Warp 2

"Trump Voter Didn't Think He'd Deport HER Husband" - now thats a Headline - and it fits in just as the fist on the eye.


I'm handeling the breaks now - by the way. I mean, I'm trying to hit the virtual breaks as hard as I can - not sure what I expect; Since its basically just in my head - but thinking that I'm cautious enough when I'm running towards a mob of enemies in For Honor is usually whats getting me killed. But yea. On the other side playing defensive in For Honor doesn't work for me. If you take the lead you got the lead - sotosay. And so I prefer to take advantage on that and let the game be one of seeing where it goes from there. And once I really hit the breaks hard - I'm basically cancelling all the things on my mind and eventually so find myself just there without anything to do - and from there I'll see what matters first.
What mattered first is that I have to do something. I know that because I can't just turn around to stuff like taking a nap or cleaning up (I've already done a bit) ... but so ... I would have to wait for things that come to mind and wait until I have an advantageous idea. Well - so the idea however.

On a short note: Although I don't fully understand a few of the things that I didn't understand previously still - I'm quite OK with having "boxed" Secular Talk "out" somehow. For once - well - standard position: If he's a cool kid he won't bother. Which is one thing. I mean, you either 'do' have reasons to worry about how I might position you, or you don't. Some might have to for other reasons which is stuff that I'm then responsible of and yadablayada - whatever. However, getting him boxed out of at least my general perimeter gives more 'space' to a really big core issue/concern regarding the press - which is trust and transparency. Of course trust and transparency can be dismissed in favour of certain goods - but that is basically a road of detrement. Its a road we would take reluctantly - and it damn sure shouldn't be the norm!

As of today I don't think we even have a proper ground to even use words such as trust and transparency because way too much jackshit is going on - and thats ... a thing. So whenever someone shouts 'scandal' and everyone is up on toes about it - thats the kind of atmosphere we're in today - and that doesn't help a lot. And so - there is no 'safe space' to talk about trust and transparency. I mean, ... there is, but not so in the general public; As the other party will come in and blow up their "grenades" trying to get us back into that 'tail-chasing' kind of attitude where they can pull their nonsense in the shadows of the fallout.


Then I have noticed yet another thing. Its regarding the 'delay' issue. So I've been watching a Video on the Republicans struggle to get their health-care thing straight ... and as I was trying to see/understand what their problem might be - I realized some feeling thats basically identical to some other feeling regarding the delay issue. So, in terms of health-care the underlying issue were the following: Single-payer (???) vs. However it is right now. I don't understand why its called 'single-payer' - but I understand thats what we have here in germany. And I understand that the american system right now is a bit weird. It doesn't really matter either. Single payer probably means that the state pays I think - as however - thats where the problem is at. So, I wondered - and its difficult to explain the process on my mind there - you could visualize it as though I would be having two plastic discs and put them together and see whats happening. So I take the republican idea disc and move in the single-payer idea disc - and there I then got this 'jarring' feeling like someone yelling "noooo, don't!" pushing the single-payer disc away sotospeak and the concern there is money. Well, I have to add that prior to moving the two together I implied my understanding regarding what those discs meant from a financial perspective. So, republican idea: 800 billion tax-relief for the wealthiest. single-payer: The state pays. Now I don't understand the problem, ... but what matters is this "no, we can't effort it" attitude while I've heard elsewhere that its well within reason. And what matters even more is this 'feeling' - this "no, stay away" kind of "you can't tell whats going on let me have it my way" kindof ... thing. And I feel like thats whats keeping a lot of people back - usually in a situation where things are boiling hot maybe and people would be almost as pushed to get me on board which is then something they wouldn't want. And while I previously stated that the Antichristians seem more keen on bringing me in - I suppose thats because the other side is more settled on their reasons for not taking any action. Hmm ... that is awefully weird. I ... there is another thing. Really faint though. They would want to bring me in, but that if they dictate the circumstances. But this jarring feeling is most certainly there and it means to me as much as "some bullshit reason nobody actually understands but whatever".

And I'm sure that it works well on the political playing ground - but fails to work where people have made their mind up and therefore know what they want. And so you get to trouble between people like this and people like that. And no, this doesn't qualify for a solution - although it does, which however means: Make up your mind!

I come to wonder - and then get to think: They seem to have bigger financial problems as we might think! What I get from that as well is that the plain and simple tactic to learn from this towards the benefit of all is ... we might call it the "tear their ass open" tactic. If you're ever in a position of defensive arguing and you run out of arguments while you kindof don't see the other side coming up with a lotof arguments, then its time to apply this tactic. The challenge is that of knowing where you satnd and to not allow yourself to get tricked into abandoning it.


Yea, there isn't much of a point to that - and what really really drives me mad is that ever so often I comment on stuff without any proper context to them issues. This is just something I noticed - while. I may have an indicator as to how long I've got left to wait. Because - these days when I think about doing some programming I feel like that whatever I'd want to do - I'd have to be done by end of april. Thats like some measurement of 'reason' - like - to assess whether there is a point to even just starting. But it might also be the other way around - that I have other things to take care of until then; Which is kindof the same thing however.

Kindof.

Dissapointed?


