"Killa Kali"

Am I a Lost Soul?

Nah, of course not! Right?



Do you care to know more about me? (Odd question) ... I mean - there are a whole lot of different questions that you as a single entity might not be capable of grasping all together. That doesn't make you smaller - it just means that you're not in my position. Like you on the other hand - eventually you got a whole lot of questions that we, the rest, arne't capable of grasping. At some point however the "do you know me?" question can be multiple questions in one - each deserving a different answer that may be important at that time. Otherwise - this confusion eventually however aspires an end - and therefore we get to images that may or may not be accurate representations of the Truth; While whether its this or that would depend on where you're standing at.


Now, if I compare myself to Kali - I find a variety of matches; Some of which are more unique to me - as others are more general. Dependent on how you want to describe Durga then, Kali may as well be me per se, or not at all, after all. Needless to say though that once the human mind aspires knowledge of the divine, there will be Prophets dependent on Gods will to pass on that knowledge. Otherwise, dependent on Gods care, this goes further in that whenever someone envisions a divine concept, God may choose to plant divine Truth in that persons fantasy so that the things which will come forth can contribute to the greater benefit of all.

Beyond that, there is this inherant Bridge between our individual and independent selves and God - and rather than jumping the gun there, we can also try to take it slow and look for what we can find in our past. Piecing things together in their idea rather than their verbal definitions requires one to gain a sufficiently deep insight; And rather than questioning an individuals potential in being a medium to the divine, the Bible for instance suggests that we take a look at what comes of them. "By its fruit shall you recognize the Tree". So, once my qualities won't matter - and what matters therefore being what I have to say - take a look at that one: Some call it the Source Energy, some call it Dao. The Greek seemed to have no concept of it, to them it'd just be this infinite void where all the figures of their Mythology came forth from. Chronos would already be just an aspect thereof.

Now, what I tried to do there was to draw a circle around a few things - not overburdaining it with information. Technically though its what we could call the Ninefold, the Allsurrounding Spirit, the Force, the Source, ... Eternity ..., when compared to the things that I write about. As the things I write about relate to the Bible we could go on and say 'Father', the Invisible God, ... Elohim ... . Now - this is certainly at some point just my own interpretation. I could also go and make something up and add my own iterating logic to it - adding Character and stuff - but by doing so we're leaving that circle - and we're supposed to question: What is in the circle, and what is the Truth surrounding it?


Imagine an endless ocean beneath a non-gradient golden sky - and some Light reflecting in the waves the source to which we cannot make out in that sky. Now imagine a drop/sphere of water emerging from that ocean, hoving above the surface, and now wonder: Is that drop still (part of) the Ocean? Technically not! Now - this Drop is what we could say 'is' 'Dao' - the word - not what the Word would mean to describe. Equally you can have another Sphere coming from the ocean and that'd be the word 'Source Energy' - and naturally we are free to go on without any rule as to what we can't or shouldn't do; Though therefore defying the purpose of some of these words.
To Christians this Ocean is God, to Hindu it might be Durga.
Now, imagine an upward pointing Triangle. We will use this Triangle as pattern to creating an "Atheistic" religion - Atheistic in the sense that on the top there isn't what I so far described as God or Durga (Dao), but rather what we might call Jesus or Shiva (Identity). Naturally is the rest of the triangle representative of whatever ideology there now so happens to be attached to that. Within that Triangle we might now draw a Circle and label it as 'Dao' - as the Church of the Flying Spaghetti Monster might follow suit and thus adding Butter to its Pantheon. While this Triangle is for all intents and purposes there to demonstrate what I would call 'False Religion' - the core aspects of what I would call 'True Religion' are yet there - though inherantly providing the various fragments in a twisted way.

As a Daoist might say that you can't describe what Dao is - he would say that it is above and beyond the things we can fathom. As 'Eternity' ... well, unless you don't want to go beyond acknowledging Eternity as 'just a property'. But then, what has this property? It is a property equal to Dao - and as we get into that Level of Detail we're drawing lines inside of that triangle - and might as well forever disagree about them.


