Let's Go! German Leitkultur | Take 1 | From Aging to Shitstains to Pearlclutching

On and off I'm standing at the shores of the Internet ... and my head starts to smoke. For the lack of better wording, I'll say that I also feel the weight of my age pushing down on me.
Looking back, I think that "age" starts with rest. After the rollercoaster that is one's puberty, one does - I suppose - start to settle. Perhaps not in the classical sense, but the routine of survival takes over priority ... and after a few years you eventually come to the realization that things aren't quite how they used to be. The body starts to show some wear and tear, the fast pace of youth turns into a blur ... and all of a sudden the lingo and the interests of the new youth are so abstract, you just can't help it anymore. I mean, Pokemon used to be the younger Generation was into ... now the implication yields laughter. Yea, that stung ...

But I also feel a cognitive strain. Scrolling down on my reddit feed eventually just has my mind blanks out as it gets overcome by some heavy tiredness. At first I didn't notice it; When it started to happen. It used to be once I had very little sleep and obligations required me to be awake. Eventually then it was the one or the other meal that made me zone out for a bit. And now ... it's almost normal that I essentially just shut down for a bit.

I guess it kind of started with Kruggsmash videos. I enjoyed his content, enthusiastically followed his forts and the stories that unfolded; But eventually I just got tired of it. Really, physically tired. I'd start falling asleep - and ever since, I noticed more and more that my capacity to assimilate new information has a limit. One that has a physical impact on me.

I assume that this also comes with a consolidation of priorities. I've started to notice some kind of midlife crisis, at first. Prior to that I felt like I had lived my life to its fullest, free of regrets, so that this couldn't impact me. But then I realized that this feeling that I have all the time in the world ... wasn't there anymore. And that pressure was maybe the main reason for me to re-evaluate what to spend my time on; And has then led to this consolidation of these priorities.
This eventually also contains at least one new Chapter to the topic of Clarity. A very logical one that shouldn't require a lot of detail. But for context, the Age of 40 has always been on my mind as a limit of some sort. Not a hard one - but now that I'm past it ... my perspective has been changing. I suppose it comes naturally with any form of personal interest - dependent on how much time, experience and environment matter to it.

Programming has become my top priority. And maybe it is because of that, that my work performance has suffered a little; Though just mostly due to the same ol' sleep cycle related hickups. So far my grades have been great ... got a bunch of A's ... though in a weird way, that doesn't feel like an achievement and more like something to be expected. I love the profession; Although the "modern version" can be a back-breaking bitch of a workload.
I mean ... the amount of paper one can expect to move per day is easily measured in metric tons. At least hundreds of kilos. I didn't really bother to do the math.

When it comes to programming then - I for once don't have as much passively going through my mind as there used to be. And be it for one reason or another, I also don't write as much as I used to, though that's probably due to what it is that I'm currently working on. So, after having worked out some broader structure of relevant pieces, the process started to slow down considerably. I had to realize that after I completed a given task I had set my mind to - I have a hard time refocussing on what's next. I guess the best comparison is to think of tiny pieces that need to be implemented properly. So I want to give it some time although the general gist of what to do is clear. Giving it time will have my mind calm down from the previous task; And a greater attention - plus maybe the one or the other passive insight - for what's next. Though, at any rate, my mind starts to wander and become unfocussed; So, it's not like I have much of a choice there.


But it's also comlicated. Spending time on the code will allow me to mentally work with the code that is there - and occasionally, like today, I wake up with a concept of how to improve it by drastically rewriting certain things.
And throughout all this ... some weird superstition has taken hold.