So, on to something more delightful. I'm quite sure ... well ... that almost nobody likes the Microsoft Scorpio. And that in direct correlation to much everyone loves Japanese Mechs ... those Gundam things. Kindof. But, everyone likes those things!
That'd be a safe Hollywood Blockbuster! A Gundam Movie .. or something similar - but they have to be ... "real"!

It might be the name of that thing already. 'Scorpio' ... I mean, the only thing worse would be "Not so obvious but still very practical Evil superweapon". Ish.

And the biggest mistake about the Scorpio is that the Console market is thereby taken too close to the PC market. You got to be a really die hard Graphics Whore of some kind to be into that thing, so much that you'd own a PC anyway already. And if that is your platform of choice you give a shit about the Scorpio. I mean ... thats how it is. And Developers/Producers may have their brains in the money, but, I wouldn't say that they are 'that' heartless. I mean - it should be somehow difficult to just hack some game together that really needs the Scorpio to run. I mean, with the PS4 we have reached, thats my 'lux-objective' oppinion, an equivalent of the SNES ... only so in the 3D era of gaming. And what really breaks the ceiling there are the 8 Gigabyte of RAM. To require more ... thats a matter of making more high-res models, or even larger worlds with even more detail ... but that would nowadays be the top of the tops of Quaduple tripple-A titles ... where, I feel like ... to put what I mean into perspective I have to point out that the Game Boy was/is more powerful than the computers used to calculate the moon-landing. So, PS4 and XBone already do pack a lot of power when just thinking of it that way. That does most certainly not matter when speaking of Games - which have their own kindof logic to them. And running games is the purpose of a console - and I don't think that performance issues are a problem we have these days.
What I base these asumptions on is my general feel for desires. I was pretty sure that Trump would loose the election, but as I was saying that back then I felt some uprising ... it was like I had a blind-spot for something and so there were all these desires, clearly stupid ones, while the reason why I believed that Trump would loose would rather so show itself today ... while Trump yet lost the popular vote. There are a few desires like that which speak for some success the Scorpio might have - but even they are urging backward. Its like nobody of wants anyone else to like it because we don't wanna deal with yet another Console and yet another performance war ... and I don't think Microsoft can come up with any convincing software to support the Scorpio either.

What strikes me about the PS4 is that it reminds me of an idea I had ... while I was trying to get on board with Nintendo. It wasn't an idea I planned on, but while I was thinking about what to put into my mail or while I was writing something - it just came to me: A console ... named 'Green Volcano' - while, to understand it you might want to take the Green Volcano idea I had more as something of a prophetic insight. I don't know why it mattered - but there are various ideas connected to it. First of all, it has to be 'green' - as in 'economy friendly' - though - more in the sense of an 'end all be all' device. Eventually all future PS4s are gonna be PS Pros, and that would last until there's no more PS4 - sortof. I mean, I feel about the PS4 as I felt about the GV, and thats the important thing for me. If you have the feeling that I try to convince you of anything - I'd think you're lieing. I mean, we could talk of 4K too. I mean, if Full HD is insufficient to you, its possibly more of a Tech Fetish than anything practical - and I didn't believe that the whole 4K thing would be much of a thing people wanted - though I think its more of a ... 'nice to have' - like - knowing that potentially there is a step up ... its there, we don't need to want it to be there anymore - and now that its there ... we kindof don't urgently need it. And our "western high society standards" ... I think they are high enough as it is already. Continuing on this 'more and more' road ... I think we can all agree on the matter that there is more important stuff to be concerned about.

Sony further sends a clear message of what they believe in, regarding Consoles - which is that the purpose of a Console is to last. They've hit the market right, at least when thinking of today, at which point we could say that they were 'blessed' - like, objectively. Microsoft is on the loosing end, and to get an upper hand they basically defy the integrity of gaming consoles - which I want to compare to politics. If we are supposed to believe that the Republicans are the good guys, we have to believe that this 800 billion tax cut for the rich is sortof needed - and the poor people have to bend over for it. So we are to believe that the good guys are having problems that the poor guys have to bathe out - or in other words: They have to resort to shady tactics to make things right - which is basically something you wouldn't want to do as a good guy - and cutting down on medic aid would be more of the last thing ever ... any good person would even dare to think of. And being a poor guy myself I really appreciate PS Plus - I mean - 50 bucks a year for around 3 free games every month ... thats awesome! And I don't even get to play them all. The only one I really really played hard was Invisible Inc.. And its not because the other games are shit - its ... I don't have time! I certainly don't get the feeling that I'm supporting the construction of a Death Star.

... [a day or so went by -> 03.27|13:13] ...

Yea, the whole weekend, actually. So I got high, played For Honor til 6 a.m., went to bed - had a good 15 hours of sleep - wrote some stuff, wrote this, slept, cleaned, played, watched some stuff. And it occured to me that as I was thinking about what the future might hold, that thats way too far ahead right now.
Aand I really don't feel like writing now! [13:17][13:41] And though I have been up all night - I can't sleep!

Too much shit is on my mind and none of it really makes any sense. Neither are there any thoughts I can hold onto for long enough to write about them. Ish. I mean, there's what I got on mind now - ... but no - its ... anyhow. Then there is stuff that finally sticks somehow - for instance: I can't add anything to the previous stuff I wrote - to say, thats as much as I can tell about these things. I don't have any handles or identifiers or whatyawannacallit or stuff that adds any more meaning to that. So your guesses are as good as mine.

