Being a good girl | Metaphysics of Coolness

So, I've been thinking and started to write a few lines that might add to the 'of Order and Chaos' project. I also have a few things flowing through my mind - and though these different topics aren't necessarily related, they might yet make for good supplements to this one.

But so, first of all, there's the matter of Coolness itself - which, I think, is one of those greater concepts that, well, "govern" a lot of other things we might be concerned about, generally speaking. And in that sense, it serves to think of 'Cool' as a term that isn't really used anymore - but has made it's way into our conceptual understanding. Sure, the "hip youth" (and contemporaries) of back when is all grown up (supposedly) now - and, taking it as a concept it serves to see how it isn't really an isolated matter. Which - lends itself to the first primary point, if it wouldn't be that there are two ways of cool.


The two ways of cool
At first there is cool as a matter of styles and flavors, preferences and stuff - that externalize certain aspects of a group while thereby aiding the maintenance of some kind of distancing between the members; Generally described as 'Superficiality'.
And that may explain the dynamics between "Coolness" and Homophobia, at least among men, where "the Cool" basically helps buffer 'intimacy' away from interpersonal relationships; And certain transgressions of "the Cool" are therefore seen as circumvention of that protective sphere.

So, that might be the good of it - though generally the gist of it is to view this kind of cool as a bad. And that because there are a lot of twists and bends to this way of cool that are detrimental while also not really serving the aforementioned good of it. Also it isn't really a gender thing. I mean, while gender may express in different ways of engaging with this matter - the corrupt twists and bends lead into the same abyss.

So, think of it that way: "Cool", as an externalized standard, is something assigned to things, concept or people - as however itself an externalized thing. Whatever now the good of it may be, its quality depends - I'd argue - on how well the second way of cool is realized or present. And as one might guess, it's the internal versus the external. So, the second way of cool is about 'being' cool - yourself. As opposed to 'trying'. And that basically is the slider on which the matters of the first way of cool get determined.


The abyss of superficiality
At first, coolness serves a group - and as the whole of us is composed of multiple groups, each with an idea of cool, this kind of coolness, overall, isn't all that solid. As we so grow older, we eventually cross these thresholds - some more and others less, where eventually we grow out of one and into another form of social habitation; And eventually we come to see our old ways as cringeworthy.

Anime/Manga may be a very great example - in that weebs are an internally somewhat strong and consistent group with a very clear and simple mindset - but to the outside, it may come across as a bit weird. So in my experience - there are groups where me being into Dragonball is a quality, and others where it might be a subject to ridicule.
And maybe/probably in part due to how the louder aspects of it are perceived.
But it is also very high on the 'being cool yourself' scale, as the typical weeb will have their very own strong opinions over what sucks and what doesn't - employing a very own sense of confidence. But here we also have a spectrum. To me, being into Dragonball for instance is kind of like martial arts. You're either into it, living your very own inner Super Saiyan - or you're into it, standing on the side-lines goshing over power levels.
And sure, then there are all the "Death Stalkers" and "Titty Honkers" - which are like two polar opposites that effectively surround this space as an insider would tell you; Though due to Avatar presence may be perceived as the substance of the all of it.

Loss of an individual sense of coolness then, so and at all innately takes us to the matter of 'trying' to be cool. That has us try to live up to externally imposed standards - as opposed to living our own.

Being a Goddess

I mean, whatever one might call me or see in me or such - there is always one thing that is true. I'm human. And God, to my understanding, not only respects that, but pro-actively cares about it. That again is about our internal self, and not about the external stuff. So, more to the point is what makes up the Goddess part of me - also a matter of two sides. There's my internal self - eventually only to an extent that God cares about. And there's the external part, which is effectively just a facade. It's like an illusion that surrounds me - and once you step close enough, you'll see the human behind it all. And whether you take the given illusion or make up your own one ... doesn't change the truth of it.

So, if you then want to go and know the 'true' me - the issue is that imperfect descriptions can emerge from and feed into perspective bias. And, however layered it may be. We can for instance take: Goddess > Chosen > Prophet > Apostle > Disciple - as simple descriptors, arranged in layers. And we can add > Liar > False Prophet for instance. Then what matters is how true or false each individual item or the whole or which combination is - and if we include false claims, it should be really simple to make a strong case for any possible conclusion.

So did I today receive word, for instance, that my IQ sits at 141. I was then curious at which point that was determined; Given that I wasn't aware of an IQ test. Which, last time I checked, would have marked my IQ to be 116~117. But we did in deed to timed Math, Language and Comprehension tests going in - which, yea, I guess is basically an IQ test.
So could we say that with advantage on Intelligence my IQ is at around 141, and with disadvantage it's at around 116.
Which is a 25 point difference.
And I suppose the difference - in terms of what it means - is quite significant. Well, in as far as we want to care about it. But what is the truth of it?

And there I can't help but be reminded of these ... external standards. And when we get into the more ... uh ... "fleshed out" matters of my truth ... very much the same.


And apparently this is good enough for now. Something to let sink in ...