers are those that don't escape the term.
On this note - the 'rape' to be done is primarily a background matter - so, its privacy. Saying: Its nothing I want to be done to me just like that. So, that is another thing - but, nothing too complicated.
It is however so unto 'them' - those I be with - which however means that I want to be with people that prefer not to ask what I want or care too much about how I feel - and if, then that those are firstly sadism motivated. In other words is that how the 'slut' or 'sow' I am means to be handled.
When however going beyond that - 'rape' would be the 'advertised truth' - where the idea were that instead of holding things back when going beyond privacy, the thing were to become true in a more neutral thing, and therefore technically more real all in all.
Rape is the essence
Regarding my clarity - quite a few bunch of ideas sprung forth; And the more they dealt with rape the better. That is clearly so because I for once am a Slut and thereby wired to my sexual satisfaction - and depravity by sex is my 'destinct' paradise. And it is no big secret that Rape is a general and big thing for me.
Enough to also be a thing of its own.
Firstly, my 'desire' for Rape 'effectively' concludes in my death. Rape Torture to Death - that is a thing that falls in line.
Next - so there are five bulletpoints: 'into a Sex Doll', 'Fucked Blank', 'Rape Tamed', 'Depersonalized' and 'Programmed'. Now - these are of the type: mainly decorative - so I can't call them a finite list. But: into a Sex Doll firstly expresses the condition as Pet/Doll - whereby the 'rape' into 'a doll' is the 'base line' on which my 'main consciousness' is being shaped 'thus I can' be '~as a Pet~' when reliefed. The idea is there literally to 'fuck me dumb' sotosay.
A.k.a. "Fucked Blank". More to the point: a real target kink is to be 'fucked blank' as to the point that solely sex matters. While this would normally be a temporary state, there is an iteration to it, alias: 'Rape Tamed' (Link). This in part is about the 'real life consequence' where I 'melt to rape'. Being 'rape tamed' thereby is to firstly say: 'Tame to get raped' - thus alias: 'Tamed by Rape' - so, calmed down by it. Rape is thereby as 'positive temperature'. ... Depersonalized is basically 'another' way of rape - whereby my social position as 'human' is being eradicated; And this may happen in a variety of ways. Yet so does this 'subjectification' further "jack up" my experience as 'Doll'. Programmed is there - well - so my individuality is drawn back - by force and blessing - allowing me to adapt to external setups for things ranging from deep intimacy to general patterns of behaviour.
Generally Speaking
Details and Realism
Yet so 'even more' an 'etiquette' of some description. Consciously reviewed does 'rape' fascinate me, in that I try to think about conditions and consequences that I might enjoy. This happens to the point that I think up scenarios of rape when I'm having Sex - and generally embrace a cognitive consequence of perceiving myself as a victim of it. This in general 'draws the line' of how I intimately wish to exist in line with a 'home'/society, and this
In all simplicity thereby shows "what I want to be".
And this is where the story would actually begin. I say that, people go like "whaat?" - and I have to think about the right words to tell what is right. So we would need rules. Rules like, first of all: Words we use should have pointed accuracy. So that when I then go and rhetorically mean to ask: What is Rape? - the right answers are those that don't escape the term.
On this note - the 'rape' to be done is primarily a background matter - so, its privacy. Saying: Its nothing I want to be done to me just like that. So, that is another thing - but, nothing too complicated.
It is however so unto 'them' - those I be with - which however means that I want to be with people that prefer not to ask what I want or care too much about how I feel - and if, then that those are firstly sadism motivated. In other words is that how the 'slut' or 'sow' I am means to be handled.
When however going beyond that - 'rape' would be the 'advertised truth' - where the idea were that instead of holding things back when going beyond privacy, the thing were to become true in a more neutral thing, and therefore technically more real all in all.