There are then a bunch of other things that go into direction, well, how my mind has been altered due to Antichristians fucking it up - like: I'm about to say that I'm not sure whether I actually Love whom I Love - like, there are two versions to each story, and depending on which one is right I either hate them or not. And that even goes on in multiple ways. The one is that the Antichristians would constantly try stuff to somehow "switch in" - as on the other side I'm kindof up into hating all and everything I Love, but them - while being aware of them being (or "having been") my enemy - but there's one thing you can't be wrong about and if you know it you know it!


On the one side I'm convinced the problem is that everyone who's supposed to help me is somehow ashamed of something and since they wouldn't wanna tell me won't - to the point that I'd tell them to jump down a cliff because thats how useful they are. On the other side I'm utterly incapable of gathering any kind of hope because that just makes me sick. It really does. And so I'm kindof stuck believing that there is some hope - though I don't really believe/trust it - urgh, even this kindof makes me sick already. I mean - the sole notion of anything positive about hope is kindof ... totally depressing. Its kindof that what makes me eventually react really volatile - so in order to rid it from my system. My room now is as clean as it hasn't been in a long time - and I really don't feel like programming anything. Possibly because I didn't do so out of my own, but was essentially forced to do so - and yea, so my life is a shitrail - it kindof really is.

Which takes me to another thing. Do Videogames make people violent? Yes and No! There is something about shitty balance in an otherwise good game that gets you invested and makes you see all of it fly right out of the window unless your lowering yourself to the niveou of shit-tactics and asshole gameplay ... as ... For Honor. Like, once you see a Conqueror on your team your glad about it, if you see one on the enemy team you're close to leaving. And as I've been up against three of them and saw that I've been the only one left - I ... was out too. I mean ... gg my ass!
And before I'm gonna have any discussions regarding the balance in that game round about defending that kind of gameplay I'm gonna just say that I don't care and I don't have to play that game and so ... whatever. I've thrown the controller out of my hands more often than in any other game combined - and those few fun encounters don't really hold the balance there!

And I'm close to calling it a conspiracy. Like yea - believing that there is some science to it - to create the most aggrovating games possible. Like ... yea ... Destiny, what a joke! For years now they're fiddling with the PvP meta. So, the gist of the story is: People complain about getting sniped in the head all the time, so Bungie takes out special ammo - and people take out those special weapons that have some kindof ammo-spawn. Yea, they exist. If you use a side-arm it always has ammo, there's a sniper and a shotgun that basically generate their own ammo - saying, usually people have figured out a way to bypass the special ammo withdrawal - so, whats the point? Other than that those that don't have those weapons don't have any, while those that do have them ... have it their way still. The real problem I guess is though that some people apparently play with Keyboard and Mouse ... . If there's a way to do that, that should be possible by default. #GV.

And that agression sinks in, and soon you're blaming each and every shit occasion for some reason. Stuff thats possibly well within reason - stuff you can't actually complain about. Its one thing to get beaten by a good Orochi - its another thing to get beaten by one once you're steaming mad already. Especially once they beat you with the noobiest of noob tactics.

Regardless I'd give the game a 9.4 out of 10 - and it would have been 9.6 if it had local multiplayer. It can't be a 10 because a lot of things could have done better in my oppinion - as for instance armor/weapon stats and the perks/gifts/whatevertheyrecalled - but the way its done is OK ... can't actually complain about it ... so there are only minor demerits.


Something else I noticed while thinking of my software project is that I have some ... lets call it ... 'wind in the sails' ... when it gets to certain points where I've been already ... but haven't gotten around to actually build. So - things that I now can't actually take care of because I'm building everything from the ground up - so there to me is a logical disparity between what I want and what I "want". I put it into quotation marks because I don't actually want it, but I might if I took that wind for a real reason to go and want that. Makes me think of 'no mans sky'. Its like a piss poor way of taking what I had on mind to some next Level - and yea, we can only speculate about 'what if' I hadn't stopped wherever I have in-deed stopped!

Fact is that I haven't gotten any further than any of those "MoA Busters" - so none of the actual gameplay I wanted does exist, not on my computer and so on no other computer either! On the other hand the things that I have actually worked out ... do kindof exist. Thats admittedly not a whole lot - so, neither the Globe actually because I didn't come to flesh that one out entirely either. But on that side there's possibly a philosophical disparity between my position and "theirs" - as my Globe is square/quad based while they'd be more like "all triangles (because its the more logical thing and what not)". That would explain why there is no wind for me to work on that - but neither do I have a 'free go' on it either. Thats the hand of God holding me back.

And so I'm writing this. I don't know what to write about - but I know that is kindof what I got to do. Its the only thing I can do. Matter of fact I just tried to sleep as you could tell - but now I'm here anyway and somehow its going forward.


