Display of Power

OK - I definitely feel the need right now to do this. Previously I've been writing about it - and the case whether or not what I see, or feel, is real or not, or if then how ... and all that - thats not really resolved yet. As for my previous stance - the grand idea is that once things ... I basically just found the words ... things become better - our respective feelings will sync up. Uhm ... the reason why this isn't making it any clearer is perhaps because its an all in all nonsensical idea. But well - we don't have the right 'words' yet to even begin and describe the things we would need to properly talk about this subject.


Or well - there is this 'Top term' - but its as specific as when 'Science' were the only word and you tried to describe human biology. So yea, 'Clairvoyance'. What it is ... well ... that doesn't matter. What is science? It isn't ... a Liver! Right? So ... lets ... I mean ... well, I should start to get more to the point.


So far I have at some points come to the thing that I would challenge myself to use "these powers" to make an example ... but my problem was that I didn't find anything to write about. I would need to get "triggered" in some way ... having a context to think about ... and yea, *facepalm*, pretty much. So, what do I dare to look at first? ... Well, "not so fast!".




So - what is this Clairvoyance? In first place I want to separate what I used to call Astair and then called 'Jinx' - from what this Clairvoyance is - and at any rate, want to be specific on what comes along with Unification and what is an inherantly human ability. Empathy for instance. How real is it? Unfortunately however I haven't explored that topic well enough before I entered Unification - as I basically stumbled into it entirely unprepared. And so - yea, thats where time will show us more ... being optimistic about it.
The problem I'm facing is that if I can proof somehow that I am clairvoyant, and most of it is inherantly Unification based, that won't stop people from believing that it isn't matter of fact Unification based ... and in that sense Clairvoyance is a topic pretty similar to "Soulmateship" a.k.a. Love - which is a topic I've ... its an issue I haven't been able to properly explore either ... I just took my distance and am now feeling better. The point is - I try to think about how I could explain to my past self that it was/is wrong about what it believes - and what I find is a really stubborn specimen that seems to be inherantly incapable of listening to reason. And also, the moment I mention 'Love' my head gets flooded with some dark fog ... and so far I've only 'once' written about it without that happening ... at least for the most part ... and that in some session I labelled as 'identity and more' or something like that.

I believe. So ... these are obviously issues I can't solve. Its ultimately each and everyones own quest ... and rather than trying to save the entire Universe in a single day, I should try walking those steps that are ahead of me.



So - maybe the best way to start this is what I recall as 'the turning point' - and up unto that point I had reasons to believe or acknowledge that some people around me were pulling off a masquerade in some sense of making fun of me, behind my back, ... yet I basically ended up denieing those insights to expand in my mind and so ... well, I come to that turning point. That turning point is, measured along the 13 Seals, the 're-entry' into "the Ninefold" after having reached the 13th Seal for the first time. Which isn't as awesome as you would expect. SO, maybe I should dwell on this for a moment. If you think so that the 9th Seal is this magical gate with the 13th Seal being the goal, you would imagine some well of Light that floods you whereafter you kindof know everything and forthermore you'd from then on grow to learn some proper magic, light flying. But on the way to the 13th Seal there is something about 12 that basically is like pulling the breaks. It starts with a Sword you're supposed to control through a simple 'yes vs no' belief in a single harmless thought, so, basically strengthening your cognitive muscle. Yet ... at some point this changes to the point where you can't accomplish any more by 'brute force' - you have to start relaxing, to trust, ... and during that phase your mind ultimately moves into a calm state ... in which sense the 11th Seal is kindof already foreshadowing this "inversal of paradigms" - and this calm ultimately leads into the first experience of the 13th - and the spectrum of life and reality kindof gets blown out of relatable proportions. So ... in simple words: There is a lot more to it than meets the eye.
Beyond that point the force starts to move up again ... because well ... God leading the way is kindof the bottom line of what is to be expected. And so there I was ... in the night, walking home, ... and I experienced Forces ... kindof ... firstly digging up those memories that I had burried - so - not understanding exactly what was going on it later got very difficult to cherish this moment properly. Uhm, anyway. So - the thing is that all of a sudden there were these impressions that basically carried those memories back into awareness ... and I remember that the spirit tried to point out how different the Light shining from the Lanterns along the street now appeared to my sight. Everything I had originally expected to come ... based on my first impressions from Unification ... were gone and now it was sotospeak up to Reality to lead the way and pace the beat.
And this sense basically never really left me - yet, ... I had a really hard time trusting things I couldn't confirm. So I basically 'fled' ... I tried different things, ... to get the informations I wanted/needed ... and that went on for years ... and the detail isn't really all that relevant and finally ... here we are.


