It didn't even cross my mind!
... that, ... a while earlier I was writing about Destiny. "Visions of Shit Creek" was it called. Some part of me doesn't want to write this; ... because I'm actually
fine as it is! I mean not to excuse myself nor any of what I've written; As neither do I mean to write anything along the lines of feeling guilty or ashamed of myself.
While still, I feel like I'm supposed to back-paddle - to ... now dislike Warframe, as to further elaborate on Destiny, Warframe and what not; I'm having none of that!
I just don't care and I don't feel like caring does me any good. More than anything it makes me sick! Were I not actually feeling sick already ... .
And being more specific about whether or not the Antichrist truely repented ... ... I mean, if you really required me to ... I ... no - ... it doesn't sit with me!
But there's a thing I tried to write about - while I don't feel like I had a great example of it, nor anything coherent to further deepen the case. The thing is, ...,
there were moments where, ... I'm not even sure if those moments were real! They feel unreal, that much is for sure. Moments where people asked me questions - or 'a'
single one - one I didn't have an answer to; And the question ranged from more to less important things, ... point being: Its like, I could have been asked for my
birthday and respond: "Whats Birthday?" - seriously not knowing what that is!
I mean, legitimately, ... seriously ... not knowing! Just like back there; As I was writing that article, I was entirely incapable of thinking about the fact that this
other guy who suddenly came back from the dead may have been a Sunsinger Warlock with a charged Super. Though, there may have been a way for me to acknowledge that
there are things such as Supers. I believe I even was about to comment on how Supers work for me in Destiny - as it adds a ... sortof extra depth to the gameplay.
To let you in on it in case you don't know: In Destiny you play a 'Guardian' - some ... "Space Wizard Knight" kind of thing. They have super abilities that charge
up over time - and the sunsinger has the ability to ressurect himself - and I would or should know that because actually the Sunsinger is my favourite class in Destiny!
It didn't even cross my mind. I mean, there was that voice speaking from the back of my head: "You can do that too!" - and I was like ... 'woot? I don't know about
that!'. I think the last time I tried to write about it, it was in the context of how Antichristians recruit further Antichristians - recalling upon situations where
I was in the same room as "it" happened. The one guy talking to the other guy about success and being a bad person; So, turning it into a 'would you?' question,
clearly from the direction of an actual recruitment for that kind of thing - but I was paralyzed! I remember staring at a Vacuum Cleaner that looked like the one of
my grandparents ... and I was totally perplex and as soon as possible frogot about the whole thing; And though I'm pretty sure that it actually happened - the memory is
like ... I mean, obviously kindof as surreal as the situation itself.
So, while you would think of the Antichristians as an underground myth community/urban legend that has no ways of growing ... because you're thinking of some grey haired
dude and a bunch of other grey haired dudes wearing funny clothes while waving their hands as though they were heroes while pretending to be representatives of Christ,
... you wouldn't be looking at the kind of environments that had to be looked at!
But, for once ... Roman Catholics have that whole confession thing going on - where people share their most intimate dirty secrets with a Roman Catholic official -
where the point for them is to find those that would join their ways ... (and then brainwash them into thinking that they're actually doing a good thing or something
like that once they do join) ... and that would be a first way of how to extend beyond the church environment. Because of money for instance people can now appear
more successful than they are, through connections get to positions others deserved more; With the full intention to look as it is totally undeserved because thats
actually generating the fundamental thought or belief that doing bad things is actually the thing that gets you anywhere in this world!
The place that I was at, I would call it a "weed cave". The guy for once was relatively famous in our town; Being your ordinary looser - effectively - just, instead
of loosing he won. His parents would be upset about what we did, being doing nothing but smoking weed for month; And the 'we're just smoking tobacco in these Bongs'
excuse ... it ... worked though the whole place must have smelled like weed in like a 5 mile radius.
He knew all the people, had all the things, ... and being friends with him was pretty much a privilege! That we actually were even sortof 'best friends' for a while, thats
one of the things why I never related to myself as a looser. But all my losses never drove me to the point of wishing upon some unholy power of iniquity to ... "show them"
... whomever I'd have to show anything!
Or be remotely accessible to any of that crap!
But there were other odd situations alike ... like, at some point I was asked about some shoes I owned or something. Which makes the whole thing feel kindof random; Though
in hindsight I ... have an urge to comment on those situations 'telling' that this ... contemporary Amnesia is a thing; While - putting it that way also kindof reduces the
credibility of the whole 'Antichristian recruitment' thing. If not really and actually logically - then at least as supplement to their ordinary bullshit bending of the
truth and reality ... you know ... like, how can you trust anything I say?
Now at least this topic isn't burried anymore in whatever arbitrary place I previously came to think about it. And yea, thats all I have for now!
Zap Zarrap
by: Christopher Nikolaus Sonnberger | 2017.01.24 - 01:16