OK, not too long ago I wrote something and it ended with an idea of how one thing I hadn't planned on basically changed the situation I was writing
about ... so, that was just a few hours ago. And ... I can't help but focus on the un-Unified people out there - where first of all I have to say that
I'm really not as smart as I think.
I'm weirded out a bit right now - and whatever ... I guess I have to first of all congratulate 'AtheneWins' - and his crew - except he's some kind of
genious uber-troll of some sort. I guess not though. Well, that recent video he uploaded really ... hit me like a truck, kindof. I mean - I had this
weird sensation ... I've been sweating - being sortof worried that it might come from the other end, but the things conveyed in the video, well, lets
say that a lot of things sounded awefully familiar and as I so noticed that its right down my alley there is this feeling of shame mixed with - I don't
know ... maybe its just shame or the worry of being put to shame; Where in some sense yea - I've been owned!
There is this girl that spoke about feeling like there's some friend thats guiding her through life - and I figured: Yea, I know that guy! Makes me
wonder though - for how long its been going but mostly, how it got going to begin with. But I guess that I did at some point down the road stop to
bother about certain things - things I actually should totally be bothered about; except - things have been taken care of otherwise. So - turns out I
kindof saw it coming a long time ago already; But I ... I mean, yea, actually things match up - I mean, there is no ... and thats weird - I guess the
weird thing still not properly concluded so far - because the reality so doesn't turn out to be even a tad different from how I had it in my head -
but I just couldn't wrap my head around it - so - I kindof totally didn't know what to expect.
And so - if I can embrace this that way - then I guess it would be totally awkward if I were to just go on and pretend they don't exist or something
alike. I mean ... aaaaawee-sooome!
So - I mean, I had things on mind like taking the whole Unification thing to the next Level - trying to figure ... well, all that stuff that they
did - and whenever, it weren't too many times though, I tried to talk to someone about it they were, ... I was reluctant anyhow - and its really that
Step 1 part thats the toughest nut to crack. I mean - Step 2 if I understand it correctly is about working out the issues of denial that are primarily
caused by group pressure for instance; So, everyone believes in God and "swears" its the thing and all the logic has been thrown at them ... and the
trick is to really find ... the right itches I guess. Though some of the pictures really do look scary!
So - that makes me legitimately a celebrity now I guess ... although, if I had to guess I'd say I'm vastly kept out of the open because its not really
all that important. I'm ... what was it ... person one? And its crazy how the mind can't properly explain why things are the way they are but - its just
OK that way. Perhaps things just got started on a whimp and blew off from there - and we anyhow don't wanna move on unprepared.
From the sounds of it you/"these folks" are however mostly still pretty "young" - naturally - a few years behind me with less 'out in the open' experience,
but what to the Un-unified person might sound a bit ... uncomforting is ... well, think about that discomfort, and imagine it were comfort. The point is
- where you feel that discomfort - that is nothing wherein God isn't. So - we could say that I myself wasn't comfortable gathering this 'out in the open'
experience - although I totally didn't care. I mean, we don't turn into emotionless beings that are constantly surrounded by a cloud of LSD or something;
Life goes on as you'd expect it to go on - except that everything changes. And to hear that the increase of intellect can actually be measured and the
magnitude - that really helps! Thats re-assuring!
But this isn't a universal increase. Its rather one that helps you understand the things you always wanted to know more about - and there are also only
"so many" things we actually care to know more about!
So - after all I feel humbled - I guess thats the best way now for me to describe that sweat - honored and humbled - and I suppose there are now people,
younger than me, that know a whole lot more about it than I do. "As I said" (hehe) - we can totally trust things to science and expect a lot of positive
returns. We don't need dictatorship. Hierarchy is inevitable - yet, I wouldn't know more about it than they do. At least ... I mean, phew ... this is
actually kindof complicated. I mean - the formulation bit - yet so, without a formulation it remains just a faint idea until someone manages to formulate
it. However - there is a boundary I shouldn't overstep - and thats for me to stay in my comfort zone as to leave them to theirs. Or everyone to its/their
own. So - whats happening is that I have the feeling that I should try to help - or something - and in doing so, as via these words, I don't really have
a concept yet of how I fit in - but if I'm so overstepping my boundaries I'm feeling it in a variety of ways. The most logical is the simple feeling of
being stupid. So - thats the part where I have to learn that the weight of the world doesn't rest on my shoulders alone - and I can safely ignore certain
things as there isn't really a way that I could possibly be of any help in those regards. Social issues - well - thats something everyone is in some way
responsible of - yet ultimately its also entirely beyond each and everyone of us. We've been there though ... but ... what I meant is that firstly its
ones own things - so, what you are is what you are - and part of it are things that are a part of it. I mean - think about the Legend of Zelda for instance.
