Runes and Seals:

First of all there are 'three' generalized 'Runes' - in the sense that we get '3 things' as a 'general gift', like 'property in heaven' - while ultimately serving the individual as a "home base". Where my first Rune is to have a vagina - I'm thus inherantly growing up with a 'feminized' self-understanding.

As this goes further down the 'BDSM hallway' - God so establishes a BDSM-heavy main environment for me - and the general discussion to be had is about whether or not ... or if then in how far ... it should matter to us socially. Though - it will, most likely ... matter automatically.


In the further sense are those three runes encapsulated within a higher rune - which resembles the first, though is primary to another two there. This were in a sense 'what can be done' - or 'what else' runes and seals can do - or are about.



At the base it comes down to one thing: Relationships and bonding. Thereby an individual commitment matters as much to the society as to the individual itself - for the commitment of the individual requires the society to commit to it too. This way the commitment will have 'sense' and 'value'.

What I discover as true for myself is ultimately a horrible image I keep on trying to express, but I keep failing in a sense of ... maybe being too complicated.

In simple words I do every now and then come 'scaringly' close to loosing all my privileges, all my rights and everything - in terms of becomming a sex-slave in just the way I described. Then usually I do get a rush ... of a metabolical shock ... coupled to various 'scares' drawing a negative image of the sacrifices I am requesting. The more these rushes became a thing - the more cautious I grew, while ultimately they finally contain what I desire. Its like a 'clear bubble' - where all my striving, all my aspiration and care - is face to face with what it wants - though that is locked away behind an isolating shell.


And so it is clear to me - that what I want is to burst into that.

Yet so it furthermore draws 'what exactly it is' that I want.

This also influences what I can do 'here' - in that my ambitions to express myself end up depending on work of others - to the degree that I'm 'degenerate' in every way, to the point of social depravation that factively buffers me into my ideological cognitive reality.


And thats that. My internals point into a clear direction that I common sense wise wouldn't trust to be really it. Or so, or ... properly conceived. But well ... what ... are we talking about?

I'm loosing my sense of it from time to time - at which point I'm only thinking about "stuff that goes on in my ... "head"" - but yea, 'stuff' that is generally ... "altering" ... 'defining' ... my consciousness.

Think of the word/though: "Ship" for instance. What is a ship? Next to it - add a few things, take a few, and we get to the variety of ships there are. Battleship, Yacht, Speedboat, Freighter, Cruiser, ... where the term 'boat' is enhanced through 'specific things' that change the idea from Ship/Boat to ... whatever. Runes work in the same way. By taking a general thought of the individual, twisting and bending a few things, it becomes a new way of itself. Well, kindof.
Looking at what is the 'first' really big rune for me - the "having a vagina" part - the thing itself is 'wired' into me. So, the thought were my body, the rune itself bends stuff in my genitals - and that 'glows'. And because it glows my being 'stands' on it - so - and so my life in general starts for me 'here' - and that then were from where I look outward. So, me - if you asked me and God.

The next thing goes into my head - from there it goes into my heart - there I'm wrapped up - but that isn't the end of it. I'm a bit confused. Well, as for me 'this is it' - this is the general me - wrapped up into prostitution, ... and then there are other things, like, pregnancy and depravation, ... but then yet again other things ... like ... I'm possibly making things up on the fly ... in response to something. So maybe there are some parts that are just consequential rather than causal - where in the beginning I have no other choice but to name things that are namable - to the best of my awareness.

So, I have my three runes and they are for my slave identity - so they get treated as a subset of a higher one, which inherits the features of the first - and then the three concepts matter in some way. They seem to get overlayed onto the three runes - so 'valuing rape above everything' gets onto the first (vagina), then 'prioritizing rape above everything' gets onto the second (mind controlled/mental submission) and then '"romancing last"' gets onto being a child slave. This then somehow goes together with being enslaved to satanism, ... and so there are these 'three items' I get ... and that doesn't really make sense but somehow something belongs there.