Lets start a Cult together!

Classically the average Cult sucks! Lets just say that. Anyway - we wouldn't trust anyone who would object to that! But thats a sad thing! Lets just say that! Because - what does a Cult do? Well - it tries to appeal to people. So - inevitably - over the course of time - Cults have basically 'eaten away' everything that is appealing, leaving that which they all despise. Eaten away how? Well - because ... well ... we don't trust Cults! And everything we associate to cults, well, do we so associate to Cults! I mean, thats my main point on why they suck!


I mean - I've been trying to think about it. About myself, my belief, my ambitions; ... And so, of course, realistically about founding a Church - starting with writing and thinking about its appearances and contents and what not - but so far ... nothing really came together. That again led me to other questions - or rather experiences at first that would then change how I came to think about the topic later down the road. And not so much 'experiences' as 'suggestive reality' - like, I a) couldn't help but ... never mind.
My main problem with it after all is 'me' - or the implications of my persona in my ambitions to 'push' my belief into a community. Questions like who I am, why I'm doing it, why its right to believe/follow me - while, "believe/follow me" - that notion alone makes me cringe already! And I came to the realization that my personal problem there is the very reason why not only Cults suck, but religions in general! Or why Atheism is so successful - as a "religion". As studies would back it up, saying that kids raised without religion also grow up with moral standards (and assholes can come from both parties!). The point being: Autonomy.
One of the first things I had to realize - consequential to Unification - or partially due to my experiences as Nasirite (4th Moses Chapter 6 (maybe read and seriously think about that before throwing away the Book entirely!)) - was that "the power" (to realize stuff) "is in me" - that I didn't need some Prophet figure to look up to in order to get my questions answered. And yes - I had a lot of questions. I would read the bible to refresh my knowledge about its content; To be thereof a better person knowing Gods will and all that. But the Bible never really could help me at all - I mean, except for 4th Moses 6 maybe - (this is a rhetorical 'never', but a pretty 'fair' one at that!!) - if anything, it has this weird way of making everything worse! And - in context to what I mean by 'me' being the problem I can explain you how that fits into my 'pro religious' narrative. And maybe you already know where I'm going with this!

So, there is this Mysterious Book that supposedly holds all the answers - but if the average guy opens it, it all seems to be shitload of gibberish! So a believer then would drop into a hole - and maybe belive that he or she is just too dumb to understand it - and so, power is given to those that presumably understand and can therefore explain it! So people would start to look up to them - and at that instance we already have a very 'bad' situation, setup to only get worse over time. On the one end there are those that 'render themselves stupid' - and on the other end those that are being rendered 'knowing'. And so is the problem with me. For once do I not want any part in a situation like that; While on the other end people would want me to.


So - I took a step back, or a way around, or whatever - to say, I did take a long break from whatever; Essentially saying that I gave it up and started being a lazy fool posting stuff and his oppinion on the internet. Or in yet other words: I've sunken into Limbo. Not knowing what else to do I so just rambled on about what was going through my mind - not trying to get anything done or started - though, ... that didn't work out entirely for, well, whats the point? So I've come to the point that I wondered about just that - what ... I did or ended up doing or should do with my life. I did take this long detour - not the one in this text but the very very all of this homepage so far - to specifically be 'not' someone to fit into that role described earlier - to make sure that if I ever succeed, it'll happen the right way!

Yet so, I arrive back at square one. How is this ever going to be a thing if there is no start being made? And so ... I guess I have to just embrace the fact, that in the end, what I want, is a Cult!
Well - at least so in the way that doesn't suck! I mean, the fear of being looked at as a Cult leader; Or if you were to join me - you being looked at as a Cultist; That was the main thing that held me back. I guess it also biased me in my attempts to formulate stuff and what not - and so kindof inherantly killing all the joy in it and therefore ended up not liking it!