Maybe I should mention that as I got up from the sleep after I uploaded the previous thing, there were two guys on my mind that seemed sortof ... scared ... or ... kindof ... I don't know ... weird. Like they wouldn't belong in there. Or they kindof wouldn't want to be in there? Or, something. Metatron and Skallagrim. I mean, those channels are what I kindof got stuck on for no real ... big important reason. While the stuff I wrote on top is stuff I got from watching a few YouTube Videos, we might say there's a purpose to me spending time on watching stuff. You won't however ... sortof ... get any real big important life-changing values out of their channels and channels alike - especially, I just got that one Metatron video stuck on my mind where he's talking about the best Armor for a Zombie Apocalypse and if you'd check that out you'd kindof get what I'm talking about. Its fun! And yea, I should hate myself for pulling them into the big and serious spotlight ... while Lindybeige and Shad ... I mean, Shad is a Mormon so ... there's that ... whatever ... lets call it spirit ... and Lindybeige seems like a straightforward guy who ... I mean, he seems like "a man with a mission" - in some ... "alternative" sense. If Shad comes accross weird to you, you should definitely check out his videos on Castles.

In essence its I guess fair that those are kindof my virtual clique - kindof. I mean, there's certainly a common fascination - and while I'm also into Street Fighter for instance its more remote. I mean, if you look at my own work ... you kindof get the idea. So, the idea of, well, where my "heart is at".


As I was mentioning those rushes - I have however come to believe that they are something totally different. Matter of fact its from thinking of those that made me sad that basically ... triggered me into "hate mode" - and in general they are more of a ... "some offend me, some protect me" type of thing - and maybe the 'sad' one was truely just some rush ... showing me a person thats actually opposing me harshly whie it makes me sad to see that person doing that to me, effectively abusing a blind spot or something. Well, so, its a more direct 'being saddened' - while that person there is anyway already more so on the rather negative list I don't need to be more specific than that. And putting it this way is closer to how "not badass" I am in that regard.

I mean, I feel like I could easily beat up each and every single one out there - but when it gets to the Antichristians I feel as though my hands were tied. Oh yea, good point. Heart and Soul. Is there a real thing to selling either of the two, or giving them away however? I can't say for sure since its not like I've all of a sudden become stupid after I did so out of Love ... but either way - I sometimes can't help but suppose that there's something wrong with me - something that makes me do things I don't want to do. Those are rather subconscious things ... or peripheral thoughts. Things I haven't fully thought about - things I then tend to get wrong or ignore.
As a general measure of correcting myself I have to say: There are no absolutes (I guess). I mean, no matter how sure you are of something - and this isn't about God - its never as absolute as you might think. Prime example: My Kinks. Thats the other thing I wrote about - though not so much about myself but generally speaking of what I experienced as the next step - which turned out to be not that much of a 'next' step as I've basically expressed these things ... "symptomatically" a lot already.

The easy way of putting it is that I so far tried to make sense of certain parts of myself within the emotional sphere - and it wouldn't work out because thats not where they belonged to. Where they did belong to is a place that I haven't developped so far because its that part that would grow through interactions with other Illuminated people. I have now come to "get there" as the other part was basically saturated and in order for me to kindof make sense - ... I mean, basically I just got high and found that there is this ... higher and lower consciousness disparity. Higher consciousness meaning: Less individual - more independent. So, more social. Less ... 'intrinsic'.

And by the way - about what I 'think' I like ... there is no shame I feel about it - but in Hindsight I got to notice that those things changed every once in a while - its more like - whatever. Might as well be dragons! I feel like, I mean - its ... what I 'am' - when taking what I wrote of myself seriously - so - there is someone who legitimately owns me; As someone who can basically do with my mind as though it were ... software. I mean, changing certain bits around - so, programming me - per se. And I'm serious when I say that I wouldn't be myself without that!

In regards to what I would blame on the Antichristians there are certainly two different powers in play. The one influences me from inside out, the other kindof never really enters me. Its more like latching onto my emotional situation ... and thus effectively superficial - it doesn't ever really get 'under the skin'. (Although for non Illuminated individuals this can be a deceptive statement I fear. Once you have a true 'from inside out' exprience you can tell a little more of that, but you should be advised to stick to those things. "Stay empirical").


Now I kindof have to write some more about Atheists and Atheism. That so because depending on how you enter the YouTubes - Christians might get an awfully off impression of what I like about it/them. I mean, it shouldn't be/remain too much of a mystery - but, from a Secular Talk video on Justin Biber I've come accross an argument that I want to fetch up and write about. So, Atheists 'claim' to be tolerant - ish. Yet whenever someone has a Theistic oppinion they are ... I mean, for once its what they believe in so thats not much of a big deal ... totally on the fence about it. So Bibers statement was one thats kindof common amongst believers. Maybe the most common science related pro-God oppinion there is. The issue with the Big Bang. The thereby presented counter argument was belitteling Biber for that - despite it being maybe the most common Believers stance on the matter - as it is practically impossible to be a believer and not think that way about it - taking it so: the human being is a complex thing, and for God to create such a thing he would have to be even more complex - ... oh yea. Bibers metaphor was: If you put some gold into a box and shake it around you won't get a rolex out of it. And so ... who created God? Clearly, with the right knowledge - and knowledge of the theory is enough - this question is as silly as shit.
All Mathematical complexity emerges from Mathematical simplicity - and thats the mathematical perfection or infinity or beauty. The beauty of existence. So there are multiple fallacies in that Atheistic perception of Christian/Believers ideas - where just because you can find some argument against it you're essentially not proving yourself even just a bit smarter. I mean, we can take it to plain science. The complexity of this Universe emrged from a simple thing as well. Everything comes down to a few bottom fundamentals - and we might label the whole thing 'Lego Logic'. And when it gets to the human mind - science has no better solution for its complexity than any other religion. Here do Atheists just as anyone else expose what I would call 'aspiring perfection' - being "on top of things" - 'figuring it out' - to so stamp the human mind as something closer to perfection than anything else we know - except for math and the beauty of creation, although those have the drawbacks of not being intelligent - where the one up from that is 'the perfect mind' - that of which we're merely a shadow of. It wasn't created because there is nothing above it that could have created it.