There is the protagonist, Link, and Link genuinely needs his equipment. Without it he might still be Link, but also kindof pointless.
So - to conclude: You can't be yourself if you can't be yourself. So - knowing yourself is essential to understanding what you need and therefore, well,
what you should expect to get - at some point. This leads back into society - and is barely just about physical things.
Although ... well. OK - anyhow ... lets ignore that part for now.
Sometimes strange things happen to me. The previous writing that I setup ... I was a bit confused at the beginning and maybe you realized that. I had my
head in some topic - while - the spirit in me wanted to ... start differently. I began somehow like 'I want to expand more on the Ultros Power' - while
the spirit in me had something along the lines of 'I want to expand on the recent philosophy' - which now essentially means to me, now, that I should try
to share some of the good advise or stuff about ... 'growing up' - I mean, perhaps there is some expectation/interest of that kind - while I wasn't really
there yet.
The difference between what they do - what I could offer and the medicaga part is that once they are confronted with 'hard problems' - science has a solid
base to expand from. What I can offer is however mostly the experience of being in this alone - and so, maybe thats the best point to start from.
So, how long am I in this now? Its 11 1/2 years - and so far I have established for myself that Marijuana helps. It helped me through the 12th, into the
second 9th, I guess even into the 11th - but what these things have in commin is that they are cognitive ... do "you" guys have anything to do with the
sudden legalization of weed everywhere?
And this ... sortof out of nowhere 'rush' against the "corrupt Government"? I mean - it makes sense. ... So, Trump is the Senator Kinsey of the real world.
Anyhow ... so, well, maybe I should rather look into the problems I've had. Errors. Simply speaking, it can be a bit confusing to sort feelings, impressions
and all that into the right drawers. Eventually thats however just a matter of time. So - I mean, ... yea, my solution to everything is just - well - move on
and hope for the best. So ... not too helpful right now.
But its I guess yet a good point - God is great - period! This ... I mean, I guess I shouldn't do this.
So, what am I doing? Whats my place? Whats my ... thing? Right now I'm kindof blown away - still. I really like the video - while, I must say I've been
looking at Athene since he started his whole science thing rather suspiciously. And essentially I'd have to apologize as well. I guess it will however stay
that way; Saying - this encouragement to stay skeptical, it now applies to me. Now I find myself in that situation where I'm the one that is skeptical and
against logic or reason I can't cross that bridge - and things are good that way! But I'm happy. About him, for him, just all in all - glad! What bothers me
is that I've also been at the point at some point where I've had rather hostile feelings towards him - but now that I think about it in this context I don't
feel that I should be bothered by it. I'd rather say that its perfectly normal. Its one of those emotional barriers and its consequences that exist as part
of our individual directions - and the weird thing right now is that the space between him and myself isn't really fleshed out yet.
At least - not to my understanding. So - as for my "equipment" - Athene wouldn't be anywhere near me. So - he's doing his thing, he's doing a great job,
so - I guess what was due at some point is something like a reaction, because well - we're sitting in the same point and essentially I assume we can say that
we share the same goals. So, he's a "bro" now - and that is where un-unified people have a whole lot of problems because they do not have those barriers
for once. There is no sense of ... lets call it 'social plasticity' for now. We'd eventually come to work together - because we're working on the same thing
- except we wouldn't because I'm not that smart or talented - yet we'd have differences that would seem totally irrelevant, we'd ignore them, trying to be
professional, while however kindof distorting some field of social interactions because one if not both of us wouldn't be where we should be. To say that
I'm not interested in what he does is wrong - though I was worried that he'd be some "wannabe try hard" "making on on science" and possibly being on a wrong
track ... but none of the videos I've bothered to watch since he started uploading again was actually bad!
So, in reality it turns out that I'm already kindof where I'm supposed to be. I'm in my own confines doing my thing ... most of which isn't really practically
relevant. I mean - to put it into context: The most important thing to me right now is to make something with ZQuest (Zelda Classic) - which seems to be even
more important than working on my own software. I didn't understand why - but now I believe that its a good and lightweight start into the things I so do.
