Good and Plenty

I am most definitely (???) talking about weed here! I'm listening to DI.fms Chillout Channel right now. I smoked some part of a joint about 1+ hour ago - whereby I got used to cut my weed small using a knife. Thats a practice I overtook from smoking Hashish, which is a solid to dough-ish "bar" like form of weed. That helps not :knubbeling up: the yet moist weed while rubbing it between your fingertips and thus leads to a higher yield; Whereby the weed itself isn't grass-like, but a somewhat chrystalline semi-dry bud. I'm used to roll my joints in "Street Style", which means that this is how you roll a joint when in the street while standing and possibly even alone. You prepare a filter, thats a piece of paper rolled into a tube as mouth-piece. This you can keep in your mouth. Flipping between teeth and lips. Then you take out a paper, which is the the tricky part. You can clip it between middle and surrounding fingers, whereby I use the left hand wherein I also prepare the mesh. A paper has the size of 44x107 mm. When the mesh is prepared you put the paper on top of the mesh. Here there are two ways. Sticky side towards the mesh which were "classic", or sticky side away from the mesh which were "Netherlandish". You so then put the other hand on top of the paper, and then you turn your hands around. Et voila, the thing is ready to be rolled. If you're rolling netherlandish, you roll it as usual and wetten the sticky part through a layer of paper. You the wait for it to dry and burn off what stands out. You have to be careful with the end (where there is no mesh) if you want to make a closed end. Here I am used to first bump the mesh down a little, maybe stomping it with a cigarette or such if available (but not too tight/rough), and finally knit the end of the cone in a little (complementing an even surface).

Due to having a decent amount of "hacked" weed ready the dosage was a bit higher as I'm generally used to, and as the effect started to come in I layed it aside and layed down in bed on my back to relax a little - while the music was playing all the time already.

I soothed a little while every now and then doing some "bed tai chi" (I'll get to that later). At some point ... "my wakening soul" came (back) in and I got up. I then took a hit from the bong, drank a sip of tea (southafrican rooibos-vanilla). Its distributed by a brand named MeSmer (yes, I haven't set my OS up properly and I'm too lazy to fix it) - where my favourite so far is the "Egyptian Amun" (Pomegranate-Honey). And the I wrote this.


In-bed Tai Chi (I choose to use Tai Chi instead of 'Taijiquan' to destinguish it from once the term Taiji and from practicing it as a Martial Art)

And now I'm switching back to 10 finger writing because hammering onto the keyboard using only two fingers can be tiring a little. ;)



And Keyboard shortcuts! What a breeze! I'm using Sublime Text 3 as my favourite Text Editor so far. Really, you have to watch some Tutorial videos to really get into using it.

Well, close to 'in-Bed Tai Chi' there also is what I would call 'Table Tai Chi'. I thought a fair bit about what it is. In first place it may be residual "inflexes" from practicing Tai Chi. By inflexes I mean - basically 'muscle memory'. So when I lay down and relax I - once I'm feeling generally good and high - relaxed - kindof get into some trance or meditation whereby I get to stretch my body or do some weird "Tai Chi esque" twistings and motions. 'Table Tai Chi' I also do while sober sometimes - and here I generally think that of it, as it generally stems from an inner urge of expressing something, as a desire for harmony or symmetry. There I think of it as an expression similar to words, related to the desire to 'exalt' nether conscious things into a higher form - as possibly conscious tensions that get balanced out through a physical echo. The echo stems from the will that moves in to establish itself against these tensions, thereby moving beyond the cognitive plane and reaching into the physical whereby then the motionary senses confirm/resonate with this will thus creating a shell wherein conflict is submitted to the own intentions. Now I got to get me some water to make some more Tea.



Yeaman! Still as good! Time for joint, got some left. (Shit, how did I get back to almost two finger writing again?)

It is now about 2 hours later - from that point early on. The last time I remember before laying down was 18:30 - now its 20:43, though, my clock is 10 minutes early. I didn't take a lot of puffs now. Basically just one. And a topic on my mind right now is 'waste'. For instance, I take one tea-bag per nearly 500 ml of hot water (on 3 tablespoons of sugar). Here I think that tea-bags should come with the intention to put into a cup in about that volume - where when making a bigger load you get to choose wether you want to 'save' or not. Otherwise we get to waste if we don't have the means to 'go big'. But then there is the trouble that I use the kettle every 500 ml, rather than just once. Hmm ... from what I've learned - I get a "better score" if I only heat as much water as needed. Same with weed. Puffing a joint is a bit of a habit to me, its a reflex. Thereby I come to in my oppinion waste it if I don't really inhale well enough. But there are a variety of issues round about towards the most ideal smoking experience. Heat is a general issue that really scales in when smoking a lot of weed throughing 'a' period of time. Like 3 to 7 days in ... for me. Ish. Not really inhaling well all the time is possibly a reflex to be able to smoke more in the grand scale. And you probably won't get to a 'heat-free' experience smoking joints. The most awesome 'smoking' experience I had so far was smoking Hashish through an ice-cooled glass bong. As though there were nothing. Like thin air.


