Effectively the well expected to come 'sequel' to the recent thing; Yea - well. What I write could be compared to a Box with a window in it. You look into it - then you're done - we move on; Yes ... 'we'. I mean,
my reality is that ... those dreams are dreams. Whichever dreams we're talking about. And I actually am feeling arlight. At least from time to time, sometimes better, other times much better; ... and not only do
I thereby ignore all those dark dreams; I kindof sortof oppose them.
Yes - thats as straight to the core as I can be about it I guess.
The difference between 'this' stance and "that" stuff is that 'this' is an immediate thing. Its ... coming at me. I wake up, feel good, everything is well ... - while "that" ... thats more considerate about my
experience over time, projected into a possible future ... and yea, might not be very accurate ... so I want to question: Why do I feel better "that" way, than 'this' way, when thinking about the future? Or ...
do I? I mean ... its not that simple!
Its weird. I mean, I can't really tell whats happening - as there is a truth in me thats actually stranger to myself. So, my trans-sexuality for instance. Its something that has kindof always been there - so,
it doesn't qualify as 'that weird' - but - nonetheless - it, ... never seemed normal to me. So I'd hide it. For once secretly thinking about it, ... but then also ... being curious about wearing lingerie, or,
anal intercourse. That then were things. Things I physically did - a simple discharge we might say ... of inner tensions or an at all ... thing, a truth, that wanted to be real we might say.
Taking it any further than that ... doubting that its really truely me, as a part of me, ... but anyway ... #nowImHigh ... and so, I should look the other way and ignore this, coming back to the same-ish ending
anyway.
I wann add to the conversation of 'Forced Happiness' - as
introduces us to ... though, its kindof not a response. I'm kindof responding to the Pew D Pie (sorry) video, ... but the thing I see is that actually, ... and part of the "Why Pewd is wrong" "controversy" belongs
to that, there are two different things going on; One is very political and the other is very personal.
To introduce you to the 'field'/scope/spectrum ... the "battlefield"/"VR" ... I think this destinction comes out most clearly is ... actually ... I mean, its a field of vision that I think is important to have/know
about. What is 'public society'? I mean - what is Democracy?
Public Society in context to Democracy ... or, public oppinion, ... whatever - we have a certain word for a certain something ... which is 'Bubble'. So, as by Googles algorithms to streamline information that is of
the users interest to the user, a phenomenon has been observed which is that, due to the large diversity between given world-views I guess, people would get a really one-sided view of the World; As things the person
is not interested in, that would yet be important, wouldn't end up on his radar. I believe we can say that part of it is somewhat 'blown up' to the point that we're kindof panicking ... uhm ... .
Well ... moving further up we get to the word 'Lie press' for instance. So, bottom line - each of us has a 'wall screen' - we might call it - which is composed of all the walls and the scopes that exist; So that
naturally a few of them are invisible to us. Whatever.
A word I would rather want to use is 'Vacuum'.
What is the Press supposed to do? Lets take a line such as: "Explorers found Alien Artifact in Antarctica". The case then were the following: Explorers found an Alien Artifact in Antarctica - and somehow that information
would move on to the Press and the Press would reflect that as 'news'. So then there is the 'headline' - which now is effectively some Vacuum. The Headline itself is not the incident of discovery itself ... as the word
'Thing' is not the 'Thing itself'. Now, what this essentially takes is an Establishment, which is much like a projector. Or scanner. Or ... Microscope. You put a thing in its ... thing ... whatever there is that is there
... for that ... and the apparatus would project it to the public. Here the Press is actually attached to Science. This now is already a consideration that isn't really consolidated in our society. Press today is still
very conflicted by Oppinion. So, that establishment isn't clearly established as this line of reason would suggest at least, ... while, the 'conflict by oppinion' is that: As there is no 'Universal Source' there are
many news outlets which eventually get associated to certain oppinions. The difference of oppinion is a good we have, but so, there is a Level of things where oppinion is irrelevant.