Now, why would I think that these aren't spoiled fruits? That what I wrote so far is indicative of a 'good tree', rather than a spoiled one? Well, because I do not seek to obscure the Dao while shoehorning it into an Identity I came up with to ... whatever my agenda may have been. So, lets go a bit further for else this ain't going nowhere, and draw a second Triangle above the first one - a downward point ing one - so yea, a Star of David. The upper line would represent this Eternal Ocean, and the rest would be representative of 'Gods ability' to communicate with us. (Yes, whatever, call it Parmesan then, or Bolognese, I don't care!). This isn't a teaching, its just a picture. We might call it a hypothesis; But on this site its more than that. Of course the most important question here therefore is: How can you know that I'm telling you >> the Truth about the downpointing Triangle <<?
(I have a little side-story for you: It isn't just about whether I'm telling you the Truth about it or not, or about whether I know it or not. All that could be shoe-horned into a fake-religion as well - and if you had some magic and truely accurate oracle it would tell you that - yea - it is telling you the truth about it! But still you'd have no practical benefit of it. So, more accurately its got to be: How can you know that I'm instructing you rightly about the Truth of the downpointing Triangle in Harmony with Eternities intent to the point of your ... yada yada and so on and so forth. Its extremely difficult, and to my assessment pointless, to really squeeze all chances of 'Logical Failure' out of the equasion. The practical story goes as follows: The downpointing Triangle has or is a gate - and if we called it 'Enlightenment' - the question were: How can you tell how to become Enlightened? Just leave 'me' out of the equasion - and you'll eventually end up with me as part of the solution. So - words and their fallacies. I just wanted to throw that in real quick just so you have a margin of Understanding 'up-front' before you may need it while not having it.)


As this site and my belief is essentially Christian - there is the one phrase: "You cannot come to Father but through me (Christ)" - and therein is the Challenge. Its more of a figure and a fact than a demand. You might also say its 'the Key' - or a map to finding it. The image of the Star of David would emphasize it, that God has an Identity. Now, rather than just knowing that Identity - it goes on to the things attached to that Identity - and yea, the Christian Identity doesn't seem to be all that Transparent and unconfusing. But that is obviously what its coming down to. All the stuff attached to an Identity.
The point however is not to take it all at once. You can't! Its silly!
So the reality is more like a Level or a series of Levels in a Video Game.
Now, what you want to know might be resembled within this question: How to get to 'the Dao', through Christ, without ending up believing in a Fake Father?
And the most important thing of course is to never let that Dao slip through your fingers! You might as well start by throwing that up pointing triangle out of the window; But ... yes obviously ... you thereby won't have a Truthful foundation to properly speak about the Truth of the up-pointing Triangle relative to the down-pointing one! So evidently we're back at square one, kindof, but so ... instead of saying "There is no way to the Father but through Christ" - we might change it up a little and say: "To Truely know God you need to know Gods true Identity". In other words: If God has an Identity - its at the top of that up-pointing Triangle, and its the same for everyone; Though represented in many ways within many religions. So we could say that Shiva is a Symbol for that - pretty much like a Prophecy or a Legend - and to up the Ante on whats fake, lets think about the Ori from Stargate. The Ori are once human beings that have ascended into a form of pure energy and are capable of doing things we might deem to be divine powers or miracles. More down to earth there are Pharaohs - and around some corner, well, we can live with that - as far as we don't have a choice about it, well, thats how the order works! But what does that do to the human mind? Whats the purpose? And all that? Those are all questions we can throw out of the window if we have a chance of transcending those things - _____________________________________________________________. Free form. You should technically be capable of filling out the blanks yourself. Right or Wrong is relative! I didn't have a particular sentence in mind (so you know).

Anyhow - what I'm telling you - to not get lost in pointless formulations - is that there is this 'Enlightenment', that 'Gate', "the Truth of the down-pointing Triangle" - generally called 'Unification (with the allsurrounding Spirit)'. So - this should solve the most daunting part of the "How to come to the true Father?" problem. See - the problem is the following: My Bible - from cover to cover (covers excluded) is 5 centimeters thick with more than 1800 pages, next to which there is the "Mormon Tripple Combo" which is 3.5 centimeters thick with more than 1000 and yet some more pages - and if you were to subscribe to Christendom you might feel like downloading this huge chunk of unknown that everyone might as well have a different take on. Unification in regards of that could be described as taking a really sharp knife and carving triangles out of those books. Sacrilegious, I know, but it gets the point accross. You don't need one single page of those books, provided you have a priest that knows what he's doing! Because Baptism. And so I personally am coming back to the start of this. Do you care to know more about me? It might seem out of place here - but of all the many questions - one is: How do 'I' relate to the scriptures? For all that you know I might as well be an Esoteric Spiritualist that takes the Scriptures as something more along the lines of a Burdain/Necessity than the real thing - but for all that you care I might as well be Professor Doctor Doctor Scriptures only! It doesn't really matter so much what I now am for real - but I think if you knew that the Scriptures rather feel like a heavy burdain in/on my heart ("at this point") - you could take something from that!
But rather than either or - "I'm Kali" - I got six or eight arms and each arm holds a different thing, symbolically speaking. In one I might even hold a weighing scale. Thats one of the things that I think is more common. When it gets to Video Games I like to be an all-rounder. I like to have more stuff than a Video Game ordinarilly would allow me to have. To some I might however rather be 'the Ancient of Days'. Beyond that I could claim wild things such as that I've opened my Third Eye Chakra not even knowing - and such. Its all - pointless - kindof. But I guess it adds to the aesthetics.