Firstly: Star Wars is sortof cancelled. I mean ... they've essentially given up on it and 8 and 9 are gonna be half-hearted pieces of crap. They have their ongoing ideas which are not likely to get any better ... and I guess its slowly dawning on them that Darth Vader won't carry their agenda forever!
A lot of this "Cock Sure" attitude of them has gone away, ... and Trump basically is in some way what people do to re-assure themselves in "that they still got it" ... sotospeak. Some act of denial or a way to counter-react this 'awkward' - while essentially there is some 'depression' about them being invested into art, but having failed horribly. There are certain things they have been and have become good at ... this is just commentary on the matter ... but their way of basically "bashing" talented people out now has distorted the plane of arts - which means that a lot of people aren't where they 'should' be ... talented people replaced by mobsters ... essentially; And so a huge chunk of talent is/went missing. Though ... its more of a smooth transition ... not a hard edge.

These are things blown into my mind ... like carried by the wind. You could compare these insights to clouds. I mention that because - I for instance right now am a bit staggered from trying to look into whats going on with Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.. But maybe I'm just confused because most people working on it aren't directly involved within what interests me. So - in a sense this makes me free. Free of "judgement". Or otherwise: Free to Judge. But maybe its just that I "should not know" many of the things I actually do know because of ... well ... 'internet grey zones' if you know what I'm saying.
But yea ... I kindof don't like the new Ghost Rider ... he's sortof, sotospeak, "lost the Salt" ... and this new Ghost Rider kindof exists perpendicular to ... well, ... I guessed I didn't know all there is to it and that is part of that struggle. See ... it all adds up though. The Ghost Rider is a creation of God to balance against the Evil in this world - yet how the Ghost Rider ends up being a goon of the Devil/Mephisto ... doesn't really make a lot of sense to me. Anyhow ... this is totally a thing where other issues mix into my concerns - while all in all the dominant 'feel' on the Agents of SHIELD series is one of 'dislike' that seems to come from the Antichrist. I got the same on X-Men Apocalypse - and in terms of Ghostbusters the same ... Aura? DNA? ... 'spiritual fingerprint' ... is there just a little bit more ... well, kindof like some pyromaniac enjoying a huge fire he set off.

As for how Marvel ties into Disney ... it seems to be vastly just business - in a sense that Marvel retains its autonomy as a public Entity while financially and elsehow essentially operating as part of the Disney group.

Off to some more relevant topics? Well, thinking of our political landscape ... what came to mind around some corner was the song: "Can't touch this" (MC Hammer) - and this is basically the angle from where the situation between Disney and Marvel makes sense. Although ... what up with Disney? Its weird, but most of the Disney stuff takes me into some isolated Sex Slave Bunker ... and I guess no matter how crazy your fantasy expands from there, that wouldn't make up for whats going on per se. There I find a weird maelstrom of emotions that resmbles the basis for a whole lot of conflict with myself. The closest public entity to that would be Scientology, yet not remotely as connected as you might believe. Its weird ... yet ... I try to ignore it and detach myself from it. Through that detachment I seek a more basic synergy, not made up of these kinds of emotions, ... while these emotions are as thick ... its basically like a resource already. It makes my heart feel heavy ... and sick. And these emotions partially spill over ... thats the best way to describe it ... in a way that I sometimes am entirely incapable of enjoying media. Its more so that once getting into a specific mindset once looking at something this mindset works like a magnet - and its certainly not what gets me off at night!

Its a huge mess ... and the best way to start 'labelling' things is to firstly compare it to 'Hydra' (as from the Marvel Comics). That to first set that there are a bunch of 'heads' - as you would expect. So, like, there's Boxer, Claws and Sagat before you get to Dictator in Street Fighter ... although we can I guess say that Sagat is a bit different. That said - my general impression is that there is just 'one' head though, after all, in the sense that this "Beast" is vastly ... we could call it a weakspot ... dedicated to one general course of actions that the resources get dedicated to - emotionally speaking - while the other heads do all sorts of other things.


