Uhm ... it's Freedom, actually!

Am I tired? Hmm. I don't feel tired. It's perhaps because I'm distracted - and had a bit of a mood going on that was interrupted by everyday life.
I mean - at first I was going to write a thing while something inside of me was like "Writing every day until ..." ... "I don't" ... or whatever; And I haven't really decided on it but went for it anyway. The 'until' then became ... when I would get back into coding, but ... now I don't know ... if that was the plan or not.

And yea. There are so many things ... . Like, the whole thing I wanted to write about here ... I didn't even get to it yet. And there's still things from before that I ... started. Not the stuff I never published.
It's weird. It's been a few times now that I started out with a topic on mind, wrote about all sorts of stuff, but never got around to the thing I originally had on mind.

And yes. There is something ... weird going on. But so, let's start with

The Rule of Cool ... reloaded (a.k.a. Part 2)

This 'schism' that I mentioned, it also has me a little bit paranoid. Like ... it seems that if I think a thing is cool, that that eventually triggers a response where some force in this world tries to insist that it isn't. Somehow. Like ... back in the day we had chewing ... candy ... one was called Mamba and the other Maoam. Mamba was certainly the cooler one, but Maoam eventually was more popular or whatever. Or is it just me?

Like so is there this thing of "the cooler thing". Which eventually also leads to the question of "the coolest thing". Now, from a street perspective ... the first thing is, that if a kid can beat you up ... because friends and mindset and stuff ... it's like ... "your coolness isn't allowed on the street". So, that is ... "we nerds" I assume. And that leads down this road of ... "Gangster Respect". This idea of who shwings the bigger shwang. But some may also consider the how of it being shwung. And so, that is an idea of cool ... that I'm not a big a fan of.


And this is the whole story, brought to a point, as easy as it gets - I assume.
Philosophically it is a self-destructive behavior as that concept of dominance insists on the dominated, where if rivalry turns into bloodrage - destruction is the primary mode of co-existence.


I mean, how easy would it be for God to just ... say ... turn me into Fury. Or if you can stomach it, because Gender Nonsense, Vegeta. Then we might try to play the game of "who can chop the bigger planet in half" - where I hop on social media to look for people who would laugh at my performance. We could then see who can bang whom for what ... and who makes whom whom's bitch.
But why so ... "Why always Judgment Day"?
Karma, Faith, Balance ... those are in that regard kin to 'Justice'. Balance ... requires certain conditions - violating them is an insult - justice here would be the defense of those conditions, but a different kind of justice again would be Karma.
Faith eventually takes it as something that is less ... descript ... and more alive.

Like ... being cool with God ..., to start with that ...
I'm getting the vibe, it is also recorded in scripture, that the Christian God isn't a big fan of this whole idea of transactional relationships. Like ... "Many will come unto me saying: Have we not prophesied in thy name?" ... that is: "But I did this for you, now you give me that" kind of mentality. A part of it gave birth to capital"ism" ... in that we needed a way to figure out whether or not we're being bamboozled by someone. As the saying goes: "Given the small Finger, Taken the Hand".

But yea. If you need at least the index finger, and all you get is the pinkey, ... not cool either!

And so, people want to know ... what they should do ... to find God. They may even say that they've done it all and more. They may even have had a personal audience with the Dalai Llama for all I care.

But if I Knock and the door opens up - then I must wonder how true that could be? Is it just me? Well ... then it is between either me being crazy, or most people being assholes.


Ontop of that ... I suppose I also have an autistic strain. I care about what I do care about - which is to say that I have an easy way to do my own cool. And too much of that can certainly look weird. Like ... as for what is "the coolest" and how many subscribe to that idea ... there's a certain kind of "mainstream", even apart from the 'mainstream' - that is like ... a cultural or otherwise societal pulse.

The new thing here is the vast availability of entertainment media. Herein an individual can find inspiration way beyond what the ordinary horizon could ever offer; And that in turn produces social engagement around common interests. For some reason. ...



So ... also for some reason ... however one might try to design cultures that way, the individual is still very much free. I mean, a saying goes: "The first rule is to not get caught". And it is probably as old as the first sin. And - there's also something that sucks about losing to cheaters.
Like so, Justice as in: Decree of those whoever hold authority, is all about catching people for misconduct. Whatever that may be - and whoever decided on it.

And on some other side there are stories of domestic violence.
So - when talking about ... well ... the holding of authority ... another story as old as they come is that of the good versus that of the bad ruler. The rule of the land may here only do as little as further extend the interests of a sovereign into that affair. Also: When is a Witch a Witch - and what would one do to catch her? Versus the other thing.

So is it our misfortune it seems, that we share a world with ... folks ... akin to sociopaths. And so in places it maybe ought to be such that one's own self-entitlement is worth more than fair judgment. It is so that I sometimes ... find myself bereft of hope. It's a harrowing that comes upon me - to think of "all those people" ... who are like "too cool to be reasoned with".


And it's a regular occurrence in me. Or is it more an observation? Well, a situation - possibly fabricated by my mind - in which one person or group of people seeks affirmation of the other, while either exists on their own inconjoinable grounds. Like the prey filing for rights not to be eaten.