Politics should go entirely separate from that - but I'm not here to actually write about politics!
"Prior to Gangster Rap, the World was a Peaceful Place ..."
"Niggaz" are a 'real' ... "Meta Community" ... as anti Drug Laws were actually implemented to put Afros and Mexicans into jail. And that is a fact, ... as is that Afros have come to America as Slaves. Thats History.
As of that we can say that the term 'White Supremacy' is an actual thing, as possibly also 'the Patriarchy'.
We can arrange this picture so, that there now is a 'White Supremacist Patriarchy' that is there as answer to the question for the reasons. We just label it 'WSP'. It however also draws Black people as their Outlines,
behind which the rest of the world, those that aren't a part of the WSP stand.
"Still ..."
But this arrangement - its more an ideology than fact. But it still draws factual outlines. Not as a real thing, but more like a thing that could be real. Such is the power of an ideology. It doesn't exist prior to
its reception, ... think of it as a laser beam fired through a puff of smoke. Once it flashes up, the individual somewhat reacts to that, it becomes a thing; And what it'll finally be is a matter of forces.
"I got 5 on it ..."
Well, ... Hip Hop ... what does it mean to me? If we think about Ideology, we may find that we can apply that same image on every word spoken. Or every sound, every impression. So - once a group of people is expelled
from a society, what is going to do, in that society? As part of it nonetheless as it would bow to the very same rules? How is it supposed to fit in? And so automatically there will come a Vacuum - "I rep that west" -
... which is "perpendicular" to that of the WSP. And once you surround yourself with Gangster Rap, ... that Vacuum, which can also further split down into sub-bubbles ... would come to define a larger amount of your
views ... your screen wall. And so, while I was young, there was this question: Who is more successful? The rappers with attitude - with a sane message; Or ... is it "vice verso"? But the thing is that there are those
Rappers that had a lot of success ... that just have these messages, ... as ... they would rap about life, share oppinions of righteousness, ... and some would be receptive for that and others wouldn't. The rest were
just stuff to vibe with ... and ... I wouldn't say that Gangster Rap pulled me down, I pulled it in myself. And that because I could vibe with it!
[the Next Episode]
And to me that is as valid of a "political standpoint" as any. But naturally, what you'd make of it ... depended on you!
So - however, to get back to the point [California Love] - things that aren't shown to us won't be a thing for us. So - electricity ... is a thing - since for once all electrical stuff that works works; And ...
eventually we've come to experience an electric shock as well. But there is a large field of sciences in there that we now can only accept is somehow there to make it work, "You're now about to whitness the strength
of Street Knowledge" ... [straight outta comptom] .... which is different. A variety of Ethnicity is a thing the WSP might not want to entertain as it inherantly demands a society to explore its freedom, ... to
evolve as to re-distribute power.
But so ... Criminal attitudes would still work out with other Criminal attitudes ... or "attitudes of condescending power" - or whatever. But anyhow ... this is too far into politics again.
The Ghettos I grew up in could barely be compared to what Gangster Rap portrays - at least, ... the American way. Gangster Rap in germany is different but similar. Well, for real - its got to be that way. Gangster
Rap is written by life. Being a G here is being a Dumbass there. For real. I'm sure that any of those "American Attitudes" lived out here in germany, you'd be called a Moron. Well, the main reason why that Moron isn't
a Moron where he's coming from, ... thats the part where we got to say: Well, we know shit about what its like growing up that way - or whatever. Living in a world like that.
[Hail Mary]
It is my experience that allows me to imagine - and images and sciences allow me to enhance that imagination. Can I claim I get it? A real image? How would I know?
How would you?
[Random Final Fantasy XV ad ... ??? !!! !!!!!]
Thats a pretty cool ad though! 8:47 minutes ... wow!
