Am I a leftist ideologue peace fanatic (a.k.a. "Gutmensch")?

Uhm, ... kindof! And very proudly so! The one thing right now - as I have to remind myself that I ended up making such "what I am" statements before that were not really ... mindful of everything - that goes against that is the idea that yea, taking out Assad and North Korea ... might be actually good!


I wouldn't have voted for war though ... for sure - and right about that: I am very much concerned of US politics although I'm a german, while I pretty much don't keep track of german politics. Or actually - I don't really get informed on any of it myself. However. But yea - US politics ... thinking about health care for instance. Wanting a 'Health Care for all' thing isn't something you can want for your nation but not for another! So, sure thing. Same with free college. But ... what actually strikes me is how regressive the USA is! I mean, I grew up with everything cool coming from either the USA, Hong Kong or Japan. The USA being however that big brother, the Statue of Liberty being a shining beacon of the brightest future we've ever happened to step into ... a symbol of ... world peace ... brotherhood, friendship, ... cooperation ... that stuff. And of course ... they helped us get rid of Hitler too!
And I feel like ... if the USA fares well, everyone else fares a bit better too - while by well I very well mean ... all that "Non USA citizen friendly patriotism" ... that we all, of any nation, should take up too! I mean, removing the boundary of national identity and seeing how 'good government' is a universal thing ... and if we all had it - we could all have peace!
Which to some may sound like just talk when unwilling to take actions! Well - sure. But the way its going on now - where is the 'will' to take any kind of actions to begin with? Where is the public conversation? Where's even a bit of ... any ... of the reasons leading up to it?

So, Drumpf met with Putinildo and ChingChing ... by the way ... the two other really large nations on this planet - and now US Forces move up against Syria which is close to Russia, and North Korea which is close to China. So ... I've been taking a day off today. I slept out, went out, got some dope, smoked in the park, had a Hawai Burger, went to the theatre, watched Ghost in the Shell - again (6.5/10 - seriously? Are you fucking kidding me?! It strikes me as a Masterpiece! Only one major issue I have: The final scene ... that wasn't on par with the rest! That and Johansson looked a bit uncanny at times ...), went to McDonals and at home played Street Fighter until Server Maintenance. And during that time it occured to me that what Drump did there may actually have been kindof genious. That however very well ignoring that these other two nations ... . I mean, Putin and Jingping didn't strike me as really unsympathic people, but yea ... thats until you hear them voices screaming from the forrests!


And I don't need to take a look behind the curtain when what I see in front of the curtain is already so full of shit that I rather just leave! But then, I can accept the idea that Trumps victory was actually ... the vocal minority voting for war and ... suceeding with it. Well, its a different way to look at politics. But ... I ... can't ultimately like it!
Though we can see it from a positive angle when thinking of it as a grand act of cooperation between the worlds strongest nations ... if there were not that bad aftertaste ... you know ... that these three governments are the antithesis to what we think is good!


I mean, I see those images, hear all the pro-war press, and I'm not feeling it! I don't feel how a lot of people back these actions! There may be many different reactions - but they all go in about the same I feel. Like ... "what the ... hell?!"
"I mean, does this have to be?". Well, it won't be World War 3 if Russia and China gave their OK, while eventually I don't know enough to understand how things are tied up together.

I mean, think about it: North Korea, what is it? I mean - its possibly a totally fake idea - but it helps jogging your mind somehow: Imagine that once upon a time a huge Alien Mothership landed in North Korea. Stuff happened, and now its like one huge Military Base essentially - and the whole surface being only show!

Another idea: Imagine that in the Arabian Deserts, or Afghanistan, wherever ... the tunnels stretch deep - and deeper - maybe even so ... over to North Korea. The thing is that Military strength is still what basically defines a nation as a nation - and the back-bone of any Military Strength are Military Bases - and so Military Bases have the inherant property of being strongholds - and strongholds ... can protect stuff. And so centuries pass - and money and ressources get pumped into military units all accross the globe - and since its essentially not really a poor case that UFO believers have on their hand, ... the picture changes once again. There's a report from Medieval Germany ... speaking of cylinders and orbs fighting in the sky. The Makabees tell of a similar situation - which struck me as weirdly untypical for that God that I have been reading about up to that point.
The Makkabees are essentially a story of Judaic heroism coated in the coat of its nations religion - of course - while I don't want to denie that it happened. I don't know.
So, maybe the situation is that once upon a time two species stumbled upon earth - they fought about it - and so there are various alien strongholds on this earth. So, leaving the question: What happened to the UFOs? Where are they? Well, however, first of all: Something happened that prevented stuff from going down a potentially less positive road for us. I mean, if that whole UFO thing is real - and stuff had happened differently - we might be governed by Gua'Ould now! Or something. But maybe we're just at the ideal stage of development now - highly efficient and highly obedient. Population Control: War.