Another hit from the bong. 20:57 o'clock. Now to the raw meat. While laying down, to me that is for here the more important part, I had a few "Clarity Updates" I would call them. That is to say, during that 1 hour of high raxiation, before the 'waking spirit' came in. That is when this high state is suddenly interrupted and I'm like 'snapped' out of my trance. For once is it important to note that while sober I didn't get a lot of these - and those that did come were a little bit weak; To a point where I might say 'none' - and that most certainly in regards to what I am used to. The second thing to note is the relevance of time. When I get to write about these things I do expose myself to that reality for an elonguated amount of time - as compared to mere expressions along a day. Thereby the amount of time I factually spent on "creating my image" on the line of basic impressions is rather slim compared to the amount of time I spent on cultivating and expanding on it. This is to move into perspective how much time I assume you will need to expect to be considered normal. It is to me usually climaxing within relaxational peaks - so you might decide one afternoon to spend some time on it. This however 'after' you already have a general idea - so, from there the desire to then sit down and do anything with it. As you may see here - cognitive reflection expands within manifestation; So, were I not able to manifest my thoughts on this I might have furtheron just slopped the 1 liter of water into the cettle and thus boiled one half of that twice.
I know that my cup measures in about 500 ml since I once bought a 500 ml ice-tea pack while also buying a Doener, and I poored it into my cup for a better enjoyment of the flavour of that tea; So, drinking it in sips as opposed through a thin straw.
The general seed of the thoughts regarding Table and in-Bed Tai Chi as well as those concerning clarity would have though still been there - and these I would probably from thereon have carried on around with as within me, to eventually surface in a moment where I get to then reflect about it. This is in the perhaps maybe that what the book named "Mirrorcolumn" (as the title translated by me reads) is about. It reports of a column that stands around in the somewheres of something. Then people come around - they look at it and then shake their head, saying to each other: Lets take it elsewhere. There then again some people come around - start to look into it, and as the ones before saw an abstract shape of themselves. They also shook their head and decided to take it elsewhere. It goes on and on, until it is at a lonesome beach and a guy passes by, looks into it, and jumps up in rejoyce. It represents the fact that each of the thoughts on our minds come back one day and have to be processed. In that meaning that I imply hereby. This with deeper and deeper recognition of ones self resolves into more and more intimate echoes - and by realizing the personal truths, that is our basic conclusions about the thoughts we project onto ourselves, we "transmogrify" the abstracts into constants, thus assimilating them rather then making them bounce back on us forever. At the bottom of it is the own personal truth always opposed by a spirit of freedom, thus negating any consolidation and thus yet keeping the "bounce" on until forever. If either side ever got to a pure perfectionalist realization of itself, the opposing part would yet stand there as equally magnificent even when basically only being real in an alternate dimension of reality.
This has to say that the perfect resolution to the established identity does as existing unity inherantly posess the spirit of freedom from where now further questions emerge as basically one root question that asks for a stark contrast to the established.
Hereby I think an important lesson we can take from life is that we cannot force the growth of things. Imagine ... a star ... for one to be born a shitload (excuse me) of dust has to cuddle up together. I mean - the whole entire planet we sit on is the consequence of chemical interactions. If you don't believe this, then way - maybe this will convince you: Think of God as the Heavenly creator - and now ask yourself: Could this God create a world as these scientists describe? So, with redlight shift, quantum mechanics, ... which are important for space to work, gravity, planets, stars, galaxies - endless amounts of them - ... could he?
As scientists describe it - they can observe stuff in space. Like, stars that are just forming as the light of their formation reaches our spot in space. So, our sun is a star such as that - when, why and how it got created is a totally different thing. The idea is that it makes sense in the universe. Whatever. Otherwise take a look at a far star. Anyway ... it can be observed. As scientists say, huge clouds of gas - as pictures X, Y and Z show - eventually cuddle up due to a common gravitational center. Gravity now is a ... well ... "bitch"? See - this gas ball at first comes together - in this gravitational center, and this comes about as all particles attract each other there is that point in the middle. Now there are particles left and right. The ones on the right want to the left and the ones on the left want to the right. They however cant because there is stuff in between that has to go somewhere if they are to go through. In the mean time more particles come up on top of them - and they also want to move to the other side of the ball due to the attraction. The more particles that come in on it ... the greater the web of particles that squishes towards the other side.
It is clear that those in the center will ultimately align to their most compact situation; And because we are talking of molecules at this point we are not yet talking of their most basic components and the interactions between them. How much pressure can a molecule resist before breaking apart? How much pressure is applied onto the center of gravity? When talking about a star we are talking of a mass many times greater than that of our planet, ... and here in my suggestive understanding quantum mechanics kick in. Here no longer the effective structure of an element is important, but their general function as a substancial entity. Thus it goes 'knack' and the gas inside reacts, kickstarting a huge explosion that consumes the entire gasbulb within a fierce explosion. This explosion, resembling the transition of the substance into a 'higher density element', occurs as the natural limits of what the particle bonds can bear is being crossed. In this higher density state particles existin a flux of being pushed in and out of spacial relevance - as within our sun consolidating a thermonuclear reaction through a steady ongoing of nuclear splits and fusions.

