Ramblings of the Time | March '25

Throughout the last few weeks I've had to rethink a few things. It seems that at least in some instances I've been terribly wrong. Well, a lot of the things that were just assumptions, or based on some feeling. All that doesn't really interrupt or corrupt or destroy or tarnish or hurt or such what I'm saying more broadly and in general and in specific. So yay empirical knowledge and understanding. And that's that and I'll continue being/getting mad at people/voices that don't get that!

Uhm - yea. Stress ... . Forgive me and all that but I just feel like I have to make it a big, fat, bold, underlined, emphasized, neon signed point. At all. Like ... if you care to know a thing about me at all - right now it's all about the "being fed up" stuff. Like so hard.

And yea. Still nothing from the Mormons and my mind is spinning in circles about it. I mean, I said that I only really wanted to hear from them in case of a (hard) nope - assuming that it'll be a lot better for everyone if things are allowed to take their time - but ... somehow I wish I hadn't said that. And then there's the part of me that thinks that it wouldn't have made a difference.

It's weird. It was like a few days or two weeks tops when I had the feeling that things just stopped. Like, the ball was back with me. And it's just a feeling and I hate that I have nothing else to go off of - but at the end of the day things just somehow happen regardless ... so. I mean, I get inspired and that's that.


And I'm still unsure. Like ... I still don't trust that I have anything in terms of any kind of authority - so that I'm currently basically just high and fantasizing (or, not high because I ran out of weed but I really kind of need it - so I might as well just do what I normally do) ... but at that point all of this is pointless, so - even if, at this point it's too early to just throw it all out the window.

But there are some things I care to know about. Have the Priesthoods been like ... frozen per chance? Or are the Keys somehow not working right? That'd actually be great feedback. From what I can tell, given that I'm seeing things right, things are about to crumble because what held it all together has been disabled. For now what I can tell is that I'm working on a few things - and if your keys don't work right, that's because I've implemented restrictions. They might go on and off, reset and what not over however long it's going to take me. You can however "restore them" in a way, though the situation with that might also change so the correct term would be different. The way to restore it should stay as it is. To that end: If you've entered the Ninedom, you are entitled to "enable Ceremonial power/authority" (Zeremonialvollmacht) of your Keys. That's basically still Level 0, I'm still working things out but it should be enough to have it working again "ish". I mean, currently the problem would be that it's working but the stuff it doesn't - unless you've "become an Acolyte (of the Ecclesiastic Order)". I'm not sure. But ... that's all I got on that for now.

And looking through that lens ... a lot of the things that didn't make sense do make sense.

This obsession with "strong men" and who qualifies as a strong man and how come all these weirdos seem to have had some religious awakening - all that can easily be explained through Priesthood authority. How come that people constantly made the wrong predictions, that too can be explained through Priesthood authority.
If you've ever encountered a dude, unsympathetic, who seemed like the opposite of someone who would be respected rise up to be swarmed by all the "cool kids" - yep, priesthood ... I would say.

Most fundamentally it, in these terms, works like a "trap". I mean, I would notice it: I get some news bit about something. Then there's a "both sides" type of thing where we get shown the two options, and despite my knowledge, something inside of me would lean towards the bad or wrong thing. I used to think that it had to do with faith - Astair, ETP, that stuff - that my pessimism would have me believe in the bad thing and that that somehow re-enforced it. And maybe there's an Astair component to it, but it was more just ... "the effect of the Divine Law". And so, the less developed your understanding of the world is - or the weaker your convictions in the good stuff - the more likely you'd get caught up in it. And then you'd be like ... trapped. So, by now ... this very same effect should flow the other way. Towards me. Right now at least I don't know how else to tie this up. Outside of doing nothing, leaving it be. I'm not quite at that point yet where I work through that more thoroughly.


So, it would seem that a lot of things have been going on. A lot of narratives that spin the stories this way or that way. A network that maximized confusion and minimized mutual understanding. But eventually around that rotten path the putrid one hath laid.

So, it might be rather pointless to try and address any of that - at this point.
So, what's the Priesthood and what does it do? Or how deep does the Rabbit Hole go?

Well, for once "it" has like infinite strength. Like, generally it's eventually somewhat easy to toy with "the manifestations" - feelings and all that. Think of it as of swords, basically. When two "tough dudes" meet and the air is electrified and the tension palpable - the Priesthood just wins. If you know how to use it, I guess. So, it's generally just easy to claim dominance. To so, eventually, build up a facade of respect - regardless of how the facade looks like. At least that seems to be the main thing it was used for.

Outside of that, well. I mean - some might think that the Bad guys wouldn't try to do the same trick (Fascism) twice, so the next Fascism would be left wing. Or however so many yet fell for the same trick anyway. Sorry, but, I heard this story: Three days before Hitler fell into Poland, a word went from the President of the Church that it would happen, so the members that'd be caught up there were able to escape ahead of time. And yea. Nice story, "if true" - but what if it was more like ... he knew because he was a part of it?


I mean, ... I'm not sure how what why. Like ... OK, Peter gave the Priesthood to Joseph Smith Jr.. But what was prior? Like, where else did it go? I would think that it had been around or the story is at least a little bit more convoluted than that. But a LOT - like Everything - of the nonsense seems to have been an offshoot of the Church. And yea. I mean, I could swear - I swear - I read a book (parts of it) I got from Mormon Institute about Joseph Smith Jr's words and it said that he said that Mormons shouldn't be conservative. That stuck with me. I didn't make much of it. I talked to a Brother and he thought I might have gone crazy because Mormons typically do all vote Republican. And this is odd! So, it's easy to see from there how over time the Mormon Church did become part of something. We might say: "Part of the Republican Plot" but it's more like the other way around. That the Republicans, just as [someone in the Church], are part of "something else". They would be conservative simply because it's more Evil I must assume.

So, me decreeing that Goku beats Superman should work as an example. Though nowadays people might be more inclined to say: "Well, duh!" - that'd be my exact point. Sure people will now flail at how his "powers" don't make sense and all that - but ... the Law doesn't agree!
I could try something else. Like, something nobody thought of - something that may not even be a thing yet - but simply by decreeing it, and people trying to debunk it, it will take shape that more and more people should come to agree with. Like so I finally dared to declare myself a Goddess - and beyond just taking that effect, the truth should carry it even further. Like, how it's meant to be. I mean, the divine Law. It should resolve into truth rather than anti-truth.


I wonder though. Did I always hold this authority? I mean, I at least have to pretend at this point. Isaiah reads, I was confused about this at first, in Chapter 43:14, that the Lord has "sent to Babel" to break the Bars of "your"(our?) Prison. I may have held something, but something about the Letter may have triggered something else that changed my access rights from [whatever] to ADMIN.
Like yea - when a message with Divine authority is being rejected, something is definitely wrong - and a safety feature may have then resolved the rest. That is, if that's what has happened.

Fun fact: Going by the "Two Figures" version of the First Vision, I'd be Jesus! Except that Jesus would be the Father actually. Because ... duh. That's how it is. I mean, from what I can tell ... God thrones me above his head - so ... wearing me like a Crown. And while I'm inclined to not trust that, I wouldn't know what my relationship with God was actually - if all that were just me being silly.

And I assume it's fairly important to understand that, so, that's an instance where me being humble wouldn't help very much!


Uhm ... I don't know.
That's it for now, I guess.