I didn't come to get to what I was wanting to, I did get back to writing; I did get to stay up for too long - and I did miss that appointment. Now its back to waiting again - and I feel a little bit less positive about everything.

[2017.08.08|21:30] : As even so I got depressed again. Looking at the shambles of my doing ... ... but that finally helped me 'pass the hill'. As you'll find in Spectrum - there, on the uncensored site - at the point where I link to selfdep-01 - ... thats ... where it happened. Moving stuff to selfdep-01 and moving on with what I had to digest.

And I'm feeling stuck now. So - ... - thats it for now.