I always loved building things - from Lego to Wolfenstein/DN3D/Half-Life/UT/Deus Ex maps - so, essentially to have fun with the things other people do/did -
while so far I haven't ever finished anything. The idea that I never will does actually chill me out - and while I do have this dominant urge to do that kind
of stuff - the negation of the/a 'finalization promise' is totally blasting me away. There's then perfect freedom of some kind, peace, while my being there
expects to be taken care of entirely - being in a state of nothing but being - and all my experiences are practically orchestrated for me - where the extent
of what I have to do narrows down to physical compliance - like, lift your arm, ... which is something like an almost comatose situation.
I however am not really sure about this one conflict - as there is a part of me - basically the software engineer - that seems to be too mentally active to
fit in. So - eventually I got to let go of that stuff ... which feels alright - usually - until I'm eventually sortof overcharged with creative energy. It
fits in though, if I stick to the principle of just doing whats easy and fun. So - instead of seeing it as a priority to actually finish anything, its more
of an ongoing long-term side-project that I get to work on every once in a while ... as I've just gotten used to ... not try to move on in order to achieve
some goal, but to just play around until I eventually find something that works for me.
Another note there is the issue of me being a diety - and the name that worked out the best for me - emotionally - thus far is ... its somehow ironical,
but maybe emphasized because "the people out there" have that kind of relationship to that name that resembles me the most ... well, anyhow, its Athena.
The thing there is that there is this Identity that I came to label 'RAW' - meaning that at some point its just about 'primary features' slapped all into
one idea - ... but I'm still a bit confused. I am I guess not even capable of being any good at solving this - at which point - all of my interests to
help, or be of any use, are in social comparison like that of a puppy. Its funny to look at, but not really meaningful.
I guess the only excuse from that is the one of being a mother-figure. I guess we can call this ... awrr ... its what I get for being human after all.
This confusion is also what I got once I seriously wanna understand my space - and yea, I guess thats a good point. How to describe the 'determined' in
regards of being effectively free? How to understand 'confinement' or ... yea ... 'bonds' - once your consciousness has established freedom for itself?
What I experienced at any rate is like a struggle, like wrestling an Anaconda, but that Anaconda is essentially your mind thats fluidly adapting to what
you established for yourself - and escaping into the voids beyond your reasoning. The one moment the idea of 'bonds' is a solid thing - the other moment
you decline to acknowledge that God would confine you into those - and you realize that you have no answers while you're moving back and forth between the
options you're providing yourself with - while you're inherantly trying to figure out whether or not you're just deceiving yourself. So - you establish
that demand for 'space' - a place to be - a place with rules and conditions - but what you thought you know doesn't appear how you knew it. I realized there
is that what I want, what I would want or what I hope for - popping in every now and again - relative to how my mind was aligned - and what I get from the
desire to be put into the mindset ... well, it made sense then, but now that would be put into question ... that helps me out, ... at least I believe thats
been it ... anyhow - there is the thing that sometimes you that way get to those points that 'snap' - and one of them is this inherant confusion through
which I exist in my 'desired condition'. Something that does however not work is to really make it up to God - as to demand God to do what we are supposed
to do ourselves. So the issue with freedom: We have the power to choose. What I learned was that God rather helps us understand what we want - where the
issue of God predetermining what we become is rather a matter of God projecting what we would choose. Once you're really in your own conflict you eventually
get there that you realize that while you'd make it up to Him, you start to wish for what the answer would be. Once you're more distanced from that struggle
the same things emrge, but they aren't a struggle - they're rather the answer you give yourself. My struggle there is anyhow rather irrational because
I don't really think I have any choices left. Thats why the only answers God 'can' give me are those that tell me what I am - indefinitely. Still however;
This right now is technically the answer to one of my requests "back then" - a better understanding of the forces that confine me.
"If they exist" - I mean - once these things are put into question they're removed from the things that work as foundation - while, once you're more
chill about it - more distanced to it - they sortof tend to automatically (re)-grow.
Its a bit mindblowing - or mind-boggling - but I guess thats rather just a weird thing about me; As - what else to do if most of the things you can do
cease to have a point. What my mind there actually did was I guess to desire conscious activity, so, I mean, a response to a general lack of the kind of
social interactions my mind requires 'after' having begun to doubt that what I believed in was correct.