Oh yea, then there is weed. Its another enhancement to imagination. So - I would say, for once, I have to file in at the rearest end - as I've grown up in pretty wealthy circumstances. The town is called 'Eglosheim' -
and while I grew up wealthy, ... well, there's single family houses in like one quarter of the town; School, sports grounds and lots of multi-family houses in another half; And market, restaurants, family houses
and other stuff in another quarter - all close by. Its pretty clean. Why I would consider it a ghetto - well, thats kindof what it was, for me. Lots of people living together; And "outside" there were all the kids
that had the time to be outside. Or, ... the "guts" - maybe - to be at certain places. Eventually there were bullies, ... and well, however some saying about some more and some less crazy. Its still a low density
population - and yea, we were kids ...; While, moving on into the next where I was a bit more mature; Pretty much the same thing, ... but with a much denser population. Theres multi-family houses mostly everywhere;
... while also less segmented; With the train station as a clear center - and lots of different places within in about the same mush of housings. Kornwestheim.
"only God can judge me ..."
In my growing up, Church/Religion was something totally separate from street life. Street Life was dominantly Atheistic - or ... inspecific ... . There are esoteric veins, there's islam, ... and once it gets to
Christianity its ... I guess kindof weird - as, Christianity in religion is widely secluded. You have the two grand religions, Evangelists and Catholics, while a lot of protestantic "sects" - and they, being smaller
communities within ... well, they are like little towns within - where then social bonds exist where now church and then church-friends make up a large amount of privacy or ... lifetime. The other half for me where
friends of my parents; Though ... the vast majority of the time it were my Mothers friends - which also resembles my 'Immigration Background' - sotosay; Though, it was never a big issue. I never felt treated unfair
by any of my teachers ... and most people I came to know were kindof wealthy. Well, most certainly everyone once compared to poverty in the Philippines. Thats for sure! I mean - being homeless in winter is a different
thing - though ... that is for the 'absolutely incompliant' I would say, as ... yea, there are shelters - and they are pretty good! Compared to the US (those I've been in) - and partially even 'wealth' in the Philippines.
What makes it poverty though is - that poverty in germany is also a thing; So, within german conditions.
So - my world however was Universally, in first place, somewhat a construct of Hollywood and Japan.
Those were the things that fascinated me - and Spielberg, Christopher Loyd and co., Robin Williams - they were part of this construct ... Lethal Weapon, Last Action Hero, Police Academy, Turtles, ... Hook ...,
where next to that was Hyrule, the Secret of Mana, ... which I was all influenced by, then doing my own art. The Neverending Story was a movie that I/we apparently watched so often, that my Parents decided to delete
the tape. Same with the Blue Lagoon. I guess we shouldn't have been supposed to see it in first place. Anime was rare though. So was Manga. I however never got around a store where they sold any of that for a long
time. And it took me a long time before I could ultimately see some proper Gundam action. Weird. Well, first of all were Video Games all I cared about ... aside of that I did my art - and then ultimately started to
care about God.
But there was also MTV, ... at some point. hanging out with friends - though I didn't have much time for that on my own. For a long times friends to me were friends to family members; Or associated to that - but
weed - that really took me into the streets. [Still Ballin]. To me - to just say it as it is, my taste of Music is a reflection on how which Music impacts me - and resonates with my mind. And ... there is something
about Tupac, ... for instance ..., that basically rhymes with me and possibly a whole lot more ... [Last ones Left] ... though ... fuck an interpretation of those lyrics ... thats my vibe for it. Well, anyhow -
I also kindof lost this vibe over time - and so yea, what I'm actively exposing myself to makes all the difference.
[When I get free]
A definition of Art(work): Its bullshit to begin with. The goal is to make the most possible sense out of it, by the end of the day.
[Only fear of Death]
But so - at some point there was also China, ... so, Kung Fu or more to the point: Shaolin/Daoism and Tai Chi.
Random Flash Insight How do dialects get established? At some point however, a group of people that shares a language would be separated by whatever reason, thus developping unique individual characteristics over
time, ... . English is there finally.