As you can tell, this Cult starts a little bit different than others. This would actually be the first official writing - though, for that I would at least need one more person to join in; So it could be a real thing realistically. But, never mind that. If I had a choice in it, I'd align this to the Church of the Flying Spaghetti Monster. So, more of a "just for fun" thing - but ... rather than making a religion to make fun of religion, it were your average Cult that people would join in who just wanna say "Fuck it" - I mean, its a more or less useless Label - as an Identity to start with. I wonder - if I named it "Church of the Apocalypse" or something with 'Apocalypse' in it; Would we be called 'Apocalypticans'? Sounds weird!
I mean - the serious notion is that we are Gnostics - but then, others might wanna be Upset, I think, about me claiming the entire domain of Gnosis for myself; Thus the term 'Neo Gnosticsm' was born - (Neoist?) - well, so, yea - jokes aside: Neo Gnosticist would do. Thats just the right way of putting it. 'New Gnosis'. But so - for being something, or so, collectively doing something, being organized, ... there has to be some Institution - at which point; If I were to surround myself, at least ideologically, by a frame/building like that - there were 'that' Institution/Body - and by "definition" of the One also the only right one! Proper one. As all 'Neoists' would agree with!
Neo Gnosticists on the other hand would have a longer way to get there - but - so, right off the bat - we have a scheme, yea, a 'pyramid scheme' - as for the many ways that lead to the same door.

And as it goes on - the ways split again after they passed through that door - so, the letter 'X' were there, rather than Lambda (Λ), though, if we wanna grow intellectually we may wanna return to the David Star. As of which there are also 'Davidists'. I mean - Neoists as opposed to Davidists rather follow the idea of 'the One' - as your average guy who got treated by fate and what not to ultimately become 'the One' - where 'Davidists' go further and use the figure of David as also idealized by Jews and Christians as Ancestor of the Messiah - believing in a greater plan of God bestowed upon him/me - therefore however expecting a wider pool of ... 'stuff' ---- essentially. Anyhow - we'll get to that later - I guess. I mean - to emphasize my expressed intentions: Where I fail - you have to acknowledge me as being also 'only human'. So, everything beyond me is social effort - and consequentially were that the thing that would decide whether "this" is gonna end up being 'yet another Cult' or 'actually' capable of surpassing that as to live up to its purpose. Salvation for everyone - as mentioned in the Bible, that the Spirit will be poured out upon all flesh. Regarding that I do belive that the Bible is held ambigious about 'the true ending'. The Revelation may be the last book - but there are other passages throughout the Bible that foresee certain "endings" that would eventually even contradict those of certain interpretations of the Revelation. And this 'idea' is therefore why we're then 'Apocalypsists' rather than 'Revelationists'. ??? Well - that still needs some thought!


We then also got a thing for 'Neo Buddhists'. "Meta Doisits"! I mean - its fun to think about it!




Let the Cult be taking shape!

I think one of the main problems that the formation of a Cult summons is the discovered 'governmental' freedom - as governments are nothing 'but' the accumulated power of a social compound. Kindof like a religion though. The citizen becomes stupid about what the governors do - and the governors get more power in process. So, once a group isolates itself from this world - they realize that they need rules; And while all are in the same boat and share the ambition to work together; They are free to make whatever laws for themselves that they deem fit; And once the topic of Sex is on the table and everyone is happy to join in - that would lead to all sorts of more and more perverted habits!
Eventually it would then happen that the one side thinks about something one way, while others think differently; So the Cult breaks apart and the leader seeing him or herself responsible of keeping things together might resort to violence; And yea - we've also heard about such things before!

My Analytical mindset or whatever provides me the insight, that this drawn 'outer Circle' (labelled 'Sex') is like a maelstrom - where at the bottom center there is all sorts of weird stuff. Have you seen the movie 'Pet'? Its some weird Stalker/Horror movie - which tackles this issue in a very interesting way. It really takes a weird turn at some point; Which I want to leave here as a ... well, more 'common audience' friendly 'emotional marker' to this subject. It would at first not seem like it makes a great 'first mentioned movie' in this case; But - if Sex is ultimately going to be a central 'issue' - that movie is kindof there in the center of 'that' - and what we see in that is right away a sortof tangible construct of ideas that ... . Have you seen the movie 'Inferno'? I mean, do you know the picture of 'Dantes Hell'? We can think of the movie 'Pet' as one reflection on the waters of a pond - the pond resembling the top layer - so, the 'Dantes Hell' picture being that maelstrom - if we relocate the picture into a Sexual Domain.
Where ... its a problem; And to solve it we actually do 'want' people that are 'like that'. While we had none ... it might not be a thing; But ... I know we have at least one because I consider myself being one. Which makes this whole thing possibly a little bit uncomfortable for you; And some might be really really upset about "allowing" me to be in privacy with others like me; Especially if they were parents! But even if not - it'd take less than a year to get there!