But there was a battle ... then ... so, in comes a third race, or even more ... and ... whatever.

When I think about space ... there of course is a lot of fantasy. Fiction is so full of stories of all kinds - so, lets get back to the point and ... ignore aliens for the while. Maybe not entirely. So, Military Strength was the last thing. Then there are secrets. Stuff that is protected within Military Strongholds has some tendency to be that! Secrecy is a good protection layer! Can't steal what you don't know exists! And all that!

And now - ignoring aliens - what I wanted to get at can be called 'organization' or 'structure' - and ... ziing ... what is it with the idea of Israel governing the world? How did that come about? So, the Makkabees took place ... just after Alexander the Great and as one of Alexander the Greats four generals as antagonist, while in the Daniel prophecies Jews and Christians have a different idea of what the 'Fourth Beast' is. See, the ... Judaic tradition has it ... that there are four Beasts. The first is known to be Babylon. The head of Gold ... and the winged Lion. Then there is the Torso of Silver ... alias the Bear that is erected on one side, known to be Medo-Persia - as the 'two as one' idea ... lays close. Then there are the Hips of Brass a.k.a. the Leopard with four Heads - obviously 'Greece' - specifically that of Alexander the Great as the four Heads of the Leopard represent his four Generals. The Judaic idea ... or some interpretation at least, now compares the legs of Iron a.k.a. the Dragon to that General mentioned in the Makkabees - and tries to basically frame him within the context of that prophecy. But Christians go and say that the legs of Iron are 'Rome' - as the little Horn emersing from the Dragons forehead reflects the emergence of the Vatican. So, the mouth talking stuff exalting itself above God comparing to the Pontiff of the Roman Catholic Church ... or alternatively the Antichrist as mentioned in 2 Thess 2. And in my book that also connects to Matthew 23:9 - comparing the churches clergy to confessing antichristians as relatable to through the thereby given words of Christ. That Daniel stuff is common sense amongst Jehovas Whitnesses, Seventh Day Adventists ... and the mormons rather focus on the Rolling Stone - comparing themselves to it.

Then there is Israel ... little Israel ... surrounded by nations rivaling against it - Egypt ... kindof, Assur, Samaria, Babylon, Medo-Persia ... kindof, Greece ... kindof, Rome ..., ... The Third Reich ... in some sense ..., and well ... now there is that ... "Beast which was as slain but came back to life" - and what does this all tell us?

What makes it different, possibly, from all the other ways it has been interpreted before, or how some "End Time event" would come upon us, is ... me! Yea! As, there's ... a way out! A solution. So, ... that is then not me anymore ... but the only true God as reflected through/by me. If I'm sure about one thing then that I respect the word - I know that I don't have vile intent and so as good as I can put it, the only thing you get from me is actually that - and once I'm crazy, then well - then I'm crazy!!! But when I'm not ... there is only the one true God as 'I' know 'Him' ... that you could possibly end up with - and that in turn should 'say', or 'claim', ... or ... "argue" ... herein ... that that makes the difference. Where I simply reflect on it to the best of my Understanding - without ego! (But not without Style!)


And so the Mormons are that Rolling Stone ... as, in this my case, they are the roots ... we all have to somehow attach to. Whether you get it from me (I'm an Aaronic Priest, I technically 'can' do it; can't get me for acting against the Name of the Lord then!) - or from the Church itself ... doesn't entirely matter!

I wonder though. What about all those Muslims in Jerusalem? How exactly are things? How does a Muslim think, that lives amongst Israelites? And how does that mingle with what other Muslims think - those that live around Israel?

When it comes to America, the Book of Mormon has it that the American Continent is Gods chosen 'Ground' - which compares to Israel in a sense, but here God rather claims 'Land' - saying that whenever Evil grows too large it will get swiped away. So I do believe that the "founding Fathers" (who called them so? - anyway ... its not a 'real' deal because, they are no longer on earth) did act in the will of God - and so we get to the feet of Iron mixed with Clay also. The thing is that where the stone is rolling, it is rolling up unto the whole statue ... with its feet ... and yea ... that is basically ... common sense here. So, whatever there is, there is ultimately that ... it grows and grows ... which so far it has ... and what do I now need war for?