[Got my mind made up]
Method Man there reminds me - art (the artworld) is (should be) a platform for Talent!
[Against all Odds]
(No, I didn't come to mention everything thus far)
So, when it gets to popularity of things; There is essentially 'things' that are 'wanted'. So there are things that are wanted by many; Which then in the social scope also are some vacuums. While I was young, I
know that I didn't know a lot of things, but being to a lot of places I thereafter knew of a wide variety of things. And I liked what I liked.
What I find today is ... that there is so much politics involved into everything. I would call that a confusion amongst ourselves - a need to yet come to a point. And I ... I'm anti Trump for instance - because I
see him doing the things I worried him doing, while those things is are the very same things that he promised to get rid of.
We can now take it however we want. We had to give him the benefit of the doubt that his choices are actually in support of what we claimed - I mean, is he drowning the swamp that his voters wanted him to drown?
I mean - whatever. If you can't see what I mean you're dumb and blind ... you're looking away from things ... .
Now, wether Hillary were the better choice is debatable - she however spoke the words of being united in spirit. [Me against the World]. So, whatever. The point is - that doesn't matter!
[I aint mad at cha]
The point is: Reality.
Obviously we have a problem with our press - and oppinions - and ethnicities and lifestyle - so obviously the transition to a newer, better thing is the solution! But what would that be?
So, now - how does the Forced Happiness thing tie in?
There is 'faking' versus 'taking' it. What Boogie says does is 'taking' it. You got to draw positive thoughts to your attention to fill your screen with more of that - so you get to an all over better mood. Sometimes,
kindof. Certainly, where you have a choice, ... or a need ... well, ... uhm. Thats different as once you're actually acting against your will or desire. By that you're poisoning your reality - so, its the same thing
as 'rejecting' it; Basically. And by chance there are people that have an inherant positivity when it gets to creating YouTube content for instance. So, those are 'delivering'/(sharing) it. So, acting positivity in place
of negativity is in that generally a huge disservice; As it blurrs reality; As - our expectations of each other change; And if we expect the worse from others, ... we see society behaving that way before it happens -
without a serious philosophic counter stance, which perplexes us. So, once we're upset about something in politics for instance; Where ... do we go? We lean over, talking to our friends, ... - but the rest of the world
would seem to have a different idea. But yea - people finally stand up, voicing oppinions, ... and boiled down to the bottom; The first real problem we have is/are lies!
Like - if you didn't like Return of the Jedi, how come you call yourself a 'huge Star Wars fan' on par with someone who genuinely liked or even loved it?!
There would be reasons!
[Warren G - Regulate (ft. Nate Dogg)]
[Snoop Dogg - Gin & Juice]
[Who am I (Whats my Name)]
[Vato]
by: Christopher Nikolaus Sonnberger | 2017.01.19 - 07:12
[Still D.R.E.]
The reason why this is usefull, is that first of all - what do I know about 'vision' but my own? I can try to peek behind corners, but at the end of the day I got mine and you got yours and that is that. So - by
sharing a bit of my own, You can thereby try and see how my understanding or perception of the world might be different to yours - where, the important part were to properly assess what is important to gain an
insight into what makes these differences.
... or not. Its complicated I guess. I mean ... the immaturity of your awareness would constitute an immature interpretation. Thats just it, as at some point we can try to describe emotions for instance, but to
truely talk about them we need to know what we are talking about; So ... you need to have seen what blue is before blue makes any sense to you!
On the other hand you can all look at me - and what I have here is essentially what you all got in common. Right?
So, to move on with stuff about me - I can get into Mormonism for instance. Well, naturally. If there is something I know about 'now' because of something in the past, there is always that story there that I got.
