The Quintessential Human Delusion
OK, let this be smart again!
A part of me thinks that I should try to strive for being more simple - focussing on the simple - and so, as I'm writing
this, yea sure ... I'm always saying that everything narrows down to simplicity.
I'm however not getting into this that way. The boost of energy and motivation came so - as I figured that this 'simple
minded' isn't gonna be the right way. First of all - I realized while I was writing the last part of the previous paragraph
that: In 'that' case lets think: Take all the 'simplicities' I've ever written about and rid them from their context,
putting them so into a list of sort - and lets see what we get. My asumption was that while simple - there is space and
scope for misconceptions - which then leads back into complicated. So - what I meant by 'simple' should have been something
along the lines of 'simplicity by wholesomeness' - where the 'wholesome', well, that is either really really complex -
complicated - as figuring out all the laws of all the physics in this universe - or dead simple once accepting wisdom from
God.
So the issue is much more to elaborate the logic behind certain simplicities - such as Clarity for instance. As a manifest
context to the divine ruling behind the scene. In this case, while very well only describing my own case - and pretty much
just a theorem while unfulfilled - there are simple implications, as absent pieces that 'yearn' for a social completion -
perfectly put.
The problem with that though is that God Himself is to be the 'herald' to these truths - as to say: What has been told;
And is also established here already: That there is a complicated and a simple way - which is an independent from individual
to individual thing of course! For 'what is society' if not the whole of which an individual is one isolated case? I put
that question there because I see something of a ... struggle - it is of what I've written so far like - the 'peak' or the
point where "evil" or "darkness" attacks. To understand ourselves as society that is ruled by an 'external' power, we either
have to give it to God or to exclude certain people to be that power. The identity of what we are then gets magnified by the
ruler - which is what we give the power to make decisions to. If we don't see the simple and the complicated as something
that is a thing of each individually - to so understand that each of us is to take responsibility - we shift the responsibility
to that 'ruling power', alongside 'giving up our own independence'.
So people would even legitimately begin to question whether or not 'the free will' exists!
To make it simple for 'you' - you so would begin to have a ruler, or God, ... something. In places where that is however less
dogmatic and more pragmatic, lets say in science fields, the simplicity isn't shifted to a minded entity, thus anchored in
reality - where the simple of pragmatism is: Lets see what happens in reality! Here 'social simplicities' still exist - where
we say: "This isn't my field of knowledge - lets give it to those that know about it". And this is where the Atheistic way is
yet still the 'complicated one' ... err, as initially established.
Where 'darkness' now attacks here - that is associated to a shift of 'power and control' into a governmental entity that is
not God. These are furthermore issues that I would call 'Antropomorphically Universal'.
As so, I have repeatedly come to the point, where after I had been deeply elaborate about 'inside experiences' came to realize
that there isn't much of a point to it. I mean, you know or doubt what is going on within me - from that - but you don't have
adequate experiences 'yourself' - ones from which to actually relate to those things. And independent of where you stand - such
things do in my experiences tend to come back no matter how advanced you think you are. So: This statement of there being a
higher level of experience is Universal - and while on the very bottom we get to the 'first insight' ... here of the individual
in correspondence to God ... and upward come the major markers eventually ... Baptism and then Unification/Enlightenment ...
while beyond the 9th Seal this is lifted to a whole new Level, as you simple: get to realize how little you are in terms of
knowledge. Think of it as Seal 1 again - where you literally only see 'the Force = Matter' - not with much shape, relatively
speaking, as being just a simple 'there' (in its plasticity) ... first of all. "But now ... what?". But so the Seals 10, 11,
12 and 13 already mark 'clear' higher levels of experience. If you didn't get into the 'right' 9, you're essentially still on
the 8 - having a 'lucid' ... "hope" ... for higher levels of gnosis through dedication to that matter. Within the right 9
however, there is a 'clear' novelty - utterly clearly foreshaddowing your future growth as tightly within the hands of God!
This experience is preceded by the experience of 'redemption through baptism'. Which I would regard another marker to think
about whether or not your baptism is OK! Once you're not properly baptised, Salvation isn't an inherantly sure thing to you
- as the need for frequent absolution were a symptom of. Now, don't get that twisted with the feetwashing. Feetwashing isn't
required ... in the sense of a 'renewal of the oath' or 'request of re-entry' ... its like ... taking a shower - theoretically,
where ... the more dirt one is exposed to, the dirtier one gets ... essentially. That leaves marks - traces - that basically
... makes events real. See - were one now impervious to external influences, there were no experience of them either. The moment
we however conceive anything, darkness for instance, it enters our consciousness and we independently react to it. Would it
then right away disappear - we would dwell within a state of delusions - saying: What 'is' ... 'is'!
Well, how baptism now exactly matters - what it does and what we can find as 'commonly accepted' - that is still not written.
But the "twist" of the matter is that 'Salvation' inquires Gods love and care - and Gods heavenly embrace for those that are
saved "should be" (is!) recognized by those. It is a quintessential norm of common sense ... err ... co-existence here.
As for me - I'm certainly not on the highest Level yet - but consider me a fool or not when I say: The primary (first) things
established are certainly not there to vanish. Like, you don't go to school to learn that 1+1=2, to then go into the higher
grade and be told that thats actually wrong!