Unification is simple; And by speaking of Christ in regards to it you may easily find how or why. Unification is achieved by directly addressing the father using a very specific formula - and that formula doesn't even mention Christ. It is however required that you are Baptized in order to be considered worthy - which is where Christ comes into play. Once you are legitimately Baptized you basically happen to be one with Christ - so - the Formula that you can only get to the Father through Christ, while Christ is specifically excluded from the final Entrance form requires you to be in that Unity with Christ; And beyond that you're one with the Dao and if you understand that last bit from a non-Christian angle you will find how utterly pointless it is to think of further "Christian demands" - because there, well, Christ is literally just a form. A name you'd every now and then get to resort to whenever it so happens to be necessary. So - if you focus on Unification you'll inevitably have to deal with Baptizm - but its not the 'main thing' - its just one of the things we need to end up speaking about the same things, using the same terms for the things that yet just and simply so happen to be Universal.


So the initial question of "How can you know" that the Entrance Form I share is the right one - well - is one you should ask yourself. How can you tell that God is speaking to you? Or spoke? Or revealed anything to you? This is I guess the place where "my Enemy" would send you down that "10 Things you should know about the Testimony" gauntlet - counting up things why you can't or couldn't or shouldn't trust it - but is it my problem if they imply more into the Testimony than what it is good/used/usable for? Well, if you wanna live a life by the Testimony, and by that I mean literally asking God about each and every tiny bullshit you wanna decide upon, as criteria for taking it anyhow seriously, ... you're clearly not in touch with the concepts of Unification - and so I'll dive a little further into that.


A lot about it ... obviously ... is really specific to what God truely is. God is God ... regardless of what you do believe or what you are willing to accept! There are ways to explain it ... to say that the whole "you can't understand God" stuff is nonsense ... at least so far as there are things very well within our reach to grasp - so, to say that God is not entirely Paradox - but we can say that it isn't Gods nature to be comprehensive to us. So - there are Spiritualistic beliefs that get it right enough. In that sense you can say that we are what a hand-puppet were to us, well, provided that it had its own mind. I mean, for the most part you can totally figure this side of things out yourself. Its not that big of a deal. Understanding the basics is really just that - understanding the basics! And it doesn't get much more complicated than that! Well, how could it? Think about it: Every creation is limitted - as only God is Eternal - there is nothing like God and therefore everything that is is different. Everything that is limitted is something we can grasp - and so the perfection of comprehending God is limitted as well; Except for the part that is the Truth behind those expressions - namely the part that is Eternal. So - yet I guess its simple to get lost in words - to fail understanding the literal depth of God, as ... the Microcosmic scale. But there then are other basics - rather facts of creation we may say, like that the tiniest riffles of our minds are already conscious processes that factually relate to information. It doesn't really help though to imagine it - as God is Invisible per se; And therefore happens to work with us through expressions. These can be disguised as our own thoughts, even; While down at the very bottom of the basics of our spirits processes even simply by motions. By dragging our thoughts together we can come to conclude things - and so you may wonder: Why Unification?

Well - Unification isn't only about the things that God can do - it is also about us - and our individual adjustment to that. See - based on these figures you would normally try to practically silence your mind - as one way of working towards God ... that so based on the asumption that God is weak. It is, once Unified, also kindof counterproductive to do that - because effectively its the opposite that you should do to work towards God. Spam your mind with information so that God has stuff to work with! That as another way of doing it normally would also be counter productive to Unification standards because you're not really doing anything. You have to understand that God is a lot more nuanced, Understanding, Genious and "everything" than we are - so, maybe try to think of a Combat scenario, where the goal is to outsmart the opponent, strategically and otherwise, so - in the macroscopic as in the microscopic. Essentially a Martial Artist would tell you ... like Bruce Lee for instance, he spoke it as: "Be Water my Friend". And yea, Gods ability to predict our movements, you must assume, is far more advanced than ours, like, we can't even tell - other than that it must be ... beyond our comprehension.