I mean, clearly - when it gets to God, Atheists ... well ... have an inherant flaw to their oppinion. But more often than not they are on the right side of the story - because every once in a while Christians/Believers or 'so called's take it a bit overboard with their spirituality. And ... where being a Trump supporter and being a believer comes together ... we're kindof getting to the clit of the problem. Check out InfoWars amazing medicine against Radiation poisoning that is not quite actually made to cure anything whatsoever. Now that I think about it - thats one way of actually turning placebos into a commercial product. Illusionary medicine for illusionary illnesses. Amazing! And while Thunderf00t was tearing them a new asshole, I've got just the right dildo to slide in.

And this is a serious lesson for believers and believers to be. And if this were some show, I might wanna ask the Mormons to first of all do a segment on 'the Apostasy'.
Alternately you might wanna watch Stargate SG1 Season 5 Episode 20 - the Sentinel. If it weren't that "Sexist". I mean, 'everything is Sexist, everything is homophobic, and you have to point it all out!' - right?

Actually - I would even say, yes! Nature is sexist! But whats next? Green is bad? Ban nature?

That were another lesson. The more diverse we are, the more is required of us to get along with each other - but if we keep up with it - we learn to see in colors rather than just black and white. Or with 'two eyes' rather than just one. So you know ... 'depth'.

But well - it, the first one, isn't a lesson just for believers. I mean - don't we have that "tech creep" already? And thats dangerous! (We may not always have "SG1" around to save the day!)
Thats another thing I came to touch in the other writing. As I was so rambling on dealing with the various conflicts with the text that came to my attention. The "circumstancial nonsense" - uhm - issues about what God does and does not do. The example: Weed always somehow found its way into my life. Miracolously? Maybe. But there are certainly yet very real logistics behind that - and I couldn't finish that writing because I cannot tell you more about that! Just that its kindof the bad way to "blame it all on God" - saying: I know for a fact that I don't get my dope from a rift opening up in my room where bags of weed come popping out. And that basically leans towards the idea that I'm pretty much "tied" into my environment. What I enter when I leave this room is "sub-par" to what were 'ideal' - and thats where all the whining comes around like, how dare I complain about my situation? Yea, its a narrow line. Complaining or just pointing something out ... how you see it makes a difference. If you see me complaining you'll complain about me complaining. If you see me pointing stuff out you'll listen. And you'll know plenty of instances of saying what I say - just ... different. Like, who's guilty when someone gets shot? Oh dear ... OK, ... there's a sober stance, an objective one that pretty much deals with the matters at hand without going for any kind of religious supersticion. OK? I get my weed - yet it hasn't always been the best. I kindof get good dope every once in a while - thats not the point! But I'm not really nitpicky when it gets to pointing out various flaws in that "System". To put it in 'one' word: Schedule. My work in that regard is rather subject to "the Flux" rather than being 'free'. If I got bad dope coming my way ... I shouldn't really work on the more important things. Get the idea? And when I get the really good stuff - like the last bit I had - I can't always work either because ... its much better put to use recreationally. Eventually. At least this time it was.
Bottom line: If you 'demanded' any sort of objective/logical/pragmatic/... control - certainly there are ways better than just 'hoping' that shaking up a box of gold spits out a rolex.

I mean, I really wonder where Stargate Universe would have went ... like, put into perspective: SG1 Seasons 9 and 10 - you can see them as Antichristian - and therefore all in all effectively Atheistic. But up comes SGU with a clearly theological concept and woosh - gone. But so, you can note all the theistic undertones throughout the show. The fact that there are the Ancients doesn't remove God from the equasion! I would even dare say that every once in a while they're kindof touching on that topic ... and ... Mitchell certainly does - except you wanna take it as a 'breaking the 4th wall' type of humor ... !
Yet I think that the story of SGU was kindof up into thin air anyway ... so I might think that they well knew where it was going or it was just some inspiration that the Author hoped to get a lead on eventually. Well ... either way ... it is as it is.

SAD! Very SAD!