And that maybe is a matter of independence and thought. The 7th and 8th Seal respectively.

Like - at the other end of the stick you have me, if you so will; And whoever is ... pushing or pulling or whatever along with me.
Here, cool comes as a way of being. Not self-destructive, but self-affirmative. Here the rule of cool is like ... marketing. To maybe make something better than it is ... by just ... a few extra touches. So, when done right ... that is its own type of cool. That's Next-Level. But ... that's a poor way of putting it when thinking of the vastness of the matter. Like ... I hope we don't all start running around like billboards; Although ... that could be a fashion statement. Easy to color-code or ... depatternize. Relatively.

But yea, fashion. I guess ... . That's yet another way of cool. And while there is a spectrum, there certainly is also a scale. Like ... a jogging suit that looks fashionable versus ... one that has been worn over many generations. Or ... is it currently "Hip", or which kind of person can and cannot ... whatever.

There is something - to it all - that is very much just ... individual expression. People who love making clothes, people who love fancy outfits, ... people with particular tastes; ... then there's fabric, color, layering ... features ... . Then, what is very practical in a harsh outdoor environment, isn't very practical in a dense office setting.

At any rate - the rule of real cool eventually comes down to that which is uncool. Which is to say - respect. That due to differences that possibly need not be discussed we're vibing on different wavelengths and if my behavior upset you then I apologize.


Hmm ... billboards. That's old ... isn't it?
Anyhow ...

Cool - ultimately - in one way or another - is a social phenomenon. So, to the collective, none is more uncool than the one who has nobody to share their interests with. That is ... however only half the story. It is also about dominance and presence. You cannot collectively be perceived as cool - if your presence is as that of a shadow and your dominance is zero.
Now, well ... for most of my life - actually - now that I think of it - I've dealt with approval.
So, at least to the point where my confidence in my skills helped me a great deal along the way.
I mean ... if I did what I did for approval ... , I don't know what to do with it. Maybe that's arrogant. It kind of is, sometimes, I believe. But I'm just used to nothing but myself to criticize me. And who knows how often I've been one step ahead of others?

XD ... well. Yes. Laughing something off as "but a joke" is usually a neat maneuver to get out of the target zone. Now, I have generally leaned towards entertainment when it comes to serious matters - and yea, much to the one or the other's peril I suppose. I mean, fooling around during "sunday (saturday and sometimes also sonday)" school. But I also love when I can lighten up the mood or be cause to a pleasant day. Though I don't try to actively do so. I'm more a "my own person" type of person.


And maybe that has given rise to a reflex. Which is ... a maybe chronical need to ... lighten up the mood, as from deep within, that I'm equally as avert to social conflict. In mind and thought ... I suppose ... no problem. But in reality ... well. Yes, there's ... first of all a lot of reasoning that deals with any kind of irrationality of the moment. Restraint ... refocus.

But I guess what this is to elude to ... is that 'the real cool' ... the 'real real' cool ... as the absolutely coolest thing possibly ever ... is what you get from doing your own thing. To package it in a neat way.

But sure, it isn't as easy as that. But ... the idea is that if you ... could be free ... enable Creative Mode as it were ... as thought to access that feeling of freedom ... unbothered by the chains of mortality or the laws of thermodynamics. Unless that's your thing. And you so didn't have to "Sell out" to ... uhm, I mean ... to say something about what what is worth.

Is it worth it, to gain the world, but lose the own soul in process?

I'm starting to think, that my whole problem when thinking of these moral dilemmas was, that those who appear as problems therein - also don't care about any moral dilemmas are. Like, we can package it in words - to so, formulate a logical and rational approach to a given problem - but it is pointless when those who should care, don't care.


And that's also like ... a dilemma inherent to "the Mission". To preach the Gospel as to spread the Word and Good News is one thing, but what "at the end of the time"? Well, be it that there's no one left to convert ... or no one who cares at least. I can't help but think that that's ... a critical point. How that now intersects with the greater Will ... is like, anyone's best guess.

But as such - at some point comes the time where we will have to focus inward. And whatever is cool, or not, has to take a back-seat. Because ... the cooler thing is happening.

The MGSD Freedom Gundam

I feel like ... what they're doing here is about condensing the different eras of Gunpla into these miniaturized Master Grades. That'd be a coold idea at least. This thing however is so very different from the Barbatos. From the frame to the gimmicks. The plastics for the frames are also not the same. Or is that of the Barbatos coated differently? IDK.
Well, the frame of the Barbatos is a lot more visible, so it has to pop differently. Which is ... what these Kits also do really well in my opinion. Using different plastics ... may or maybe not just to flex.

In my opinion however the Freedom doesn't pop as much. And it is also quite large ... which is I suppose what these wings tend to do.
A few things that stood out are: The parts come together very tight and I on and off felt like I could mess this up. This kit also feels solid, but light while easy to move. Building the Feet might be worth an entry on some foot-fetishists website.
Addendum: Taking this thing apart feels like ... it comes down to destruction.


Maybe at some point I'll put all the stickers on.

But actually

I'm weirdly torn between some ... irrational excitement, and ... like ... utter depression.


But ... that's enough words for today.