[puff puff] Something like that. Its 21:54. Now, this all - this would certainly take time. Time as in - there are stellar objects observed to have 'jets' that extend lightyears - say that even when moving at light-speed these jets resemble the travel of an equivalent of years. Our planet on the other hand is merely light minutes away from the sun. For a little speck of something to shape we may not have to search for long. A thermonuclear reaction may occur almost instantly starting with the existence of particles while the big bang was going on. So, well, here at some point God comes into play. Of course. So the bible reads something about Light and Water - and so it was done. This is now God basically providing the Energy that the Universe needed to Survive. When pictured starring the Big Bang this energy perpetuated into reality as we know it - and knowing it is part of the curse; If you want to be hardcore biblical about it. Adam and Eve ate from the tree of knowledge - and as many as may have repented from their sins or lamented about the incident - it didn't change the world we're in. Not physically. With a critical oppinion we might add: Since things started to get recorded at least. Give or take. That is not even relevant. Be it the stars or just a plant - time takes itself to go by.


But as with the stars in the universe our thoughts interact within our mind. And that is even to be taken literally, as scientists realized that the alignment of Galaxies in our universe follows the pattern of networks such as our brain or consciousness or whatever and the internet. 22:18 - I start getting balance issues. Time for a break maybe.



22:25. So, time for the harder questions. I just had think about IQ. Thinking about the time where I made my first IQ test - I scored 117 by the way - I came to think that yea, it would help out a little if prostitution were only legal above a certain IQ Level, regarding the prostitute. I mean - all throughout a guiding light was the idea that IQ tests are somewhat bollocks and need to be rethought. I mean, in the end the IQ test is like a game; You can - I suppose - get better at it. In that sense the IQ test is basically a "test for dummies" - saying, the more you work on your IQ the smarter you are per se - as in the system where it matters, sortof.
And this is how Pedophilia would get started: If we want to know whether or not we get born as blank slates, it may be helpful to observe our children as they grow up. It may be only propaganda - but when I see a picturebook image of a proud father, I always see a sense of accomplishment, in a sense of pride that the father has for its offspring - whereby I always imply that the pride of the father consists within his sons freedom. So - where the father watches his son grow up, and rejoyces in what this kid does on its own, or accomplishes - sotospeak. Well, of course this only properly works when the father and the son are somewhat equals, as otherwise the father couldn't truely relate to him. To understand whether a child now is a blank slate or not we can try stimulating memory by exposing them regularly to some form of entertainment and observing their reaction. And for gender issues we might want to separate boys from girls to for instance see whether or not girls and boys would like the same toys. Generally speaking and diversifying from there. With time we can grow an understanding of how childhood reactions and further developments correlate. The asumption is that we will eventually be capable of perceiving, possibly, strong sexual tendencies - and this is now a very sensitive issue. Or in other words: "You know how teenagers can be". In that regard we do not have to stretch that far ahead in time - though with that time passing by productively we have a stronger idea of how the teenagers mindset is being orchestrated. But clearly, if first of all a 'sexual lifestyle' is taboo, there is technically no way to even just possibly let that person live up to itself. And so here is the sensitive issue: Is that the way or is it not?
I mean - a being reborn certainly is not a blank slate; Where, if we so revive negative memories - what do we do?
Well - yea, my mind starts to loose its composure. I misunderstood. In essence what we can look at is the childs impulses - uhm, yea - so, the childs excitement for doing stuff. I have my oppinion about it; I have my own experiences - but I cannot speak for much more than myself.
And so - yea - it is evidently important that if we are concerned of a matter, we must first go and understand it. If we can help it. That means, if we aren't too scared to look at something we will learn more about it - and this way we can most certainly make more informed decisions. And thats what I'm gonna end this with? Yea - seems reasonable. I still have to draw the icon.




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