I mean, it's an observation - probably a biased one. But ... there seems to be a pattern. At first it didn't stick out to me. It's just a thing that happens. You know ... skidmarks. Stains in the toilet emergent due to the taking of a dump. But so, starting this year, it happened a lot. To the point where I felt it more effective to let them accumulate before I'd stress to clean them up because I felt like I was constantly taking shits. Eventually I jokingly looked at a fresh skidmark that seemed to be there just to taunt me as if it were an omen, the connection between coding and those marks started to consolidate.
And since I've taken a few breaks and the toilet remained clean for the most part during those breaks, it ... slowly turned into an expectation. Like not too long ago ... I had a clean toilet - I did some coding and ... I don't even know where all the shit is coming from. But all of a sudden there's a growing pressure - I go to the toilet and ... yea. -_-.
I don't fully understand how to read it yet. But ... given how much I had to rewrite - my best bet is to assume that it's some kind of warning. Which is why right now I'm not coding, but writing this. I don't know what else to do and so I'm trying to give my mind the space it seems to need. And yea, writing this has also helped me ... put things into perspective a little.


But so then, you might wonder what all this has to do with the headline.
Well - nothing, really. Other than ... that it's the pretext.


Though I could also ... call it quits for now. Though, my head is smoking. Now from writing. And ... it's kind of ... a full circle. What I meant initially was however more about the political turmoil of the day; And possibly that desire as a "grown up" to ... do something. To help turn the wheels of time towards a favourable goal.
And as of that ... there are also still a bunch of thoughts I meant to write about eventually.

German Leitkultur

Leitkultur might be difficult to translate. When talking about "Leitplanken" for instance, we're talking about 'Guardrails' - so it would be "Guard Culture", which is probably the best one to go with. But 'Leiten' also means to guide, to conduct, to instruct and to lead; And that's closer to how I understand the term.

And ... this term is a weird one. Now, I myself am a huge fan of it. And if you wanna call me a fascist or racist or whatever like that me for it - cool, I'm that ... then ... I suppose. The thing though is, that whenever I learned more about what it actually is, I also regretted to have learned anything about it.
Anyhow. It isn't ... really a big thing here. It's ... basically just fluff. Maybe it has some official or legal bearings here and there, but not to my experience or perception. So, for all intents and purposes, German Leitkultur is just how germans do being german; With the added notion that I think it's primary meaning is in regards to immigration and integration. To kind of say ... what we would hope our immigrants to align to. Or, what we expect of them for being here. But ... alas ... I don't think it was ever really effective. Conversely I do think that most of not all 'properly integrated' immigrants did so in part of their own motivation, with the rest just being cultural osmosis. Maybe from having german friends, finding their niche in what we got going on here - things like that.

The bigger issue with this is that it's difficult to define what this Leitkultur is to entail. And given that the term is in about as old as the (post war) country itself - I would assume - it ... might also be a little bit cringe. That's at least what I got from learning anything even just vaguely specific about it.

Part of the problem, in my opinion, that also goes to highlight why any currently existing concept of what it entails is nonsense, is that ... we don't have much of a cultural identity. We merely have this spirit of post-war ethics shaped by rebuilding and life in the prosperity it provides. So, German Work-ethics, orderliness, cleanliness ... that kind of stuff. Or in simpler terms: The social contract between Germans as part of rebuilding ... our?their ... livelihoods. And starting to define it on that basis, to start with "peaceful co-existence" would already take it into a much more meaningful direction than talking about Kehrwoche (the scheduled time for a parcel in a living complex to do the maintenance (cleaning the stairway for instance)).
And so, part of what I want to do here is to ... re-invent German Leitkultur ... and that also in an effort to ... basically export it. Because ... if we want true Worldpeace or Global unity and all of that good stuff, we need to have some mutual grounds.

So yea ... standards. Because ... our feeble minds need some authoritative safety. I guess. I mean, it makes sense. It's like ... one of the stereotypes of us. And whatever the cultural roots of it are ... it is what it is. And like everything political - there's a balance between good and evil to be considered. Which takes me to my first tangent of important topicness here:

The separation between church and state.

It makes sense to me now, in this light, why my mind starts to blanks whenever I try to write about ... these things that would make me a political figure. I so far certainly thought that separation between Church and State is a good thing, but it has evidently taken a while for me to understand its implications for me personally. And with this being said, we can say that it is a solid thing. Like ... a fundamental thing. A thing that can serve as "cause answer" to a variety of "why?" questions.