In this case its less of a story, but more just the thing with the Church. It advertises the Testimony; And I got in due to it. I won't claim that every Mormon who is baptized has that, ..., but still there are
the blessings of the Holy Ghost that ... are just there ... and whether going to Mormon Church makes life any more or less pointless ... does totally not matter; ... .
However ... what is the truth? 'There is a Sun'! Right? I mean, there is something in the sky that some people at some point in time 'called' 'Sun' ... and thats it! Science is like that. The idea is that there
are physical Laws; And to test this - we can play with electric current and other forces like gravity for instance ... and see if we can find Laws that accurately describe whats happening.
So the idea of the Testimony for instance - same thing. If you got it and you appreciate it, you'll follow it and end up there where everyone ends up who has it - naturally. This accumulation will have the
effect of reassurance, whatever it may be looking alike aside of that! Clearly groups and can organize and grow anywhere, under a wider variety of circumstances; Essentially - growth is not a dead givaway for
that it is Sacred or Holy! But within that which is sacred and holy, there is that sacred and holy extra bit ... and that is then also as common of a natural understanding as anything.
Why wouldn't it be?
So in this jungle of wall-screens that we got, or screen-walls, whatever ... in our vision ... however differently it relates to everything else ... the one way to make progress to a better ending is to find
these common places that unite us.
To think about our independent 'vision' another way, there is that so called 'good advise' for instance. Or "what people would do" or what one "should" do. So, for instance - think of a scenery, some landscape/terrain,
while you look at me from an isometric top-down perspective. I look towards something that you cannot see, while I'm facing away from something that you see, but I don't; And you'd point that out to me; As ... you
would want me to go there and check that out.
But I on the other hand see something else that I want to check out ... and so we got each our own ways.
"Warframed" - What the Game Industry doest wrong
(And stuff like that)
Well - this isn't supposed to be(come) a Joke! Technically - I suppose that every topic does "the trick" - like, I could also write about Lighters!
I'm a smoker and so I happened to buy a few during my Lifeteime. But eventually I found it to be a lot more convenient ... to ... . I mean, have you ever noticed any particular
'Lighter Brand'? I know of bic and zippo. But - how are you gonna say which brand is any good? Bold preference? Well - I realized that bic lighters kindof are on purpose not
rechargable. And I hate that! See - with rechargable Lighters my problems were a) Material failure and b) Loosing it. Not it only running out of gas and then being useless. And a
recharger lasts so much longer than a single lighter as well! Means, especially for me, as I prefer spending my time at home, less going out. And yea - whats the purpose of having
non-rechargable Lighters? You can be smartassing against my way here - but - everyone who's on my page of the story ... I mean ... well, anyway. Its mindblowing! Boggling. Whatever.
Especially since, well, there is that discrepancy between how the world looks like from - how to call it - "some perspective" ... however - and the other. We grow up, I'd dare to say,
being kindof meant to believe that we live in this highly scientific world; Like - we got rechargable Lighters. We got standardized plugs, tubes, everything ... everything is technical;
Nothing you can do that wouldn't as well go on a "why don't you just ..." basis. Simple! But then you step into the world; And all that technicality suddenly disappears; And you get
branded Lighters ... that aren't rechargable. And why is that even a thing?
"Why don't you just ..." ... ??? ... drill a hole?
For a long time I've struggled to get one general point about programming accross. Basically it started as I tried to explain how come I'm not working on my game anymore - or why my
software would take a bit longer to be done ... then it became more of a 'out of principality' thing that I would have to solve - while by now I'm essentially beyond giving a shit
about everything whatsoever. Kindof. Its pointless. I even started to feel sick at some point; Since when it only got worse; About putting any effort into anything whatsoever - since,
... whats the point or purpose? I guess this is tooo vast of an issue to shoehorn into this though. But so things blow up, cases get more complicated ... and I tend to forget why I
bothered writing about something in first place.
