Git Gud - part 3

So ... my head is a mess right now. There's a lot of stuff going on in there - that ... doesn't seem to belong IN there. I mean, the first part I wrote - I deleted a bunch of stuff. Turns out I was too tired to really go onto that tangent I had opened.
Which is ... it was weird being back at home - since the change of scenery ... has done 'some' good to me. Sort of.
Being in a stranger environment ... seems to do something to habits. It certainly did so to me. Given that I slept in a hospital bed - where I also spent most of the day - any kind of habits that revolve around 'going to bed' just sort of went to shit. Praying didn't feel like ... a thing I had to do? It certainly escaped my mind.
And whatever - being back home it now has taken some time for me to wrap my mind around it. Which is ... that a lot of my day to day psyche isn't ... about me being a physical being in this world. I tend to "see", or believe, things that may or may not happen - far away from me.

I want to respond to ideas and things ... while "in the now" - like I'm hosting a show, but it's only in my mind. Then I want to take some of the ideas and share them, but ... increasingly ... I feel like I have no business doing so.


Anyhow. So, there's apparently a lot on my mind surrounding this "git gud" stuff. Maybe a lot of it is nonsense, but some of it has a rather natural pathway into actually holding merit.
For one thing that "Gut Gud" might translate to, there's certainly "the thing" - that one has to "get". Classically I suppose that has been called "the Gospel" and it's range of synonyms. "The way", "walking in the Light", stuff like that. As of late I've ended up calling it just "the thing" ... that one ... has to 'get'. Like ... calling it the gospel would be part of following that statement up with a sermon of sorts. Words meant to convey one or more aspects of what the person thinks it means. A safe base-line to expand on would be the doctrine. But overall it goes beyond that.

Get It!

Here's a thought: I ... am a minority person. Certainly in lights of what the "strong men" that have risen over the last couple of years or decades would look down upon. Whatever the case - have I now been Chosen to be ... the one, I'd say, that is supposed to beat them all or however to put it. And as it stands ... I'm like ... nobody, ontop of being a minority person. I have like ... zero ... in terms of anything ... that I might use for leverage or influence or traction or any of that. Like, I'm just that LGBTQ+ edgy emo sigma person that nobody needs to take seriously - who therefore is into stuff like Dragonball and Soulsborne with that obligatory "just you wait" lingering in the aura.

And yet it is prophesied. Which means ... you might not believe it. On basis of who or what I am. Like, I couldn't quite possibly "do the thing" - like, claiming that I will seems like Blasphemy. So ... there doesn't appear to be anything substantive to the claim - so that anything I could realistically try to make you believe in that regard, would seem like empty threats. For threats they however ought to be - in some way - as so it is written.

But so it goes. God isn't substantive ... until He is. And that seems to be what all of this boils down to. As ... is also written. Like ... "who would have thought?". Weird how that goes!
Anyhow. So ... that's the setup. The build-up. Where there's one of two roads you can go down. There's the one where you "get it" - and the one where you don't. And it's like ... literally that simple!


And remember: Hell is ultimately just a form of Prison!
But ... we're also not talking about Hell here. For - as I read it, the gist of it is going to happen before Hell is going to be a concern.


But so - I didn't really say anything here, or did I? I mean, what does it mean to get it? Well ... wouldn't be a question if you got it!

Gitting Gud

I feel like me saying that I have to get better does put some pressure on me that might be unnatural. I mean, it's true, perhaps. But also - maybe I don't. All in due time!

On another note: I've come to an understanding of a certain disconnect between my real life experience and the otherlore. Like, divinity. Regarding the story of Zoe and Eros; And all the other Characters involved, one realization we're eventually bound to have is ... well, that we didn't do any of the things.
So - how are we to identify with that?

I ... didn't have an answer. But ... to take it as 'otherlore' rather than ... something supposed to be actual lore ... comes with the implication that the synchronicity between ourselves and our individual ideals is what really matters. Like saying that ... the past is past.
But more important I think, generally speaking, I have a bit of a story to tell.
Say there was a race in heaven ... in the beginning ... and each and everyone finished with some ranking. Now we may, or must, wonder how this race was conducted. What were the modes of locomotion? Such and such. For, after the fact some might feel inclined to question the results; And maybe think of a game in which they'd come out on top. And yea ... the implied otherlore is thereto - it just so happens - a margin in terms of what God would be looking for. Could be. Might. To say: These are positions that need to be filled ... and so He'd be looking for people to fill them. Thus: For people with the respective qualities.
But back to the race: Say then, that it was just about who could give off the most sparks per cycle of time. To so ... look at an innate quality. It might translate into focus or willpower or strength or charisma ... whatever. And whoever came out on top in either race would get a score - so that if more than one would fit one role, the obvious choice would be the higher ranking one.

So - at any rate do I think this is a reasonable slice to be looking at.
I mean ... I've been wondering. The question of "why me" - as from an external perspective - has me concerned in that ... I ... could only guess. And I figure that a lot of it might be based on sentimentality. A sentimentality that would translate into special treatment. One more drop in the bucket of things that might have given me a headstart ... so that all in all ... it's probably no 'one' particular thing in isolation.


Fake Journalists are a disgrace to the public, the platforms they report from, themselves and their family.
In this sense: 'Fake Journalist' is basically a profession - a branch of the 'Journalist' career that one gets to by basically abandoning their public duty as a journalist. So, acting like a journalist (or reporter) while actually just feeding nonsense to the people.


Here's a thing that has been bothering me: So, I was listening to some science stuff - and I remembered that way back ... I might still have been in high school ... I was adamant, internally and at times where I had the occasion ... that time is the fourth dimension. It made sense to me. And ... later I realized that that seems to be how it's understood. However - I then realized, that actually it doesn't make sense. And so I wondered: Was I ... ?
So, the thing is: Time isn't really "the" fourth dimension. Obviously. It's not even really 'a' Dimension. Not a spacial one. It's more just a vector. It's not even really one dimensional because time ever only moves forward. So ... uhm ... I wonder ...


The Antichrist seems to still have ways to compell people. I think it's really just Astair ... fueled by the collective fear that only grows as things start falling apart.

Related to that is the thing that ... well. Personally, I feel like people feel alright with giving me shit because I can take it. There are however people that wouldn't or couldn't. People so sensitive even, that just looking at them wrong were a major insult. So it's like ... everyone had to bend to them because they'll start whining the moment things don't go their way entirely - while nobody would have to give a fuck about me because I can deal with it. And that's bad! That's not how a healthy society operates. But then when these things are reversed ... I wonder ... how could we tell ... what why and how or stuff?

It's funny that conservatives/antichristians actually can't communicate properly!

In case there actually are NPCs in this world, like legit ... human bodies that don't actually have a human being inside of them ... I hereby compell them to be simping for me!
So yea, NPCs have a natural urge to see me succeed!


Ooof ... well.
The Conservative/Fascist uprising/agenda will fail! The Scriptures are rather clear on this. The cracks have now gotten so big, it's more holes than anything else. The biggest threat are dipshit wannabe alphas - that abandon being honorable for some bullshit reason; And their hoes of course.