What we individually are can I guess be best put in terms of friendship. I mean, I see it like this: I'm a sow - therefore my
best friend is most likely also going to be one - and my 'best' friend were ultimately the 'bestest' of those - saying, the
one that would then be 'sowy' with me as well. Here one must for a second let go of the 'earthly' conditions - as within Eternity
there first of all is only God - who then essentially turns into a nexus that is connected to each human individual that is
connected to Him. And hereby God does not act as an 'ego' - but as a direct link between each and every one of us. Like the
space within which we mutually exist. Like physics, if you so will. And so there is an effectively independent 'evolution'
- though based on what we are. What we are then polarizes. I might be disgusting in your eyes - and so we 'shift' into
different layers of existence where we seek homogenity. Or ... 'higher union'. So would good for instance see our deepest
dreams - and match us up depending on that. Kindof. I'm not entirely sure - but indicators point out that there are now many
measurements that can be taken - different rods ... sotosay ... where our dreams are secondary to real things. Like a common
past - or rather so: commitments. For commitments do shape us too.
So is a holy wedding of course something that bonds with God - to 'bless' these commitments to be functional as a realized
bond - supporting it as to avoid a "drift off" ... err, the two from drifting apart. Like, things may happen - and the one
all of a sudden doesn't really 'fit' the other anymore - synergies become incompatible ... that sort of thing.
In the Enlightened sense that can furthermore then be built upon. Solid relationships can become solid components of any
social environment. And here then in terms of 'the Light' History becomes an issue too. Like, those that have accumulated
more than others 'by now' ... do simply have more ... as yea: First bonds established determine whats first there to begin
with. And those further impose their existence onto others - eventually. Like - if I'm married to someone, and we enter a
polygamy, this initial marriage will be a primary component, as is the inherant purpose of those bonds. They might get
reforged to adapt to eventual complications, as to however also create the new space that actually matters.
So the general gist here is that superficially put I have 'friendship preferences' - which yet may lead to the asumption
that 'this' then creates what we might call 'primary social expectancy' - to name what we so inherantly 'slipped into',
effectively.
It is thereby rather due to what I am, that I then have various 'social preferences' - where 'society' at first is an addition
to the individual without any concrete determination. There is the now, but life tells us that we need to build what we want
in the future. We so have dreams ... and accordingly would we love to shape our existence that way. So, it are "just dreams",
but ... 'dreams are dreams'!
Is this now about making our dreams come true?
Not, uhm - quite exactly! It is an inherant 'hook' of the story, that we independently are inherantly not perfect - and these
imperfections 'show' - ultimately - in one way or another. In my case that is an inherant stubborness - which maybe best
translates into my affection for Love interests ... where, I would from that want things to be a certain way - though less
conscious of that I would first and foremost 'want [it]' - believing it to be divine providence; Yet so not understanding
why God would withhold that from me. In hindsight there were anyhow two separate things I wanted. The one were fetishes that
I tried to ignore for the most part - and the other the individualistically romantic 'delusion' of a common being together.
The dreams.
'Now' what I want is clear to me - and it wasn't what I wanted "back then" - though traces and signs have been present all
throughout the time. Maybe that got further perpetuated through a given loneliness - generating a vacuum wherein I would
prolong a partner for me - (thus generating symptoms of 'need') - but this loneliness is certainly in part due to me again,
as I'm generally a rather withdrawn individual. I feel strange around others, alien even, while I'm mostly thinking about
Sex. Which again makes me a "natural born dreamer". And so I have common spaces in my fantasy that I returned to - a Love
interest for instance. Or a certain picture frame in my fantasy world.
So - there is something such as 'physical conditions' to our mental states - so if we value bread above butter, we rather
not eat firstly "butterey". What I now 'want' does stem from deeper within me than what I had 'wanted' - which I have wanted
'on top of that'. Well, kindof - as - I hadn't wanted it 'per se' yet - so there was space for something to want. There have
rather been ... tiny sparks from within me that basically yet supported by basic psyche. So as to for instance say that I
couldn't have ever been not a sow. Like when seeing certain porn flicks - right away getting aroused via an association to the
female part (as female) - that is a 'safe condition' you could replicate which over time would make me relate to that rather
than ... "whatever else". Matter of fact so safe, that it would re-emerge in any given alternate fantasy as well. And when it
gets to Jesus' words about harm done to children - this is one of those instances where parental guidance might fail. As -
constituting what we are is in my oppinion ... as basic nourishment. The thing is that we would otherwise constantly get in
trouble about what we wanted!
Well, whatever else I wanted certainly also had reasons. 'Flavour' - more specifically. Though in later years I also came
to discover blondes and redheads as intimately attractive - the mature brunette was always 'the guiding light'. So there are
those 'brunette types' of any given age - and therein especially the mature ones, which can totally also be said in reverse
- as there first being 'matures' of any given styling - and therein especially the brunette.
Then ... smooth hair. For brunette.
This is as engrained into my mind.
Like a deeeeep carving.
And as I get older - that also changes alongside; Changing my expectancy accordingly.
History further matters to us in regards of memory. Memories connected to certain individuals that have higher values, would
for instance be about 'certain things' - where we could in first place call that 'love marks' for instance. When maintained,
they mark an 'occupied' relationship - saying, the 'experience' that those marks hold cannot be overwritten by another
entity. But that still also depends on 'what' we 'do' remember. But eventually those things go away.
If your impression of this written stuff so far supports the asumption that I just recently have sinned - then I must not
smoke a pure tobacco head instead of pot if I can help it!
This is though my "weed in" phase, where I so far think I get pretty good stuff off of my head in that phase ... but sooner
or later that 'fresh' is over and it gets more routine and my balance kindof shifts - ... until I then eventually get back
to my coding.
So, what you dream of now may not be as relevant - thus, keeping it real and simple ... should be as easy as it gets! If you
have worries of loosing someone or something ... well, you have to let that go! So you allow God to come your way - and you
then can react to that and make progress from there.
~Written under the influence of Marijuana~
Peace Yo!
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