If, then ... maybe to not wait for the answer - ... - whether or not things will become better otherwise. I think of a story written in one of those Books, in the ... additions to Kostis Journey I guess ... which is of a castle, ... and as the King left, he left the elder brothers in charge. They went on and locked the younger ones into a room so they could party. Then they barred the windows so that nobody would see it. And so it went on for some time, ... the younger ones dropped into worse and worse conditions ... and ... then ... I don't know. Either a torch fell, or the younger ones took em ... however ... finally the place was burned down.

And the main reason for me to share this is that that is ... "how I see it" ... and that very well ... because of that. Thats my worldview ... for as long as it 'fits into it'. In that regard I have read elsewhere from someone summarizing Shopenhauer ... reflecting of 'the spark' that ignites 'a crowd' - mentioning a tension that grows and grows until a tiny spark ignites the whole show, whatever it may be. And then there is the 'the Spirit will be poured out upon all flesh' thing.


And so - what do I think about people that use the word 'Gutmensch' in a denouncing manner? What does it mean? "Good Human", - which basically describes, ... lefties here in germany. So multi-culture embracing left leaning peace speakers - ... where I fit in as Half German and half Philippino - so - someone once told me that I should refer to myself as neither german nor philippino, but as 'mixed'. I happened to grow up in germany though.

My dad is german, my gramps was a Nazi soldier born in Bohemia, nowadays Czech Republic, and there ... he grew up in a hat that last time we checked was in the deep forrest. Thats ... where my 'roots' are. In legends and tales of Bohemia. Like the one with the Devils Wall, ... and that Priest guy. I barely remember any of it.
Its a beautiful place though. Like ... in a fairy tale!
Its about the Devil trying to stop something - so he throws stones to block the Moldau ... while he's given up until the morning cock yeeked three times. And up until this day you can see the hoofs imprint on the stone surface where he stood upset as he had lost; While on the other side was I guess some priestly dude that was somehow connected to some monastery around there - which carried a child.

The closest ties on my motherly side are to my Cousin Ralph Jay, ... who nowadays lives in Ireland, but I haven't seen him after he moved away from there. I mean ... its not that close by any means - but - we share the same vices, kindof. He's however responsible of a Family though, ... which ... changes him, made him different! We smoked Pot and drank Rum ... while the rest of my family is seventh day adventist to the 'no pork and no liquors' core of things.


But then, I'm also at home in ... Video Games ... and then in my fantasy. I for once have been lucky ... kindof, that I up until now never really had to worry about my surrounding. My gramps was wealthy, then I found friends in the Red Light District, ... within quite literally ideal circumstances, ... and then I entered a shelter and since have some assisted accomodation. So, I kindof laugh at the Jack Sparrow scene where he jumps onto the dock just as the ship is about to submerge completely, because ... I find myself therein.

And since I've found my way back into faith during my stay there in the philippines - I believed that knowledge would solve all problems. Well, nowadays I kindof may have to rethink that, ... but that yet doesn't change the core of it all. The spine. The Light. Where ... theres a passage of the Book of Mormon that comes to mind. It is of a thick fog and people got lost in it. But there was an iron rod, and those that held on to it, they made it through the fog and to the tree of Life. That rod is later then revealed to be the word of God - and how do you find it - travelling around in the fog? Can there be a 'here it is!'? Wouldn't that just drive you deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper and deeper into it? Its got to be inside of you - the true ... lol "Laternioum" - or ... "Lanternioum" ... and so yea, ... what, why, who ... war?


Oh ... "but in the Revelation of John" ... why? Where's the point? What does it say? A third of all the water turns to blood? People will get pickles of death? Death and Destruction? Fire and Brimstone?

I mean it! Where's the point? What ... should we do about it? Oh yea ... we got answers ... "over there!".

I mean, not ... 'there'. And anyhow. What is this 200 bc date all about? So, John was 200 years old, at least, ...? Blurry time ... the roots of the Catholic Church ... extremely ... weird.

The part in the end ... with the not adding or taking ... that should be a warning I think - as it doesn't say: Nobody 'can' add or take from it; While the Book of Mormon clearly says that 'a lot' has been taken from 'the all' that there is. I mean, look: Picturing that Jesus was truely the Christ, what ... did the Apostles know? Why does the Bible contain no literal work specific to the purpose of a united codex? As the 'New Testament' ... basically ... as "Tradition" ... where there would be a scribe ... maybe, or a prophet. So yea, thats where Matthew, Mark, Luke and John come in. The Gospel of John would or should be the Apostles point on what the others had to report their respective target audience. I think that the Bible sumrises as much as 'what couldn't be destroyed' - so - that which remained - that which floated around and was just everywhere ... or at least here and there ... . The Book of Mormon on the other hand got written, engraved onto metal - while it does say about itself that it doesn't contain all of that which has been written onto those golden plates. What we get there is a 'clear doctrine' for once - and taking the similarities between New Testament and 3 Nephi seriously - we could take it as a sign for how strongly the word remained preserved 'over here'. While the Doctrine itself though ... really isn't! You can find it though ... scattered accross the whole thing.