At some point I had to think: It seems an aweful lot like ... most of my efforts are (subconsciously) directed at a seemingly corrupt entity that just won't listen. I mean - once I'm
triggered about something going on and driven to write about it - then sharing it - I tend to feel like I'm doing science for my enemy. Also while writing those things I get to points
where I have to laugh to myself about what I see; Knowing that no matter how I described my amusement - it wouldn't be understood. So I eventually got a bit cynical about it; ... but
its really ... the stupidity of people ... in real ... that gives us things such as non-rechargable Lighters! Well yea - there are companies that produce that crap; And no doubt we can
continue and defend such practices; But its really just the stupidity of the consumer! (These non-rechargable Lighters aren't even cheaper per se!)
And so the thing with Microsoft and the X-Box One. What does it mean, these days, to be 'consumer friendly'? Well, I'd say that its as much as: Not pissing them off! How would you piss
them off? Well, doing things consumers don't like. Back then the whole case was a bit more simple though; As Microsoft did obviously not expect ... what happened finally. Not yet; At
that time back then. Whatever the thing ... what I'd point out is ... well, rather a question. How is something thats inherantly consumer unfriendly supposed to be(come) consumer friendly
at some point? "What? Don't like shit? Well, how about I put a cherry on top?".
Some of you would say that this argument doesn't work or hold up. Yea yea yea. Shut up!
It depends on what you think I tried to say!
I mean - to me its like this by now: If I touch on a subject thats kindof 'charged' - triggering me to compulsively engage into defending my perspective; Its just one of those issues.
Its a topic people contend about; And for what? Objecting to a counterstance that I provided? Hell, if it even got acknowledged to be a counterposition! This ... these issues are like
"there cannot be a counterstance" ... and for that I'm wrong already! "Why don't you just ... ?".
OK, it may now not be obvious how that Lighter story fits into the game industry or programming - but its easy to see though! This world is broken on many Levels; And the Lighter thing,
its just simple enough! Its not like its the only thing wrong with this world!
I mean - there is what you can understand and what you think you don't understand. Maybe the latter bit isn't even there!
I mean, I can't really shake the feeling that I'm "challenged" either. I mean - whatever I do, there'd be someone somehow better than me at it - in a way of, well, being better than me
at being me. Its the same thing - as those issues. It teases me - while, what reason do I have to care?
And so, here I am again - getting slowly sucked into that thing nonetheless. This shouldn't have been about that - but, its reasonable. This whole fucking topic is just about that
actually. Kindof. And so I've previously written in my response to that Thunderf00t Video on a kind of 'violent/sadistic attitude' - which I'm gonna shed some more Light onto now.
There is emotional stress. Thats just a thing. If you're struggling for success - I mean, if you "got a hustle" of some sort, some "game", you play that and you keep yourself busy
that way - invested - and you'll see the rewards from what you're doing based on that. That kind of behaviour does vastly keep you away from the perspective I'm sharing - as ignoring
it were a part of the game; Where my situation is yea - pretty much the gamer over screen.
There then are things like social demand - and "playing the game" you wouldn't care about it - because: If you align to it, you loose! So, that "either you rule or you serve" kind
of thinking. And thats where I'm at. I would try to meet demands; Like you would otherwise claim I should. But wait ... you wouldn't say that ... 'but'. (But thou must!).
I can't have it 'my' way because 'my way' is wrong - so I have it their way which is wrong as well. From a different perspective its like so: There is this 'way' - imagine a soccer
field maybe. But instead of being smooth willow, its just dirt and rubble. Not fun to play on. It won't ever be fun to play on that field if I can't ever clear the stones because
the moment I clear one stone; Two even larger stones are dropped onto the field. So, I'll try to develop more effective strategies at clearing the field - though at some point the
one way to go is to just kill all the folks throwing them stones at me! And the more I would try to be peaceful about it, the more anger and tension is stored for the time of a
potential discharge!