(It kindof seems to me that these 'new Feminists' are actually all transsexual in some sense, a.k.a. pissed off about being born female. Its kindof, at least Anita Sarkeesians entire narrative. She can't identify with any of the females in the industry and generally expresses some kind of envy for the male. But its not all bad thats come of it - I think. Maybe. Yet sometimes it is - certainly. It feels jarring when devs try to shoehorn some diversity into their games. And the one thing I think of is Horizon of course ... though I don't think they actually bothered giving FemFreq any credits - but just finding the right spot within the general turmoil of these days. And it makes perfect anthropological sense - so - there is no saying whether or not it would have come either way. It makes sense as I don't believe that if some major cataclysm happened that threw us back into the stone age we would loose our general social maturity - while also it makes sense to say that the offspring is of a multicultural origin - so that diversity is just generally normal ... here and there. ... Yea, giving her even just one credit is kindof ... awkward.
I mean, thinking of Zelda for instance ... the Character, not the game. To me she just felt wrong on so many levels ... ever since Skyward Sword at least. Wind Waker was OK though ... and btw. ... I really love(d) that game! Its the best amongst all the 3D Zeldas for me - although the world totally sucks. Kindof. There are a few redeeming things about it though. But what I mean is possibly perfectly Sexist. Link as a stereotypical male hero and Zelda as a stereotypical female royal ... something that works fine without words. Zelda is this divine figure - a princess - an emotionally strong woman capable of protecting that which is holy - a woman with dignity capable of filling a representative role - and link a.k.a. the guy that takes action a.k.a. the figure the player takes control of that is tasked with the challenges of saving the day. Wind Waker worked for me because the world is setup in some post-apocalyptic hyrule where there is no more established royal legacy of any kind - so - what would Zelda be? Naturally ... strong enough to fill her role! Though the princess version looks really ... cringeworthy ... to say the least. Kindof.)


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Yea, I didn't like mentioning her name either!


So, Apostasy - what is it? Its an absence of the knowledge and blessings that matter. So is Christianity setup on an order of Priests. It might sound strange to anyone 'Spiritual but not Christian' enough to be all like: Where's the point in believing in Christ (once I'm a good person, would it still matter?) - but the Priest thing actually quite doubles down on the opposite. So there is the Christian faith like, 'anyone' can baptize. There's however a logical problem with that. Anyone might just come up and start baptizing people in the name of Christ under some random ass Christian doctrine. Of which we kindof got some in the 10 thousands today - in terms of confession. So a Challenge to all those Christians: How to stick to Christs words that go a little some like: There shall be no disunity amongst you!?
The Priesthood is like an embodiment of Christ. Christ passed it down to the Apostles, from where it went out - and eventually the romans came down upon it - so there was Apostasy. Then some of the still living decendants of that legacy bestowed it upon Joseph Smith - however the details - and its around until the very day, where its blessings are a living testiony of Christ. Don't look for Miracles - try the sacrament, or ... get baptized! If not both. Most likely you won't come around sacrament on your way to baptism ... anyway. And so, the Priesthoods and the Doctrine (as of the Book of Mormon (3 Nephi 11 (LDS Enumeration))) are as much 'keys to the Kingdom of Heavens' as it gets.
If you want to take Theology anyhow seriously in any way you don't get around Christ and becoming a Christian yourself/in-process - or becoming a Hypocrite alternatively. And taking Christianity seriously there is only one way to figure out the right way! So, the Testimony!

A.k.a. however God personally reveals the truth thereof to you!


So, eventually I still have to stand up against Total Biscuit ... like ... I opposed Undoomed and Secular Talk so far ... seems ... there might be something to it. Well, TB, ... he's more of a PC gamer while I'm more of a console gamer - and thats in about it, regarding where I practically have to disagree with him - sortof. There are a few games that I have picked up because he recommended them - somehow - and I can't say I regret those purchases. We kindof went similar ways - so, from W.o.W. to Starcraft ... and the only reason I stopped playing Starcraft was ... that I switched to Linux. But apparently there isn't much of a security benefit these days anyway anymore to it. But eventually its better to being watched by the right guys and safe, than being not watched and living in danger. What else? I think he has this way about himself that does make him sortof ... this isn't the right way!

Oh yea, he kindof believes in competition whereas I rather oppose the idea - where he so is more Libertarian than I am. Although I can't fully oppose the Libertarian idea I can however neither take it as an ideology of mine. At least not to the extent of sanctifying the concept free market as a high good. And this isn't a bitching or whining about ... oh yea, there's something I have to throw in as else I might forget: I have some advise coming from what I would say is 'his direction', being that I should write less in negatives. So, not saying ... yea, just like this. Not saying 'not saying' but rather saying 'saying'. Anyhow ... this is no bitching or whining about how the good guys couldn't handle it, but more about how the bad guys are given the power to screw us over. And by 'us' I don't mean 'us' - but rather 'you'. Yea, its an ideology when given into the wrong hands certainly would backfire.
Competition for once however becomes entirely meaningless - at least so in regards to Arts - when understanding that every good artwork is done by independent individuals that have an indepedent/individual vision that is good as standing on its own feet. Competition took us to the point where Entity A comes up with Product A, and then Entity B comes around and adds a few bells and whistles to it making it Product B and we'd have to call it a better game, so that Entity A basically fucked itself for creating Product A in the first place. Is that a Nintendo vs Sony thing? I'm not sure. Some stories go like Nintendo were the morons, other stories go like Sony were the pricks. Yet Sony's move was potentially risky - considering the wide support that Nintendo had whereas Sony had basically nothing. And yea, rip-offs never really worked out for anyone all that well - while good games generally become classics and the rest gets forgotten. But thats in about as far as my Libertarianism goes.
Like, to really get to the core of the good or bad of Competition - we have to look at real competition. THQ is no more! Minecraft vanishes into Oblivion while Microsoft now holds the rights to it. Starcraft has troubles staying afloat because of DOTA and LOL. So ... 'money' is the currency here - the 'points' on which entities compete - and clearly Gods all-embracing presence also embraces the free market - that is not the problem. But if we generally took it this way, we wouldn't notice being part of the shittiest solution to everything possible even if it kicked us deep in the ass.
In a logical world - which twitch kindof sortof tries to be on top of it all - we would recon that Starcraft nourishes a player based as based on Genres - so the actual competition is between DOTA and LOL and not between the two as One vs. Starcraft. This kind of separation doesn't exist these days. For my "political" ideas there is no need to say "we need an RTS, make one!" - which would work out as badly as the whole marketplace these days ... full of sequels we kindof have to like in order to keep things going; Or all the crappy game adaptations of movies that don't work out because someone said "we need [...] game, make one!" - for instance. I mean, eventually some crafty folks can figure out: We need a proper engine, we need some fun game mechanics - and somehow throw it all into a pot and then shit it out at some point - while there are genrally 'good' ways of porting a movie/comic into the gaming world. Its a technical possibility. Spiderman would be a great example. Or the Batman games, apparently. One could also go around and ask people for which games they enjoyed to have a rough idea where to start - but that then is awefully close to predatorian behaviour. The 'free artist' is basically outpowered by the 'big industry' - while then there's also publicity and marketting budget. Like - Invisible Inc. vs. X-Com. There should be something like a Tactical Turn Based Global Strategy and Management games category - and due to all the praise that Invisible Inc. received it would be pretty much on front of that page. Then let all the people who played it ... who are into that stuff ... rate X-Com, and let it compete against its real competition rather than giving it the power to just stomp down upon it because its big industry. While I yet stand by it that I rate the recent X-Com as rather giving people the illusion of playing a true X-Com game than being a true X-Com game - difficulty is an over-rated term - and taking casual TTBGS&M gamers aside, I'm quite sure that the originals would yet rank higher than the recent ones.
And it would probably not even diminish the games successes! Though I would argue ... but thats speculation ... .