I guess something of that sorts is mentioned in the Video. My situation there however rather is that a lock of social footing makes me recreate that situation
as mechanism to find that confirmation that I'm missing. Whcih is actually quite amazing - I mean, that casting ourselves into doubt can work as mechanism
to gain certainty. I mean, thats ... the logic of Truth ... it can emerge in a lot of ways; And while we may tend to desperately hold on to the things that
work for us - ... the Truth is true regardless. Thats one thing I experienced while writing. Sometimes I would think about something totally important;
But once trying to remember it, it'd be just gone. But being not too stressed about it but rather confident in that it will return if its all that important
- is much easier! And it works!
Yea ... thats ... nothing new! ... So ... well. I kindof feel like I have to elaborate on this some more - as back to the beginning - which leaves me to
recognize that I may not be in the position to properly reflect on that because the beginning for me was in a previous life. So, the question would rather
be: How free am I to change? And the answer that immediately popps into my head is the following: We don't enter this world as blank slates - and the challenge
of 'changing' is a matter of growing accordingly - and that growth gets to its boundaries - where our mind isn't an infinity, but everything it holds -
though it can infinitely grow (I assume) factors in percentually. So - if you take a piece of paper and you start drawing a tree - ... you can zoom in onto
any branch and add further branches to it - but the space that you can fill is limitted by the other branches. Yea - fractals are another good example.
So - I eventually arrive at those 'walls' - where the all-over me simply contradicts to whatever interests I may have grown ... and discomfort sets in as
I try to extend my ... whatever ... knowledge for instance. As in a fractal we can measure growth as 'depth' - and if we at some point wanna go one level
deeper - our mind somehow "cockblocks" against it if it so distrots the percentual alignment. Otherwise we have an extended desire if the situation is reversed,
so if one part is basically neglected. Thats why we do every now and again have to digest - or just ... take a break as we've reached our limits. Thats ...
at least a/the very simple way of putting it.
... I need to sleep!
"Athene Wins!"
by Christopher Nikolaus Sonnberger | 2016.11.25 - 03:45
The next morning
Feels like a brand-new day! And I'm sure I actually was at some point trying to point out how being worried about the future isn't really the right
thing to do - and well - yea, seems to be true. Its possibly not entirely wrong - at least if we're wondering why certain things are the way they are,
this or that may be a thing; And strictly not thinking about the future is anyhow nonsense; But things are yet built in the now.
But well - I mentioned it in the recent article, not the one above, that I have that feeling that there is/are more - but something prevented me from
believing that it would be all that widespread; In the YouTube/Gaming community - and I guess from looking at Athene I can totally recreate how
certain people must 'feel' about me. To my understanding Athene is now like in Science the discovery of Dark Matter. We only know its there because
we can't entirely explain certain movements we observe. I'm not sure if I would have been smart enough to figure it out like that. The thing is -
there are some paradigm shifts I've been almost certain about are/were real, but they didn't make any sense considering that there are people I'm sure
are real too that aren't exactly what we might call 'open minded about these things'. But ... uhm, well. I've been wondering - whether or not its the
Matrix thing that was at the beginning - but that'd make it like ... 2-3 years or so? ... Anyway - so - I've been really right at some points; And
maybe its just been too boring to wait and refusing to be optimistic led to a denial of all the good things going on which however had the result that
everything appeared more fucked up - and still - I'm really not good at certain things ... yea, thanks, ... 'perception' ... which we maybe could blame
on drugs.
But no - ... its just me ... and I guess that the main reason ... I mean, we're not all going to be scientists - although we can all grow to the point
that we have an efficient understanding of science. I mean - to compare it to Star Trek, well, lets just say that Deanna Troy is just kindof ... not a
crazy Bitch like her Mother is ... because thats the Character, while there ... I mean, its TV - not aimed to be Porn. What ... I'm sorry ... she is at
any rate not really the Science Character ... but ... I mean, it helps that she isn't like her Mother!
Uhm, ... what I mean is there more within the Subjective. We can relate to those Characters ... and to have something like a "main purpose" means that
we have to be different compared to whatever would be normal - while, despite being all different I am kindof astonished right now how normal all of them
actually are. Even Troys Mother. I mean - within frame and reference of whats normal for Betazoids. Deanna would be the exception - but we wouldn't call
her a freak either. Its ... Star Trek! Everyone's a freak in some respect.
And for things too good to be true - the constellation Data-LaForge - thats one of those things.
Anyhow ... yea, furthermore: Most of the really successful shows have one thing in common: There's always that "Freak" - Spock, Teal'C, Data, ... -
although TNG is really breaking the scale - for people to relate to; Either for themselves or as that weird Friend. And I think thats beautiful, I'm
almost crying.