And I'm right about it! I might be wrong about it though, if you thought 'it' were a different thing than the one I meant to be right about! And so for the programming issue. If in
the end all I meant to say were that there are reasons for me to delay my software - then thats it. And there are reasons that are fairly generic ones. They are part of the 'craftsmanship'
that is programming. Some of them problems are however larger than just 'the immediate problem' - as a "snowball effect". So I tried to be technical about it - but instead of feeling like
I ever achieved actually explaining it - I felt like I'm supposed to feel stupid for "not just doing it like ... so".
So I cannot really believe that this issue that I believe is a technicality isn't actually a thing anywhere but for me - and certainly, when making games is a business you can't be bothered
too much by it. Yet, success kindof depends on them folks getting them basic stuffs right! And they don't! Thats why games are buggy - for instance. You might blame the programmer who worked
on a piece of code - but you can't blame the delivery service for the traffic on a certain junction! You can blame him for not driving around it - but to keep code as efficient and "slick"
as it gets; You wanna avoid those detours! Because they end up turning everything into a mess. I mean - you'd want to go and do that "why don't you just ..." kindof thing ... fixing or
changing a thing; But then those detours happen to be there, off the radar, thus remaining uneffected by them changes ... and yea, again the individual programmer who didn't think about it
were to blame; But ... no matter how much you wanna blame the programmer - its the whole entire thing thats flawed! As there is an obvious problem ... kindof obvious!
Everyone who claims differently just doesn't know what the fuck he or she is talking about!
And anyway ... saying that something is wrong with 'the Industry' - thats like ignoring that there are good products too! So, even more of an indicator that I'm sucked up into talking to the
wrong people!
Kindof. There are issues that I think are generally interesting; Though the very same things are, it seems, to certain people, interesting from a different perspective.
To escape that problem, I think its right to return to what this should be all about - and I think that to a large extent this is (supposed to be) about happiness. Or, lets stick with
positivity for now.
You got to make clear, to yourself, what you want your life to be like. Which can be more complicated than it seems though. I mean - I've got a bit of a struggle myself there; So - I
shouldn't speak of any solutions and therefore you shouldn't spit about it as though I were trying - and therefore you shouldn't value my efforts on that base either! "But what else?".
Well - duh - what else do we got? What else is here?
I mean, if the bottom line were as much as consolidating that life is full of shit for reasons - then, its really just as simple as that!
And to get to what the Game Industry does wrong - as simply put as possible - is that it tries to do without God! "Please!"? ??? Shut the fuck up!
Its the plain and simple answer to everything! See, the faithful or however at least 'humble' individual has a trait there that ... basically acknowledges the need for a higher entity
to step in. Now, what higher entity steps in is gonna matter - where, its a simple fact that the higher the entity, the better the support! Its a difference as night and day if the one
were to say shit like "why don't you just ..." and the other saying "well ... it isn't that simple!".
I mean, its a difference like "why don't you just ignore Quantum Physics?" compared to ... "well ... it isn't that simple!".
And so now its reality/the Universe/Physics that sucks for being not that simple - but, well, whatcha wanna do about it?
I mean - its right that technically you can upgrade NES Super Mario Brothers into the latest Call of Duty, but it'd be easier to write the latest Call of Duty right away; Obviously.
As so there else is the core of what you've created - and thats effectively the finished snowman - as of the snowball effect. There is only "so much" you can do without entirely
rewriting the whole thing.
And so the reason why I "don't just" ... is that "its not that simple!".
There is that way of things. I would go and proclaim that I'm working on a Video Game. Then, as though as that were like inserting a coin into the "screwing everything you do up
Automaton", I would find myself, later down the road, in a situation as fucked up for that to have been a good idea as it gets. And I ain't even talking about what occurs to me,
specifically, directly. I'm talking of all those douches that buy non-rechargable Lighters and claim that its the better way to go!