From what I experience in general I come to the oppinion that I shouldn't focus on that because vastly, well, there is not much to tell other than that 'worse' is maybe the best way to put it. Although I guess once knowing what sorts of sick shit there was/is (???) on the Dark Web ... its, nothing really surprises me about it - and the only thing that does is the sad fact that it does spill into the public. I mean, "Can't touch this". Not in a happy and cheerful manner, but taunting.
Well - I guess ... if you were to draw a picture, there would be this huge Monster, ... basically, take Ultros from Final Fantasy, make him as large as the Moon, plant him on the Vatican, and imagine his tentacles to expand all accross the planet. Yea ... thats quite right. Just, it isn't made of flesh but "spirit mass"/emotions.


That said - I came to continously "vibe" about Entities like Nintendo in a way as though "Ultros" could have acquired it - but I have to tell myself that it doesn't make any sense considering that there are yet individuals in charge. However ... part of "Ultros" - as I feel it - are ... we could say "Ghosts" ... smaller entities that kindof move within its streams, technically Entities that I for the longest time did imply into what I used to refer to as "the Enemy". So, real people that are part of this 'messing up the arts infrastructure' - which because of being connected to Ultros also function as "Heralds" of its interests.
In essence I feel like Square-Enix has commen to some sense of rejecting these influences while Capcom still seems to struggle - and Nintendo is essentially consumed. As for EA and Activision/Blizzard ... well. Blizzard first and foremost is, if you're familiar with its history, a unique story which means, they have a history of ... essentially 'getting' things 'their way' ... and ... pretty much like EA their connection to Ultros is ... basically not really there. What I feel regarding EA is after all more like a Quarantene Zone, perhaps an attempt to avoid this Ultros beast to ... "appear" ... so, Ultros is here rather 'inside' than 'on top'. So, like the Monster in the Monster Truck movie - although ... EA is ... we might say ... "Flagged" ... while what I feel about Blizzard is more like a 'Question' that tries to confuse me - like Ultros asking me "Couldn't it be?" and holding up a picture frame around his face with Blizzard written onto it.

Now, Hollywood is an extremely weird place - and by Hollywood I basically also mean the US Music Industry. Scientology for sure is like a pit or swamp in the regard that Ultros-esque emotions basically come steaming forth from it as from a Volcanoe, and the way this interfaces with the "real world" is essentially a matter of how 'auditing' works. They put such a huge prize on it that this fuels curiosity, so, you're tempted to it and if you don't have enough money you end up screwing yourself; While if you do have enough money it becomes an addiction. In turn you get the feeling of having improved - so - its kindof a way of buying yourself free from Ultros. Or ... getting an Ultros-something implanted into your Brain ... where, anything in this world practically has to compete against it and that causes emotional disturbances while if you're supported by it, that works like a Booster ... and its a really really strong thing! So - in a sense you get a cognitive clarity ... or a peace of mind ... as you can't achieve anywhere else!

Instead of callig it Ultros we can also compare it to ... I'm not too familiar with it though ... the "Throne" of the Emperor from Warhammer; As we could argue that this boost is quite literally (although, well ... yea, give or take) powered by an oven that is fueled with humans.

Did he just do that? Retreat? Well, I guess he now tried to bunker himself away. Either I'm looking at it wrong ... or he's actually aware of what I'm writing here ... as I'm writing it! Or ... something similar. Perhaps there a whitnesses that turned away ... I don't know. That would work in my/our favour if all the Scientologists all of a sudden ... well ... don't have that boost anymore.
No, I guess its the 'fuelled with humans' part thats a bit off. Its I believe more complicated than that. Or ... at the very least I'm a bit confused right now!
So ... how did I actually conclude that? Thats where the bug usually resided so far ... that I didn't look carefully enough. So - Ultros isn't powered by an Oven, its some spiritual force ... well, connected to 'one' individual while upheld by an entire network of people that function like nodes ... or ... its like using mirrors to reflect Light into specific directions. The 'fueled by humans' part is I guess comming from the thing that the emerging power is used for a lot of bad stuff ... and the people who do that basically feed their experiences into the compound where it is being utilized as some kind of Energy.