Resorting to the Scientific Method however - I don't wanna stick to definite things just yet. At first we only have theories; Or hypothesis' - I'm not too sure about that! And the first Hypothesis were that every human being has a 'fathomable depth'. Saying - there are those that would feel certain things about whats shown in 'Pet' strangely enticing, to the point of possibly labelling those feelings as 'tempting'. But so - if those things 'tempt' you - we'd 'fathom' your depth as "that deep". So - one thing I would expect from everyone joining in is to get serious about that; As to dare say the truth! It won't matter too much if you'd restrain from that, but it wouldn't do an aweful lot of good in this sense!
Next; The question then is: Is that identity or consequence? I mean - are those things 'absolute' - as, we can't change it; Or are it consequences, like a trauma, that can be cured? And we also may want to know: How many ponds are there? I have that suggestion that humanity effectively first emerged as 'clouds' - so - there are those that are very similar; To the point that they would think that they way they are is 'normal' - but are in essence just one connected 'cloud' that emerged vastly independent to others. These clouds presumably went through various stages of evolution; Whatever. We don't really have access to that yet - and the best way to get to a more accurate idea were to be found within us - individually - counted together. So - through individual revelation we'd get an idea of the different "backgrounds" - which would then translate into different ways of having fun together.


Here I'm trying to give you an idea of how 'the bottom of the pond' would look like 'when' actually pursuing 'maximum freedom'. And so naturally some of us may wonder: How do we get there? But I don't really want to turn that specific side into the main thing here - due to which I come to emphasize or express that that whole thing was to me, initially, more something like a nuisance. But ultimately I can't free myself from ... myself ... as I discovered my Kink way before I discovered 'the' Orgasm.
However - I so actually want to move away from that - but it kindof belongs into a Cult; ... - and as of that it would be one of this Cults established standards that that kind of stuff belongs to a healthy understanding of our sexuality.

To however be more reasonable than that - at first we would begin by scouting things out. We should so at first look for social matches - and then see which expectations those matches meet in reality. Like, is there a synergy? Beyond that we can go on and start aligning to each other in regards to what we 'think' is right; Where standard BDSM stuff were as deep as we'd get; Arguing that none of us would dare a step further! Here we would go and say that our Kinks - as they so happen in our minds and influence us emotionally - are just that; Things that go on in our minds. So the 'dream' of being kidnapped and raped for instance becomes fulfilled 'emotionally' - as 'emotional dominance' can invoke the feeling of captivity in the subject who would thereby align devotely as that is ... what that person wants and likes - so - its Kink. There were no rape then, because of that devotion due to which the "victim" does willingly comply to the dominant side. And similar things should happen everywhere, in any regard. Just an approximate alignment to the internal reality - as also in a sense of sacrifice - so, sacrificing 'the perfection' of the own dreams for the sake of actually being able to fulfill those private desires.


Necessarily this Cult will then be a 'social science club' - basically. Basically first of all just there - interested in allowing people to come together; Based on shared interests; While there these interests become subject to more elaborate concerns as the people who are involved have that extended common sense to forward these interests. They can work together; Working towards a preliminary presentation of whatever this group is concerned about - which is then there for all to see, relating to which we can relate to each other. So - eventually we'll that way see for instance how certain groups can now be put together into a higher orgnization - as to the point that we would get something like a government. At least thats what I hope - or expect. Until then however I don't think we have a basis to take this any more seriously! I mean - you get the idea!

It is thereof however clear, that this Cult or Church or Club or whatever has to be setup accordingly. I think of it as a snow globe. The glass ball is what this Cult is all about in first place; And the stuff therein is what is being built. So, its not the thing itself - though, the final thing as a whole. I however am not finding myself as capable of moving any further. So the whole process up unto the very basics of coming together, figuring out which primary groups or whatever we have as to further get to a preliminary landscape of "clouds" - thats something we're all supposed to be a part of. And this is it for now!


by: Christopher Nikolaus Sonnberger | 2017.01.13 - 12:51