Ifn't just flatout idiotic

Because ... we're good at that. And it is for that reason, I would think, that humanity has over the centuries and millennia developed strategies to cope with our idiocy. Like, the whole matter of leadership is basically just a way of cutting down on the amount of idiocy that can interfer with the leadership process. And while that is really just an act of sheer idiocy ... nobody is surprised!

So yea - what I'm meaning to say with this is that we've like ... almost collectively learned to disregard anything but the simplest of things. Things that I can get, that aren't a scam, that work and do great things ... are as simple as it gets and somehow we've built an entire civilization ontop of it.


And that's kind of why we can't have nice things. Because ... this behavior doesn't just get rid of the bad ideas - but also the good ones. Obviously: Taking it like this is a gross over-simplification; So ... maybe that way it'll stick. As badly as it could ... undoubdetly.

Or not. So, we as a group have a realistic chance at ... fixing things. Not at large - but amongst our own - and at the end of the day, that may be enough.


But that's not why we're here. We're here because of that ... "walk through the woods" thing. I mean, I've walked through forrest terrain at night ... a few times. Or be it just dark and a path and a singular line of trees on either side - though without much to see beyond so it's ... more or less the same. So, maybe I created a fantasy that I iterated upon every time I had a moment like this - and what manifests is still some deeply rooted issue of mine - like, some trauma I compartmentalized away. Either way, the question of the day is still: Was it the good thing ... to not go to wherever I wanted to be. And yea ... who said that I didn't?
I don't really know.

Maybe I did everything I could and more - and that way learned that it would have been better to just ... leave it be!


At least - through my experiences in this life ... I feel somewhat equipped to present an answer to that. And I guess I'd like to say: If you're like "at least you've tried" - you've never really been trying hard enough just yet!

The harder you try - to put up a rough measurement - the more of your resources you're giving up. And it may start with money, but eventually it also takes mental and emotional one's. And as some saying goes that has come together: That's time you'll never get back!


It's nice while you can still learn something from the process, or have a sense of growth. At that point you're however not really trying 'hard' though. You should pick something that you know is impossible - and try to do something about that!

And that's what difficulty kind of comes down to. It's the degree to which something is impossible.


But no. Actually I had a ... metaphor or parable of sorts: So, maybe you can relate. You're taking a shit ... and it's one of those ... half-way type of shits. Like ... something between diarrhea and constipation - or whatever ... it's weird and ... you wipe ... and wipe ... and that's the thing. There seems to be no end to it. So, you're working on it and are getting stressed out. Then you're finally done and 'plop' ... somehow still something entered the qeue - and ... now one might say that it is actually kind of pointless to wipe your butt. At least ... for while it lasts. And ... is that ... a normal/healthy reaction?
Depends on if you go through with it?

The thing is: Some things we just do regardless - and at the end of the day it's better that way.
Or: What appears as the first rational option ... carried by emotions ... isn't necessarily the smartest thing to do.


Now - when we get to that walk through the woods - or let's call it "the Samurai story" - there is, if we look at the movies, like ONE camp. Not going to "the place" is lame A.F. "booo" - movie sucks, 0/10, wouldn't recommend.
Now - I don't even know what the story is. We could add a villain that's specifically out to get me ... because that's what makes sense in a movie ... and all he does is really ... do all the heavy lifting to make it an interesting movie. Or ... "interesting". And then it goes like: Yea, that dude held my wife and daughter prisoner for days, tortured them and ... God knows what, and I just thought yea ... I'ma take a chilly walk through the woods and maybe visit my grandparents over there at the other end of the map.
Real Gamer moment!

Anyway - what we have here isn't just 'framing'. It's ... real life in the sense that there are many different perspectives - and from each the story may be looking different. And by stringing some kind of narrative together ... there's always the pros and the cons of it.

And it can come in a lot of ways. Like ... if we want to introduce a Devil into the story ... or don't mind me if I do ... that can manipulate us in all the scary ways - such as the perfect narrative boogie man ... he might try to get you hyped up. "Oh, it's John!" - "Wow, Samurai!" (and really, to my perception I was more like ... a beggar. Starting gear - as in DF when all your points are spent elsewhere) - so you on the one had may have an expectation that's ridiculously fantastical, while on the other hand things might not come together that way. And whatever you're doing ... there would be at least so and so many people that just got onto the bandwagon - most of them beyond your sphere of influence - so automatically there are at least two positions. And one is, you might have noticed, just utterly stupid and in essence has no right to be present to that extent.


And I guess - like so we also accumulate mental dirt. And like ... we in the physical one have learned to change clothes, take showers and wash our hands - we maybe also have to learn about cleansing our minds.

Like - yea, somehow it was made to fit, with Gender. What is it? I mean, another thing that I eventually wanted to write about yesterday-- ... "yestergone" ... is how I, as John, may have been a little bit sexist. I mean, I think I had it in my mind that I wouldn't do "Women's work" - and at the time it made sense to me that this is because I didn't have to because I was a man. Today it makes more sense, that I just wasn't the typical woman. So, when we get to the Samurai story - there's more to it than just my gender or sex. For once, the ability to move through society ontop of physical features. If that's what the entire thing ought to come down to - sex and gender become irrelevant. But - when it comes to the individual at large ... that's a different story.