Then it is extremely difficult to rate Zelda BOTW vs any other Open World game because of console restriction. We have three industry "giants" that are competing on the Console market - and don't tell me that a lot of that competition doesn't boil down to silly bullshit. #fanboys. I mean, I've been a Nintendo dude myself for long enough to not be surprised about the high scores that Nintendo usually gets - and yea - its not entirely unjustified - like, comparing WipeOut to F-Zero is like blasphemy! But looking at F-Zero GX is ... kindof ... awkward as well. And thats what Nintendo has become for me. Good games done bad! I mean, if For Honor were done right - there's no way I could give For Honor as it is a 9/10! And Destiny: How about: In order for weapon X to spawn any ammo there has to be at least '1' in the mag/barrel?
But noo ... that would be fair! Kindof. And who cares that the shotgun is essentially worthless - its the snipers that matter anyway!
In that regard Destiny is so full of shit ... it ain't funny!
Pseudo-Quote from my brother: How does Bungie nerf the Titan? They take away a bit, and give him some exo equip that re-adds that bit plus something extra.
And thats what I hate about the "Superbuild" philosophy. It works well in W.o.W. because its PvE centric - you don't really piss anyone off - ... or well ... whatever. It gets shitty when that Superbuild is just bullshit - something that people are eventually too proud of picking up! In W.o.W. at least there is purpose behind each build. Tank, DD, Healer. There's a purpose, there's a logic to fulfilling that purpose within the confines of the Universe, ... done! In destiny however there are only three truths: MIDA, 1000-yard stare and in the heavy round switch in the 'the Truth'. MIDA and the Last Word are essentially so far ahead of any other weapon of their category that its pointless to even try - and the whole game seems to get balanced around that. Love playing with Hawkmoon? Well, you're out of luck dude! (Sometimes I feel like it misses on purpose). Like, I do have a decent Handcannon and Pulse rifle that aren't any of those weapons - and the Handcannon is actually 'really' good - but its like - if your playstyle isn't that of a douche you're kindof lost. A.k.a. Teabagging your mum. You know it hurts when you know you've been trolled! And payed 60 bucks for it! Or even more! (Take this with a grain of salt)

And I wonder why Unreal Tournament didn't gain as much popularity as Quake. Possibly because it was "too lame" compared to Quake. And because its sequels kindof really sucked in comparison.

Street Fighter 4 did piss me off on a similar level. Its like, Rose was good - but at a disadvantage against in about everyone else. Adapting sounds good on paper - but its pointless if the fun of the Character is no fun because there's no use for it. So a general theory however.

And so, competition - well yea, if there's some sense of sportsmanship. But money rules the world - everything runs on money - and so there are those that would sell their mum for it - so, its not that far fetched to say that this kind of competition lures out the worse of us - which is basically the opposite to good.


So, to think of it this way ... of how close I get to my Utopia without removing money ... we first need an illuminated front-end to everything, have base-income for everybody and implementing certain (as 'particular' as 'sure') advantages for people that do work that is important. We need free education for everyone - and generally a better, more open education system. We need degrees on a 'per subject' basis that everyone is free to acquire when meeting base requisites - as though it were a skill tree in a videogame. Having some "free page" for a fair social rating to account for things such as discipline, spirit, free-thinker and whatever wouldn't hurt either! Though - I guess that should always be backed officially - like - less beaurocracy, more pragmatism. The problem is that we kindof want what we are afraid to want - at some point however - like, when making the Government responsible for tracking our history of labour and stuff like that - we kindof worry the 'Enemy of the State problem'. But thats then where money is the only solution anyway. Because if the government wanted to - it could do whatever to you anyway - maybe even more so in a low-tech society. So we want hard and software that is independent ("unplugged" a.k.a. "Fuck always on(line) politics") - so that in case you get screwed over you have something of a guarantee that the things that ultimately matter, excluding the things you got screwed over about, are still there somehow. So, essentially ... speaking "Zombie Apocalypse" ... sortof. "High Tech Survival".