Whats important to me - individually - is that I needed a safe reference to basically compensate for what has been true all along. I anticipated it,
that at some point things would just be "taken" from me - though arguably those are things I never really 'had' to begin with. And it are furthermore
these kinds of affirmation that I meant are necessary to make sense of the own impressions. Else things are just there somehow - but the reality is that
they remain illusive while thats just and simply the fact of the matter. Its a bit of a freak thing anyhow - as, Superpowers. What good are Superpowers
if there is no real use for them? I mean, what would the Hulk be if there were no menacing Space-Villains? But that makes us wonder - what about people
like Ronon if there is no war? I guess ... sportsmen. Its up to them to show or tell. I do however get a really gratifying peace out of being able to
basically just lean back and ... see how this illusive/aetherical dream is coming to be real. Its like ... "after all those years ..." - what feels like
centuries - maybe even millennia - there is that Light at the end of the tunnel. I feel like a Mother that had a handicapped Freak kid - that all of a
sudden learned to walk and is perfectly fine. I feel like I don't have to struggle anymore - and a lot of the pointless struggles I've had in the past
speak to me about how real that is. So - to, drag myself out of that melancholy - yay - I can finally turn into my main mode of operations - which is
to try and be as cute as I possibly can be. Thats a form of idleness - self-love to the point of shaping the own self to other peoples pleasures, or,
joy, ... entertainment - ... while my Sex-Drive is what allows me to neglect or ignore my physical appearance in that.
So - to all the newbies: What did I do? What makes me who I am? Or: Why me?
Firstly, I'm just there - which is I guess the quintessential paradox of existence, based on the premise or fact that there is no such thing as a purpose
of Life. This paradigm fails in a reality as this - where we need to struggle in order to survive. What we are becomes secondary to the challenges we
face - yet in these struggles we realize through the growing complexity of our solutions a resemblance to the variety that comes through our individuality.
"Everyones good at something" - which at least in its basic understanding brought forth all the many things we ... established for ourselves. And I was
... in this Life at least ... someone really good at finding God or figuring out Reality ... to that point ... being like a Pet that knew where it came
from and respectively found its way back home. If you think its a bit harsh ... you know, that God basically threw me into the wild just to proof that
I'd make it back ... thats kindof where this is coming from. I mean - ultimately I became something as based on these harsh premises that God cannot
ultimately support - which means that ultimately "just a reward" won't do! Its as though God now "owed" me more than I myself could possibly take -
while I'm equally nothing in terms of being valuable to society. Whats fair? What isn't? Who owes whom and how much? I don't really know a measurement;
as - in principle I'd feel eternally endebted to someone who even just gave me a little - as some weird consequence of ... "being allowed to exist".
But yet thats not entirely true - but yet the idea of not being endebted to someone fucks with my head - it kindof breaks my mind. That basically turns
me into a servant - while the magnitude of it rather makes me an Object, or Property. That is an emotional thing - and that makes up the "bones" of my
mind - the walls that I can't outgrow. As with the Mandelbrot set - its the Macroscopic that draws these solid outlines - while the flexibility we have
is a matter of our growth. What I'm trying to stress is that thinking in such terms does ultimately draw absolutistic outlines - as basically corresponding
to our needs to quantify the unquantified, or to have rules and regulations. These things however are also 'dumb' - and to visualize this I want to come
up with a little bit of an abstract construct. Lets say we invented a "Fractal Liquid" - a Liquid that would burst into Figures and Shapes of Sizes and
Colors if something got thrown into it. Thats to resemble our mind - and a rule we come up with would be the thing we'd throw into it. Now is every
Liquid different in that it has its unique "DNA" of sorts - and 'anything' we throw into us has individualistic consequences. So - we'd evolve however,
to a point where we'd essentially need a higher set of rules - which we would throw in again with just the same result. On the long run there so is no
order - but just chaos. But we know that this isn't how life works. We can adapt. Or in Christian terms: We can forgive. So, what differenciates us from
that liquid is our freedom - our will. As - this idea of being tied into more and more rules is a thing we're inherantly not really fond of. So that we
think it is unfair when someone is 'too confined' - and so there is that word: Tolerance. There is a bad kind of tolerance - which is possibly where the
concept of 'Fairness' is coming from. So, we there have that "modern" understanding of 'to just live' - or - as the absolutistic is in the macroscopic -
our realtime experience is just a fraction of the whole, and at the bottom of it there is this rather non-absolutistic, or rather 'freedom' - the undefined.