And - when it comes to topics like that, we may tend to talk about 'refinement'. So is it the goal of study and exploration to refine models, formulation, understanding, application ... all of that.
To understand that our understanding of the world grows - and with it our concept of how complex it is.
And ... that would often seem to be the problem with activists.
That ... they like appear out of nowhere with crazy demands and everyone else is like WTF?
And that's also I think the principle problem with communism. That ... at this point there's certainly also a lot of history that factors into it ... there's so much activism - in part also because there's a need for it - it's ... often just outlandish.
And in those spaces there's so much room for theory - and the odd thing is with how many different visions the people end up with. Uh, that there are different visions of what a "communist utopia" would work like. And that's how we get to the big promises, the dictators and the wishful thinking of how you're the greatest people on earth for some reason.
Like - recently on radio I heard about some activists making a big around animal cruelty in a circus show - troubling the mayor of the city I think for letting these things happen - who responded with something along the lines of: That's what the veterenarian office is in charge of and so far this has never been a problem.

And yea. The problem with the Wokista is ... there don't seem to be ceiling or ground. While it is true though, that we must grow and learn ... as a society ... to be better ... the position that you're a bad person if you haven't done so - like, retroactively from any one person's point of view at the time they changed their own mind about it - is like ... an anomalous abstract something, but ... kinda wonky.

And it's just the same as every "strict Religion" - from Hinduism over Islam to Christianity - or whatever - where right and wrong are oh so clear - except when someone else interprets them, then ... obviously they've gotten it wrong! No need to even argue!

But how does change happen?
Well: Look at the left: They do activism and proclaim out loud what the right thing to do is ... and barely anyone cares or notices.
Then look at the right: They're just being morons - all the way - but eventually the sentiment of the population is just right and all of a sudden they set the bar.

Until the word has spread - at which point the bar is getting set to comfortable heights again.
I guess.


"Aliens aren't the Problem!"

So - obviously - what "we must do as a society" - remains to be your choice. Like - are you team Kamikaze or team Zen-in-the-woods?

I mean - considering the villain, the story could be that I was 'taunted' to go to some place. So, if it wouldn't just be too late, it'd just be the start of it. So, technically, by that logic - I've already gotten got. Unless there would be some video-game-esque backdoor Stage with conveniently placed hiding spots that nobody bothered to take a second look at. So, I'd go that way, do my thing until the Boss Fight ... so that after a shitload of maybe's I've won the scenario.
Yea - but ... by which metric of sanity would I get there?


I mean, I get it. At the heart of it there's an emotional component - and maybe it's strong enough to really just blank out all cognitive functionaliry for a bit. So, we'd be coming back to this. As we'd also just as easily get AWAY from it with ... dramatically less maybes to boot.
So yea, at some point these issues aren't just stupid. They're beyond stupid.

It's like - with stupid there's at least a human being that may try to learn. With this - it's ... like "whack'a'zombie". And if you get bit ... it's time for believing in miracles!


Anyway - on the other side I don't know if it's fair to look for a point to it. I mean, if we're getting there I'd have to look at my life and find an answer about what the point IT is ... or to anyone's life, really - and I believe that it's not quite that simple!

Which is the next thing. Belief. So, whether or not I believed that I could have done something, that changes at least my assessment of the situation. But not necessarily yours. If your position were that I should have done something ... and I told you that I didn't believe that anything could be done ... you might be even MORE upset. Because now you have to come up with a whole new string of accusations since you were prepared to give me shit for being a coward. Though, some of that should still work.

Like - at the end of the day I wasn't willing to meet my maker just yet. To ... "die like a man" as it were. Because ... you have to fight for what you believe in or what is good - "principles" - and ... all that. Like, I should know that ... if I really did enjoy an authentic education in Bushido.

But maybe it was for that reason ... an even more pressing issue on my mind. Nothing I'd just ... decide over a whim. Nothing ... for God to get really pushy about.

And given how stubborn I am ...
Well, I really can't tell. This kind of situation - I've gone through so many, to the point that I've tried everything I could, possibly even time and time again - to say that at the end of the day, that which is most valuable is that you take care of yourself. In the light of the divine.


So, the stuff that brings you forward. The things that matter, maybe even in the grand scheme of things. What then transpires in the here and now ... can then be assessed, I'd argue, usually more critically. And 'critical' here implies a degree of self-preservation. As ... so ... the mother of all critical thought is the ambition to not fall to the folly of ignorance.


And so, what we don't know but care to know about - but also can't know about - that ... may have a tendency of gnawing on us. And as they say: There's no real good to getting stuck on the errors of the past. Especially, or at least not when they stand in the way of you doing better next time.
That isn't merely a matter of keeping your mind sharp and attentive.

Like - german ... places ... are littered with warning signs and I think they do a good job at passively lining out the various areas ... wait ...


So, there's a thing that people do - which is to either walk on the lines or avoid them - as I do it from time to time and I've seen it in that one movie. Today I guess it's called "The Floor is Lava". Could it be a tick - an imprint - from having navigated mine-fields for instance - successfully or not - carried over from a past existence?
I guess ... the habit of balancing is a lot older. Hence walking on lines. To my mind however it made no sense - why one would walk ON the lines. Like tripwires. Or is it more of a ... 'solid ground' preference?


... but so it is the overall culture that I think does the real danger prevention. Accidents still happen tho. And so is that.


Anyway. I got my hands on an "older" RG Kit - and I've seen photos of it that I really liked and saw ... enough light in my wallet. But I suppose I have to let the idea of what to do with it sit a little longer.
Or maybe not ...