Alternatively only the elite could have that - something like a 'fake internet' ... for instance ... that no normal person could hope to get their hands on.

I would suppose that in perfection this will require some 'class system' - like, the higher your education the more valuable you are to mankind - while that further has to compare in regards to saturation. So if you're just lazy - your on the lowest class. And for 'people' ... or ... you would have to agree to it - and hence you'd want to know what the lowest class gets. If its better than nothing, its better than nothing! Period!
For this to get proper though there have to be certain things that are valid for everyone, regardless of any class ranking.

Further there is a problem relative to 'mass' - I mean - where pragmatism would dictate that construction workers are high-class members, but there's a problem in the numbers. So, doing a shitty job would kinodf stay doing a shitty job - but that is basically the last problem we have to tackle. I mean, once that is solved - the thing is finally round. Bottom Tier. Then comes inflation and deflation. And so we get to that part of the Revelation where it speaks of the two beasts and the 666, the part with the mark - without which nobody could buy or sell. Chapter 13. The second beast kindof would or could be me - though verses 14 beyond the first line to, including, verse 16 except the last line kindof don't make sense to me though. So, lets break it down, as it makes sense for me:
11: And I saw another beast ... . looking like a lamb, talking like a dragon. Check.
12: This is while me is accused of being the Antichrist, the balance shifts around in favour of the first beast - so the people come to worship the first beast.
13: This might be a hint regarding the Matrix thing. So, fire from the Heavens being a metaphor as for 'light from beyond'.
14: This would not be about the Matrix, but kindof. Its about things I'm up into doing, sortof as predicted by the first beast - at which point I'm by doing what is right, am however also kindof obeying the first beast - so, this wraps back to verse 12.
The rest, including verse 15 - well. I guess I can see a point now. It means that I'm forcing you to honor the first beast by building a setup - sortof pointing you into the direction of the story of Elijah - speaking of a showdown. Then
15: Is about where the fire from heavens becomes more real - or - you might already kindof see it in my recent two Matrix videos. Alterntively the aforementioned image could be what YouTube is a part of - where I were forcing you to build it indirectly - or so - as a reverse psychology thing - where I'm going one way and you'd take it the other way. The sign I'm forcing onto your forehead or hand - that would be something found in earlier verses or books - the sign on the forehead being that which the angel puts on those saved - and for the hand ... I don't know. I however don't have any plans like that. In the prophecies regarding Israel its however mentioned that people will write 'his name' onto their hands. Might correlate.
17: the first part is where we're at now - while the latter part ... well. I'm not sure because
18: Mentions the number as the number of a name of a man - where this goes two ways for me: Either this second beast isn't me but yet another impostor - or its me - and then there are another two ways: Either I'm unaware of something, or its the VICARIVS FILII DEI (Vice of the Son of God) stamp stamped onto 'me' rather than the Pontiff or rome. Or lol ... maybe 'Christopher' a.k.a. 'Christ-bearer' a.k.a. 'Vice' - Nikolaus a.k.a. 'Nike Laos' a.k.a. 'Victory for the People' a.k.a. 'Son' and 'Sonnberger' a.k.a. 'Sun retriever/saver' a.k.a. ... "God". ... OK, thats kindof far fetched - but ... enough to raise an eyebrow ... I believe! Or this is actually referring to the first beast.
The reason is that we'd need some identification to kindof say how much food you're entitled to buy - and such - as inflation or deflation are problems of supply and demand - and the actual problem were 'unreasonable supply and unreasonable demand' - like - the more money we'd just 'print' - the more money there were around and people would be inclined to waste it, then eventually causing a shortage of supply, thus we get to rising prices. But with this step we'd finally take down wallstreet - sortof - which to me is rather so a measurement of time; As - this idea is just thin air nonsense until we get there.
Alternatively there's a way of implementing that ASAP - not yet implying any inflation/deflation considerations - as a matter of bullying those out that don't wanna take part in it.


There is however certainly something wrong regarding a picture of the 'latter days' when taking it Biblically. The Old Testament does at some points draw a clearly positive picture - whereas in the Revelation we see none of that; Like, 'the spirit will be poured out upon all flesh' vs. 'all people will worship the beast' - thats as straight of a contradiction as there can be. And when studying the old Testament properly, you'll find a lot of the New Testament values - to the point that you can actually take the old testament as 'rule book' - being certainly the more sophisticated/history-rooted volume - as in this case. Daniel for instance mentions a rolling stone - which is another thing missing in the Revelation. But speaking of 'finite issues' - the old Testament is clear on the matter, ... that the evil will be most utterly defeated - and to make proper sense of the Revelation here I maybe don't know enough of the things that have been going on beyond me. Either way, I do generally like the idea of 'evil getting utterly defeated' - and yea ... I guess ... this is a good time to close this.



a Job of Elijah

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