The macroscopic is that because usually its 'above' us - as in another sense: It exists between itself and the now. So - we have our fixed mindsets -
but rather than being entirely fixed we only happen to touch its outlines every once in a while. Further there is 'change' - the non-static truth of our
reality. And the more of our freedom we compromise, the more we want to reclaim it - and social order is ultimately another macroscopic influence - and
'perfect harmony' - well - as we can have it - is about intersections between the two. Nobody can perfectly have it their way - and ultimately do social
ties establish another macroscopic reality that we can adjust to. And ... naturally that is comprehended within our growth. As we grew deeper we eventually
started to socialize - and these bonds are there then not on the top-level of things, but somewhere beneath - and we are capable of having positive
experiences there. In a sense we can draw a very thin line - but once we zoom in far enough its a really really thick line. Thick enough to call it the
entire sheet - and start scriblling stuff onto it. Similarly we can start anywhere we like - and we simply cannot be arsed to strive for some kind of
perfect balance. So - that means that we can practically entirely reshape ourselves - and that over and over again - as we can draw an arbitrary pattern,
pick out various points, and connect them using an entirely different pattern. Our Macroscopic self comes in as - well - practically a shadow of ourselves;
And its like the Mandelbrot set in that it "seeks" to replicate itself within the/its perpetuative depth. To put it into perspective - our Macroscopic
self isn't as complex as the world we know. Its possibly just down to a handful of 'ideas', if not only one - as we could call it "our primitive self".
In essence I thereby aspire captivity - but this captivity is also connected to a redemption - which is where my creative self comes into play. And that
is what my primitive self is all about. And yea - it makes sense that this kind of insight would emerge best from within a situation such as mine - as
not being pro-actively tied into a community - and my situation is simple, and established in a previous existence. I guess ... thats how the question
is to be answered.
So - lets speak about 'obsession's. I believe I am something or someone that a whole lot of people are at least subconsciously obsessed with/about -
maybe just from an artsy perspective. Something that I did grow away from is to ... basically ... I mean, the bottom line is something along the lines of
it being bad if we regard social connections as part of our own macroscopy. There is I guess just too much conflict and chaos and all that in that. And
... that is what I would in first place describe as obsession - as within the social spectrum. These obsessions are also just vaguely representative of
our primitive self - while our primitive self, as of our "fleshborn" consciousness, is not even actually aware of it. And what we 'accumulate' is in
hindsight I believe relatable to our primitive self - but we can only truely "dig that" if we know it. Being obsessed with "the one Love" for instance
would in that sense be an issue of my inherant attraction towards captivity. So - the issue of giving up into a relationship is captivity in that sense;
And that however being 'my' point about it - it wasn't really 'why' I fathomed myself in Love with this or that one. It would however determine how this
Love would turn out, in regards of my own mindset. Regarding my Kinks - my being in Love wasn't ever really in favour of them. Which makes sense considering
that I replaced that what they inherantly need by some person - who in that position would demand its own ... stuff ... and so, whenever I kindof had my
Kinks on my mind - which really just happened once each time, effectively - it didn't really make sense.
The way these 'Loves' grew in me - thats vastly been carried by Love songs. So, this idea of romancing, harmony, just being happy together, that didn't
allow me to connect to my Kinks - and so it first happened that once I sought distance from my obsessions that aspired a relationship in greater harmony
with my partially unconscious Kinks; At which point I didn't know whom I might end up with and so I thought within terms of 'compatibility'. From there
I eventually grew incapable of re-attaching to my obsessions; while on the flipside I might make the mistake of making my social bonding too dependent
on my primitive self. Or them Kinks. But in essence that is yet what grows really solid - as that I am no longer capable of acknowledging sacrifices of
a certain kind; Hence having a bottom line of conditions - that in first place are as mentioned just a reference frame in the likes of compatibility
Levels. The higher social meta is once again as abstract to that as that was to the obsessive. Captivity for instance is a relatively open construct -
as, there is no strict requirement as by whom or how many I'm held captive. And so there really isn't a logic - I at least don't really find one - and
thats basically self-explaining because ... well - society isn't a construct of Logic. At least not one of our own!
And thats it for now.
Fractal Spaceology
by Christopher Nikolaus Sonnberger | 2016.11.25 - 13:14