So - instead of thinking of it as a thing thats about you, you have to understand it as a thing that is between God and you - as yea, Elohim can predict your every move and can make you do whatever Elohim wants - but that isn't the alternative to you just doing your thing without Yehovah. So, however you wanna take it - intimacy with God will sooner or later take you to Gods identity, and once you get there, then you can even first begin to tell that You Know God! Like, personally. And like any personal relationship you got goes beyond just having heard of each other and knowing that persons name - its about mutual recognition and further.
Baptism would be the part where that relationship starts to become real - as in physical terms; So - if I make it ever seem like too much of a 'dare' step - sorry for that; But, the dare part is still true. Its a psychological thing and is tied to our conscious ties to the physical reality. We're conditioned to stay in this world by using our body, as, thats how we make first steps, use our eyes, start to speak - and eventually independently eat, drink, drive and so on. We 'are' our body - we might say, or many do say that refuse to go beyond synapses and electrons. Those that venture further discover their mind and spirit - entering what is called 'the Eightfold', so, venturing beyond the '8th Seal'. What I found was a vastly black void - and shapes and figures of light appearing therein; Imaginations ... and an odd awareness, that yea, there is something like a veil it seems - something I cannot look beyond but strangely enough I sense that its there. The more you understand that this, that what is beyond that, well ... I guess we have to start the other way around - so, as you dig deeper you don't understand it as something that you cannot look beyond. It is just at this bottom - this void - the 'frontier' sotospeak - what we constantly try to look beyond - and we keep making experiences within the Eightfold that eventually take us one step further. So this veil is I guess best introduced by saying that once we understand that there is a Limit, a Veil, we can connect the two - and start to see the Light.
This connection can only be made in conjuncture with understanding the truth of God. Or so - you won't believe it otherwise anyway. Right? The more you understand that God exists, the more it sticks out as a sore thumb, ... kindof ..., that there 'can be more'. And the only way to really get it is from the right one!
But - Unification aside - at any rate will you grow up into the Eightfold - while you're ultimately confined in your body - tied into a life - and to now pursue, for yourself, in that life, a serious Baptism - that wouldn't come unless you accepted Christ as your Saviour.

Again? Did you notice that? This is a smooth transition. It is a step by step logical transition. We started out on the down pointed triangle, and from there entering the void between that and the individual mindset. Relative to the suggested identity of God, baptism was portrayed as the physical consequence of a life in Harmony with God. Baptism there at first can be taken as Metaphor - as whatever it were - so, which can't be a thing we make up for ourselves; As - we need God to say us what to do - so that can be a thing. So, at the down pointed triangles bottom point - we could note 'Baptism' - maybe in Quotation marks - as general keyword for that act - whatever it may be, wherever it may take us. So is the next step to know it. Instead of however moving on to Christ from there, we went back to look at the Concepts of Unification, got to a concept of friendship with God, which in response leads to the supposed identity. Which so far isn't treated as an unknown though.


To go down that road - to now say: Lets say that this identity were an unknown - which would basically be your starting ground - there are two possible scenarios and a chance. Scenario one being that this Identity is unaccessible to you - by whatever means. Scenario two therefore being that it is accessible to you, by whatever means. The chance were that Elohim could reveal Elohim to you - and thats it. Now, by accessible I essentially mean at the very basis of it all that there is manifested information available that reflects 'the Word of God'. The Word hereby gains the significance that it goes beyond Spirituality and Philosophy in that it is concrete revelation from the Divine. Think about Daoism for instance. There there is the Dao - which we could say is basically just an empty circle. In the Tanach we have terms such as 'Elohim' (Godess in male plural), 'Yehowah' (He who was, is and will always be), 'Ehiyeh Asher Ehiyeh' (I am who/through-what/because I am) - and a lot of Stories like God spoke to Abraham, chose Jacob, led Moses, helped David, ... and a Prophecy speaking of 'Immanu-El' (God with us) - as son of David. So, there are relationships - and you can find traces of these relationships if you're looking for them! Finally there came one who ... whatever the story may be, in the end he became famous for dieing on a cross - and there were people involved in that. Some spoke of it like this, and others like that, ... but the Gospel of John specifically introduces him first of all as 'the Word that came into Flesh'. The same John we may assume who also wrote the Apocalypse wherein he is pictured as Lamb. This goes into a whole new depth, we may say, of what we can say is 'Christian Philosophy'. What we know we know from the scriptures - at first. And if you go from them - anyones guesses are as good as the others, kindof - if we assume we all have the same knowledge about them. There isn't much more to it. But so we have Baptism, specifically, as repeated in the Book of Mormon, as a specific part of 'the Doctrine' - as explicitly delivered by 'the Word'. And through this - we have a commitment from God - which extends beyond the fundamentals of the minimalistic setup.

Gnostica Minimalis ex Lumine

by: Christopher Nikolaus Sonnberger | 2016.12.23 - 12:10