Church, or Religion, in my mind accordingly is like super-imposed onto culture; As culture is supposed to be super-imposed onto the state/politics. The important, balancing bit here is culture. If I acted with "church authority" to tell you what our politics have to be ... that's in violation of the idea. I mean, technically it would follow the idea, maybe, kind of - but technicalities are technically and actually lesser than actualities. So, while technical truths can be OK, the actual ones still should matter more.

But anyhow - in Gnosticism Church has a very concrete spot. It's not Church that giveth religion and all that, but Culture that giveth birth to it from a need or demand or desire or such. Same with the state. And while I act as a religious figure, my duties shouldn't be that of a politician.
Inevitably we might want/need a Gnostic political thing - then being the thing we all should vote for; And still: The significance of a separation between Church and State is best seen in this concept of how either is to relate to culture and how culture is to relate to either.
Though hierarchically one might draw the Church on top and take it as an argument for getting rid for what's in the middle - from the cultural angle it's merely about the things above and the things below - basically.
And so I'd also hope that we can find unity as a culture, much more than handing that off to either a Church or a State.


The German mindset as it pertains to peaceful co-existence is one very much drenched in the idea of duties and responsibilities. Something about lifting one another up by doing our individual part to it. And if we want to go a little overboard with highlighting the positives of our cultural whereabouts, we could argue that this leads to an increased overall societal efficiency which in turn drastically increases the demand for norms and standards.

Within that however, we can see the roots of fascism or fascistic ideation. Once the machine isn't operating as we think it should - the stresses demand us to get rid of what disturbs its functionality. This now however takes me to another tangent of relevant topicness:

Cultural Terrorism.

Some of it is just happenstance and not at all terrorism. And so far I've wondered where I might share that one story I kind of had floating around on my mind. It's not insignificant. While I was still working as a prostitute a friend/collegue of mind ... used to have interesting stuff to share whenever she was around. She's one of the few I've grown really fond of; And though we appreciated Wrestling for different reasons ... I do think we existed at around a similar wavelength.
The saying "Nightingale I hear the hopping" I got from her; And one of the stories where she'd say it ... pertains to ... well, I guess "refugee 'camp'" would be the wrong term, but ... yea, home for asylants. She spoke about one such home located somewhere in east-germany that attracted a lot of negative attention. And to roughly re-iterate how she presented it to me, by her telling of it, the problems around that home were inevitable given that the location where it was placed was very much "under development" itself. So, you have a bunch of germans that were just recently integrated back into germany - and then people thought it'd be a good idea to place a home for asylants there. To say: It was like ... made to backfire.

In this story we have three parties we may accuse of Cultural Terrorism. We have the Asylants themself, for once, being the primary black sheep when it comes to what we here call and demand in terms of orderliness and cleanliness. But, to be fair, if you come from a place that is in a way used as a garbage dump by more wealthy nations - you wouldn't know much about how we approach order. It might just be that garbage has a tendency to just disappear; Be it by cleanup crews or scavengers.
The other party would be the people around. Being hostile towards asylants and making it more difficult for them to integrate or be anything but a nuisance.
And the third one would be those higher ups that decided to create that situation.

So, what I mean by Cultural Terrorism in as far as it bothers me, it's a conspiracy that involves Antichristians and their fascistic alignments. The primary issue being that it's difficult to have nice things when there are people - even if just isolated individuals - that go around and fuck everything up.
In extreme cases we might also talk about false flag attacks here. It is in one way or another a thing that drives a wench into what we might call inter-cultural understanding. So, while we would hope to find common grounds and ways to peacefully co-exist, there's like always someone or something that gets someone upset for some reason. And cultural terrorism is about producing such reasons.


And this now also takes me to the first major topic here:

Pearls before the Pig

Thinking about what's currently unfolding around Israel ... eventually led me to think about this Christian parable and has somehow gotten stuck since then. The general gist of it is the statement, or sort-of commandment: To not throw our pearls before the pigs, because they'll trample it.

And, we might take this and argue against things such as a social safety net, "free handouts" or any kind of generosity - but, if you're a genuine Christian it shouldn't take you long to figure out that this ain't it!