Removing that from the equasion, what I else see in Hollywood is a lot of oppression or depression. Although ... well, firstly Ultros seems to expand all accross it ... and basically splits the whole into three groups. There are those that are a part of it, then there are those that do have a really hard time enjoying anything at all; And finally those few that somehow manage to ... have some kind of peace in all that. Yet I feel like this is a pretty "blunt" expression - and my mind is taken to look at Germany instead. German movies suck - and that is also because of Ultros, and basically because Ultros is focussing on Hollywood - where Germany is at some ... we're at some transit zone here ... I mean ... its a 'marginal nuisance' - as we're not really that connected to Hollywood and sortof trying to do our own thing. I ... I have that question: Is Hollywood vastly Evil? And the simple answer is actually just rational: Once Ultros is in Charge of something; Well, its more like wishful thinking to hope he might let go of it. And he'll use that to further expand its interests. So, Lucas Arts and Marvel have been welcome additions ... although he would like to have more. Its basically the money that calms him down; And not quite sure whether to look at the situation as threatening or to play "Can't touch this" instead.
Compared to all that Dirt however, the Clintons appear amazingly clean!

That Mormons do so strongly tend to be Republicans does however not seem to be connected to Ultros in any way. Its more like Gods thing; And that basically because Theism and being Republican can thereby be a strong union - and is essentially more of a rational solution to whats going on in this world. So - there are a lot of Republicans that are not part of Ultros ... while the Bohemian Grove on the other end ... well, vastly is.

Skull and Bones is really just a re-invention of the Illuminati I feel ... in that it is a club of people who so happened to be successful that put their minds together to max out on positive potentials; So, as in the sense that cooperation yields more good than being on your own. So, that for instance helps them to put educated people in charge, or ... 'helping' them to get there ... yea, "LOL"! They don't seem to pursue any specific political interests - and the Bilderberger group is once more something entirely different. I guess the basic idea is the one thats publically known; And most of the 'really secret' stuff goes on ... in individual 'more secret' groups that do more or less just so happen to be dragged into it.

DC, at least in its Origin, is Ultrosses doing. Superman in that is basically the manifestation of Ultrosses "self-understanding" - I mean - in that he basically understands himself as infallable. Therefore there also is this ... I would call it/him "Meta Superman" - as that Superman that doesn't really make any sense anymore. Which is ... I call that "legitimate" and "bullshit" art. So, if you've seen an episode 'Deathbattle' you know the concept of putting Characters from different Fictional Universes up against; And while "Real Superman" is essentially earthbound due to a messy "origin story" - "Meta Superman" is an attempt to redeem him from being that. Batman on the other end is more just a ... we might say "Cosplay" ... so, Wayne is filtyh Rich, ... and the Antichrist in disguise.

Shedding more Light into 'what is Hollywood' - I then have to draw a Line between the the Film and Music industry. And I get back into it as bossted by a more rational approach. In film there is the transition from 'indie/artsie' into 'goofy' into 'depressed'. In Music you have a whole lot more isolated entities and ... drugs and party. At least up to a certain point; And because you have a lot of isolated entities you also have a lot of different stories. In the Film industry, thats now back to Clairvoyant telling, you have ... well ... what we might compare to a huge gamble. Its a lottery. Predominantly there is the urge of withdrawal, seeking isolation, mostly on the creative end, which can work out ... or not. So ... the struggle is to come up with ideas, stories, that will work - and convincing those with the money to make it - or you have those with the money in need of making another film. The problem is what we can compare to pollution or poisoning. Another thing is that the 'party potential' is shrinking the longer you have been famous. If you mess up with people - there aren't a lot you can turn to! If you know the wrong ones you get dragged into shit. And thats basically where Ultros is ... well, essentially trying to ... via these "Ghosts" ... draw bridges; But he doesn't seem to be fully understanding how to be diplomatic. I mean ... he's mimicking "Liberal Behaviour" we might say, without truely understanding the Liberal mindset. So, he basically has this curiosity ... and not only in regards to that. He strongly relies on the power of patterns, specific formulations or ... well, catchphrases ... stuff people regularly repeat on the internet to oppose ill minded people; To a point that he uses the general crowd as resource, basically causing controversy to fish for answers.