Then there is the mentioning of 'sealed writings' ... 'to come forth' in their own due time ... which draws a clear picture. Well yea, those cannot be the Book of Mormon because they got written by 'John' ... and here and there God tells his listener to not report of the next thing to be seen - so, ... it all adds up ... and ... are we ready?


I mean, thats ... my question to you!


As for me - the reality is that I come to write about what comes to mind - when I'm writing. That includes those times where I purposefully come down to write something specific, with purpose. And so, I get things like right now: That what matters isn't that what is written or not - but that which is 'known' and 'understood' - though yea, having the right things written down in the right way is certainly ... a part of that! But so is it my point for the one bit, mostly, that things have been written that don't have to be re-written. And for the other bit, there is stuff written that contains information, while the 'one' thing isn't settled just yet. And I would ask people to write stuff after they got Enlightened - when they feel it, that they have something to share. Either for an intro, a declaration or something ... to preface whatever we then 'gather' as all the relevant stuff - or something individual. A wall of text, with some things more and other things less relevant.

[Ready or Not]

There certainly are still plenty of Mysteries left to discover - and how do they say? "You can't save the entire Galaxy in a single day!" (Stargate SG1/Atlantis Crew)


But so yea, I am as much as I can be ... a "Gutmensch" ... leftist peace fanatic ... bigotted ideologue ... but not ultimately a pacifist. Not that I could vouche for! Though ... I live the 'Zen Peace' type of lifestyle - to avoid combat at whatever cost ... ish. There is that "Love your enemy" and "Left cheeck, Right cheeck" thing ... but I have that ... attitude that ... eventually we will (have to) fight ... just so in terms of a mindset - checking for the eventuality - thinking of, ... protecting stuff. Dignity is a weird thing. It sets the bar of protection up unto an intangible thing ... and everyone has its own, kindof. Some are certainly more easily offended as others, and so there is also the "we shalt not be offensive" argument - which - you know, ... eventually it comes to a point where its just ridiculous ... but yea, if I can help it, words like these would suffice ... to you know ... get that over with peacefully! To say, yea, fighting may even not be required - because God makes it so. As for what I want - that changes, ... depending on my mood. But I also yet want to send a clear 'no violence' message!

To me the difference between dignity and pride is that dignity is what makes us human. And eventually that surmises an amount of independence ready for self defense. Which isn't what the USA seems to be doing right now though. But ... whatever. Yea, I shouldn't judge ... and I should think in these ways. But its still a thing ... that part of the meaning of life is ... to be alive ... as in, to be 'alive'. Where dignity shows under pressure. Where we're eventually only left with ourselves and got to bear our existence like that ... where we get to the question: What are our human rights? Or privileges? We praise ourselves as an intelligent species, and I would agree to that. And we know ... that we can ... live in peace! Wealth though ... the difference ... I want to add ... is a bit of a horrible thing! I mean, rich kids for instance do inherantly grow up with a tendency of looking down upon the poor - and someone who is 50 and poor knows more about hard knocked life than someone who's 50 and rich! But that I'm sure depends on how and where you grew up!

Its easy to see beyond your own personal wealth and sigh about ... knowing ... that you have stuff ... that others can't even dream of. Even I ... have stuff ... that others can't even dream of!

And I basically live in the gutter ... not entirely, but almost ... yet ... in germany.

And money to me ... is associated to a huge poisonous snake - that even if you got none - can grab you and inject the poison of creed. 100.000! Not so much if you think of how much bigger your house could be if you had some more. And how many cars you could own. How many bitches a night effort. How many bottles of champaign and caviar a week. ...
Yet I would add: If you keep fighting for something and you then succeed - you don't know how it is to fail! Maybe. I mean, DMX for instance does ... I'm sure!
Thats how he began, and kindof how he ended!
So - and that is that!

But how far does it go? There are those levels of misery beneath us - and when I see or hear things about how rich people exploit their wealth to keep others in poverty ... I get angry. We're supposed to help each other into wealth - while at this point I can't blame the rich for being rich! What would you do? What 'could' you do? At that point where money no longer is a real concern?
But so we can say that the good you can do is measured by the amount of knobs you can twist!




Silver Linings

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