Matthew 25 reloaded! ^^
And so - based on my proclamation I sent myself down that hallway - where my story were to imply that things 'got' fucked up after I started to move down that way. As it goes on:
I'm challenged to solve problems that are there to mess with me - ... kindof. The thing isn't about paranoia or no paranoia - its about the simple situation of however that would
occur. That you end up somewhere where you didn't want to be - based on doing what you liked to be doing. Where you then got to realize: Well, that ain't the life I wanna live
either! And this isn't about being lazy to deal with the problems either! I mean - for me, at some point, the "problems" weren't about programing or getting a game published - as
none of that was actually something I actively pursued. I kindof already gave up before that got an issue.
And giving up is probably the right way to put it after all - although I didn't want to give up or have given up. I however did give up, actually, the moment I had to make it
understood that my reason for discontinuation is my all over situation in life. There's a road of success that I would have been on; But being not on it, for whatever reason, was
already, well, a failure! And now it stands that I can't have whatever - anything - because I ... share a different perspective than - someone standing there and judging me.
Getting no love is tiring. So, is it a need? And I'd say: Most certainly! I ... uhm, to define 'need': Zombie Survival makes it so that you can boil things down to the absolutely
necessary. Food and Water for instance. How is a fulfilled Love life anywhere near that? Well, Food and Water were what gives you the strength to Live. And eventually "it got
figured out" and I would receive some kind of Love - but it couldn't be anything but superficial no matter how deep the motivation. I mean, 'duh', of course the motivation would
wanna go as deep as necessary to keep me going - but not out of Love for 'me' - ... and where's the difference?
------15:32--"Lowbobbing for Noobs"
Oh yea, those were the old days. Well - though it might/must seem as though I'm crying about "can't get no Love" - I have to move on and say: We evolved as a species - thus allowing
us to move beyond basic, core survival needs. In that sense we're moving towards a civilization, which does now happen in two ways, ... potentially. There is the side of piling up
stones - one above the other - and the other side of goals, ... the ideal, as, in what order or shape these stones get now piled up on top of each other.
So, there is the "inching forward" - say, you settle on the minimum, make progress and therefrom have some more 'wealth' - so, instead of scavenging you for instance can chill out
while gardening - and there is the other side - that of the potential 'fullest'. Art drops right into that. Art would be done by folks that sotospeak "are lazy" - just like science.
Art and Science is an expression of wealth, say, there is enough so that some people don't even have to do 'that' work anymore and therefore can do other things. Which is an exageration.
Because, Artists and Scientists yet would have to know all kinds of 'basic' things to be better at what they do - kindof.
Anyhow - so wealth eventually occured, we got science - but the suppression of expressions of wealth, like - working against science - thats basically detremental. I mean, obviously!
(And it ain't like we couldn't need someone who has an actual clue about Religion!)
But so - there is the 'far end' - as, the fullest. Of course I can't claim - and if I would I would be wrong - that we can totally establish a civilization we don't have the material
or science for. Thats a no brainer. So, when I say/mean: 'ideal' - I don't mean that 'beyond the mountain' sort of stuff; Although ... I kindof do when considering that Unification is
that sort of 'beyond the mountain' kind of thing.
But so - there, at the "far" end, there is ... well ... some ... inequality. Some of us are still scavenging for survival. For instance. We would say that its fate - but we should also
realize that in an ideal society, such shouldn't be considered 'normal'. And to my understanding its not only so that homeless people refuse help - they also kindof don't get the kind
of help they would want!
However - lets move that aside. Unification then.
Its clearly a thing that some of the things that I came to expect are beyond you as unification is - simply put. So, clearly - you understand. We eventually get there, and things will
bob on from there.
And that is where I see the big redemption for all things positivity related. I mean - to be honest, there isn't always a reason the be all that honest. If you're unhappy - well, it
depends on what kind of unhappiness we're talking about. Once it makes you sick - its definitely something serious!
But so ... I think ... I should leave it at this for now!
Lowbobs the rescue
by: Christopher Nikolaus Sonnberger | 2017.01.24 - 01:16