But yea, analyzing this parable ... turns out to be kind of ... wild. In intellectual terms. Like ... the parable itself implies that the cattle-herder is keeping Pigs, although Pork is pretty much one of those animals that the typical israelite wouldn't or shouldn't be herding. And ... that's ... the wild part.
Naturally the meaning sticks out more. That Swine are dirty animals that care not much about our sensitivities - and so naturally they'd just rample the Pearls thrown before them. But at the same time the parable doesn't say: Kill them all, or ... don't feed them at all.

So, overall it's just about being more considerate about what resources we have. To think about what's precious to us ... and to treasure it accordingly ... instead of, you know, throwing it before the pigs.


I see how a radicalized Israeli person might see this. And as with Vegan Beer, they'd have a hard time differentiating between Pearls and Kibble; To humor the idea that 'pig' is to refer to human beings. But we could as easily turn it around and talk of our war and captial mongering leaders that throw the pearls of our labor before the pigs that are their futile endeavors.
Because ... one thing that we need to "hammers fist onto the table" insist on being heard, is that all the money in the world ... is primarily "built" on 'labour'. And it is wild that the wealth of all those that do all that hard labor ... is miniscule to those that sit on top and scoop off of it.

In a corporate setting it makes perfect sense that there's a hierachy and more and less difficult work and a range of risks that the individual "participants" are bearing - but what gets easily overlooked there is how the mechanisms of capitalism obscure the totality of the wealth that is produced by this labour; In part through walls but also through wages. Locality and loans create an environment in which the individual workers grow accustomed to a given situation, while any excess wealth is just scooped up by someone with an increasingly abstract right in it.
I mean, fine - let them have their retirement and special benefits for a thing they did. I mean ... maybe it's due to my German brain ... but I don't have issue with the wealthy and wealth-privileged. But there ought to be a limit. Such as one to prevent a nation from turning into a collective of slaves.

And then there's Banks, the Stock Market and all that twice or more removed stuff.


Anyhow. Though the following does certainly apply to the situation around Israel - and that in a 'both sides' kind of way - it goes beyond that: The more pig there are ... the less good stuff we can have.

And that's now almost good enough to call it a day now.

Though I do want to remark that when it comes to Tech, especially IT, we're pretty much in a "producing pearls to throw them before the pigs" economy; And I don't like it!




And so, for it to not get undermined by the ordinary chaos: I don't mean for us to see pigs everywhere and stop thinking about the good stuff. More to the point is this supposed to be a warning - for us to not fall for that "everything is a pig and all we have are pearls" attitude.

Obviously things are going to continue to happen and the forces that be are for better or worse those that are. And to the pigs that are amongst those, all that I have are pearls. Being no different to the rest of you. And whether these are lost causes or not, doesn't concern me right now.
Human life is precious; And everyone who treats it like dirt is certainly no better! In my eyes at least! This however isn't a pro-forced-birth statement; And everyone who is pro-forced-birth is an inhumane, virtue signalling monster.

Like ... seriously! Get your priorities straight!


Like ... seriously! These people are doing human sacrifice at the feet of an idol. As things seem to not as good as they used to, they throw virgins at its feet, hoping that things will get better. And as things get worse - rather than thinking: Hmm, maybe the real God didn't like this - they go like: Hmm, maybe we should try harder! And that's the delusion of an ill belief. It isn't testable; And what is testable would speak against it - but they can't see it! Where's the evidence that God wants us to end abortions ... like by force and rule of law?

Life, to be fair, as we'd value it - commonly - begins as the organism draws first breath. It is out of desire that parents would help an infant born in misfortune towards that breath; Because inevitably the potential is there.


Anyhow. Here's a thing I think I'm here to do: To hold judgment. I mean, it's just a hunch ... that I'm THE Ancient of Days. I understand that ... there's nothing that would allow us to tell who or what that is supposed to be - but I'm kind of amped up to take up a judge's hammer and do some authoritarianism. Like ... a moderator in a debate. Like yea ... bring it!