Apologies and Stuff

There was a time, where I would probably spend all day now figuring things out ... making progress. Nowadays - between getting up early, coming home late and some necessary Rest and Recreation ... there isn't really much time left. Most of the time. And yet ... somehow ...

My past self would have argued against this situation - for exactly those reasons. And sure, I was right. But nowadays ... I see things differently. And, I'm probably right about it also.

I mean, I'm pretty sure I'd somehow go nuts if I had all that time - and only YouTube as for "contact" with the outer world.
And yea - maybe trying to explain it won't do all that much good. Give or take. After all ... most of my decisions are based on feelings. And those that aren't - well - still somehow ... take them into account. And I suppose I haven't come around getting much into that. I mean, I'd say now and then, that feelings are basically just a shorthand for what's conscious and subconscious. A sense - if you so will - to say, I don't think it's like ... the universally right thing to do. We, possibly, can't help ourselves though ... but to make it easier on ourselves, or so: Our future selves, I'd say it's paramount that we ... well ... "upgrade our matrices". So the feelings we get can be relied upon.
So - in as much as feelings are just the sum of what's on our mind - give or take - so: A sense - it is useful to try and fathom them. And if they are confusing, well ... you probably shouldn't make big decisions - or expect to arrive at some learning experience you should ... take in.

I mean - there is this ... we might call it a Mantra I guess. "To think with your Heart". I'd argue that when done right, it is certainly the better way. That is because "high level consciousness" can be somewhat cumbersome and broadly speaking: inferior - to the simple sense. To say: I can try to rationalize something - but that rationale is only as good as the information I'm willing, or able, to consider.
The point to doing it right however would be, that rationality is a good way to update ... feelings. I mean, if you treat your feelings like this monolithical truth - you're ... missing a lot about it. And the bigger picture and stuff.

And sure - if you like to live it "Fast and Furious" - it might bum you out, that ... there are SO MANY things that would have you stop to reconfigure. I'd suppose, because ... if you're all that Fast and all that Furious ... there's ... probably something going on with your feelings that isn't ... well. Relatively speaking ... I guess. Like so, in terms of relativity it isn't necessarily so that speed matters. You might stand perfectly still - something coming at you with 500 km/h ... has you coming at it with 500 km/h still.
But, given that such logic won't prevent you from getting speeding tickets, as it were, there's ... like ... "the relevant" frame of reference. And what would that be?
Anyway ... forgive me my rambling. The point is, that if you're moving too fast - your rationality, based on your feelings, will have you understand reality on those terms. Say you want money - like, above anything else; That frame of reference will most likely, generally speaking, make you more selfish - justifying selfish decisions.
You'll also, most likely, be less open to 'higher truths' ... or Karma or what have you ... because your desire for money would still rule your interpretation of everything; So even when after all your efforts you ended up broke in the streets - you'd blame it on not having money.

Or this and that.
"If only ...". "Everything would be different".

I like, how in Dance of the Vampires, it's basically a plot point. There so is this song: "Draussen ist Freiheit" (Outside is Freedom) - in which the protagonists sing of they yearning for this freedom - and thereby paint everything ... "naturally" ... in the most fantastical of images. Like, it'll always be warm, no boundaries - reasonably exaggerated things to highlight the absurdity of this yearning.


Anyhow. So - yesterday I released a Glyph page; And have since realized that the way I did things was utterly ... impractical. It's sort of like trying to hit 5 targets with a single arrow. And because of how I did it, the jpg I have is technically invalid - so, I'd have to download it from my homepage for it to be valid. Also, if I had to update something ... just hypothetically speaking ... well. I mean, I could just do it - but if I also wanted to update the jpg - things would get a little bit more complicated.

So, if I want to do more - I first need to rethink how I do it. I have a bit of an idea though. As inspiration has it, I should approach a glyph as an independent thing first - one I can personally work with - fleshing it out and then transcribe it onto a page, or so. And while at it, I should probably also use some kind of templating system. Maybe what I have outside of the Key can help me with that. So, a first project might be to recreate the one already present. Though, in that particular instance I have the problem that I can't really test them ... I assume ... because ... I probably wouldn't notice much of a difference. So ... as far as I'm concerned ... they might not even be working - and ... so again, I'm flying blind.

I am however still getting better at Street Fighter ... :/hmmm ... .


And ... on another note ... I don't really want to comment on things. Like ... anymore. Not right now anyway. So - whatever nonsense is going on here and there - or whatever concerns I might have to respond to ... I ... I guess I want to warm up to the mindset of not doing so. Or not being required to do so. To let ... life do its thing. If anything - that's ... probably the way to future-proof myself right now.

But ... I still want to say: Maybe don't be too quick on tattooing my name onto you just yet. Though, I suppose, that system is quite neat - but I think it needs some refinement.


So long ... then ... until ... next time! (I'll probably also change the icon for the Spellcrafting at some point ... if I'll maintain that, that is. And I probably will ...)