Because of that there is ... well, those people in Hollywood will have to draw their own Bridges, ... those that aren't part of Ultros ... with the problem being that there are Ultros-Ghosts that would so be undercover on the side of those that oppose Ultros ... which is the easiest part for them to figure out because anyone who doesn't go with them is against them. The power of Ultros does at that point really ... get used in an upsetting way. For instance - or specifically: These Ghosts will try to establish this addiction - a kind of dependence - in that the Ultros Power will be used to make some people stand out; And once those would be rejected from a group they'll use ... well ... "Leeches" they have basically "planted" in their victims to 'pull' on them ... so, making that group feel ... like something important is missing. These Leeches basically primarily have the effect that people become depended on the "Ghosts" oppinions - as they'd profile themselves as leaders. And thus I guess I do have that urge to label some heads myself and anyone to challenge these would be revealed, practically. But essentially God named 'one' ... and thats Monica Bellucci.
Else I guess there is or were a problem because I just can't name the right people ... simply because they're somehow conflicted or at least not having the capacity to function as necessary. So, with just one name ... progress will be slower, but anyhow ... thats now ... Future Telling and not Clairvoyance (boom! One thing separated). The main issue might be that some of the people just 'mean too well' - and have a hard time rebuking those that have to be rebuked. Thinking of what my virtual presence in all that is right now I ... am a bit confused because impressions don't essentially match up. While "wishful thinking" or "idealized representations" are free of flaws ... the reality seems to be a bit different. And then there is that part of Ultros which bears certain similarities to things I "promoted" - and people like Britney Spears and Megan Fox ... or specifically them because I happened to specifically mention them from time to time ... seem to still be more like Victims of the whole thing than anything else.


Sooo ... the next "place" on my Radar is Indonesia. I mean, thats the region we as global entity should first focus on "civilizing" - while at this point the relevance is more a thing of the future than it is right now. Then there are some "Ghosts" in ISIS of course ... and well, I feel like this is already a bit too far.

Stepping back I now have ... feel ... the obligation to mention a few things to help you against Ultros.


The first thing is to naturally find a way of cleansing your Heart. For that manner: Avoid anything esoteric ... at least while its just a "flavour" of Lifestyle ... as by trying to analyze and home in onto the good things these things bring you aside of a good feeling! Become pragmatic! Rationality is of the essence. Try to cancel out anyone who tries to drag you into any kind of distraction while settling the intention for yourself to take time; And the more someone pushes in, in whatever friendly kind of way, rebuke that person and ask for its understanding maybe. Try to essentially rebuild your independence independently ... and observe how the relevance of certain people changes for you. The rule of thumb there is that the only person you have an obligation to is yourself ... and any reason other than inherantly selfish ones to feel obligated to anything is Bullshit. For instance: The fear that this behaviour might lead to you loosing someone you don't want to loose ... Ultros! Fuck that! If you loose them, they aren't worth it!
So ... eventually you'll then come to a better understanding of which people actually fit into your life and which ones don't ... and there is some critical mass that has to be accomplished before the rest is just easy sailing!

The good thing is that the Ultros Power has a certain density or intensity to itself ... so your mind can actually react to it and then mix with it. Therefore it are the rather 'irrational' impulses or motivations or interests that you want to explore; Irrational in the sense that they come from somewhere you can't tell. Not like with Ultros because if one thing is clear about that power then where its coming from; Or in other words: How to summon it. Its comprehensive - but thereby also comprehensively not a part of you. Its only your "unclean craving" that seeks to attach to it. So, simple rule of thumb: If you're in it for the feeling ... I mean, if the "reward" is basically some nearly tangible emotion ... try to get it out of your system! Like Love! It really does seem weird ... or unlogical ... because however you wanna put it the emotions seem to play a vital role. Yet, if the Love isn't for the person but the person just a way to get your 'fix' ... it isn't really a Love for the person.
Thats different with Kinks ... well ... because Kinks are wired into yourself. You can or perhaps even should try to get rid of them too - just so you know the difference!

With this irrationality we certainly get to God. Of course ... as we are free individuals ... this spot of irrationality is basically the 'natural' place for God to exist with us. Its certainly not yourself - and thats what makes it irrational. Neither can you make out where its comming from, other than that it seems to be coming from yourself, ... and the rule to 'stay away from emotion' is really because Ultros is trying to bond with you nonetheless.
You'll then however nevertheless experience what you get from allowing your irrational (not to be mixed up with random/sporadic things you get if you for instance try to foce it out) impulses to take you some way or place - and then, well, naturally what you conclude in the end is yours!

Once you're however in the situation that you can't effectively withdraw because you deal with people ... because its your work for instance ... you should at least try to learn how to withdraw emotionally - inwardly. So, doing your word without emotional commitment to others; Which is not to say that you shouldn't socialize. You have to learn to somehow build yourself an armor of sorts ... to separate work from privacy. If you 'feel' polluted, that recognition alone will already be a significant factor as symptom of your evolution.


So, looking at all this I have to realize that I fell victim to Ultros several times. And he'll try to adapt and make himself work with you. On the long run this clearly isn't the solution ... but the general goal would be to get to a point where you have a non-polluting social environment.
I realize though that I'm not too sure about how to deal with realtime attraction, like, once "kindled" through eye-contact for instance. The most rational answer to that would be, as I see it, to have a clear idea of priorities that aren't dependent on others. And please don't try to brainstorm this. I mean, it may be a great way to start, and a good idea in the essence of it, ... uhm ... see each term you come up with as a pot ... like, if you're a musician its gonna be one of your go-to things anyway ... a pot you therefore most certainly have a large plant grown in. OK ... maybe these advises go a bit too far! Try whatever you want! Whatever helps you move forward.
Well ... I guess there's one more thing: If you from doing so feel dragged into the darker corners of the Universe ... you should possibly start a porn collection. As substitute drug essentially. And ... from there expand your fantasy into what gets you off as a matter of adding nuance to the things that inspired you. This can take you quite a way ... I speaking of 'years worth' of nuancing ... and whatever you then 'have' ... is there then basically off your mind. So - directly approaching those things that 'make' you rather than trying to sidestep them through some esoteric bollocks, while trying to not run into Ultrosses lair by doing so!


So, at this point I can also redraw one line I did essentially already kindof establish (for myself) - as what to count into Unification and what not. God ... essentially ... is the answer to that ... I mean, God doesn't exist just within Unification! I guess that ... is more obvious than most things here! So, I guess you really wanna try to get as much from that as you can! The thing is that even if your preferences are gonna be strongly society dependent; Inherantly social; You can get towards a state of peace or satisfaction ... or happiness ... without any of it! The principle at work there is like ... I mean, its said that we can't want what we've wanted after we got it ... so, whatever you want and so chase after only leads you to that point of satisfaction beyond which you can no longer want it. That is of course bullshit in some regards ... but the principle at play there thats important is that your chasing is an act of curiosity. You wanna know ... and once you know ... you've pleased that urge. So - if you can get there without the trouble, you've gotten there - and so you can cultivate yourself - and also avoid major disappointments! Like, once you've gotten to what you wanted, its not only that but there are also the circumstances. These eventually captivate you - binding you into social obligations or however leading you from one want to the next ... so that you eventually invest more than just a whole lot of time for not quite as much fun as you'd hope or wish for; And all that eventually even topped by an unhappy ending.
One thing to really be cautious off is your own immaturity. I mean - the biggest mistake that you could make in this is to be too sure of something without having properly grown that certainty actually. So - you might find yourself 'boasting' that you know well enough what you're into; To the point that you'd find yourself ready to jump right back into it ... at which point you're taking the 'fast exit' - basically sidestepping the process of (re)growing your independence - by pre-concluding what should come out at the end. So - maybe you're there already; But ... to really do this the right way you ... if you so are that sure ... have a place to start; And a really easy way to start looking for what you might find.


At some point we can't really get to the good ending alone/on our own; Most certainly! I mean - I'm walking on a thin line here - and I'd be a hypocrite if I claimed that I have mastered these things and that mistakes can no longer occur to me. But that is then ... when things finally come to flow together 'the right(/"#proposed") way'; As sooner or later you'll just find points to which there are no alternatives ... "period"! At that end I'm sure that I won't be creeped out by what you might think I'm into.


Anyhow ... I guess this is enough right now!

Medicaga

by Christopher Nikolaus Sonnberger | 2016.11.23 - 00:24