a Final Step of the way?
So ... here I sit. With a tiny hint from 'the Winds' ... not knowing or understanding what to really do with it. Or where to begin. Perhaps there is too much despair in the air for me to dare ... .My subconscious ... . It may be throwing me hints; And I wouldn't interpret them as I should. Mistaking them for things that people out there are saying would have me speak to You as though those things were on Your minds. It's somewhat obvious how that's ... wrong. Today You're here, tomorrow You're there - and someone else is somewhere else entirely.
So, what am I saying then? What I'm saying is that maybe You haven't fully grasped the width of the situation just yet. What I'm desperate about. And yet I think that I have written of it at length already.
A unifying Truth
Let's start with that. Where would You find such a thing and how would You start ... "administering" it? Both ends are problems at this point; Unless ... dare I say ... You start listening to or more importantly: 'trusting' in me. And Your inability or unwillingness to do so doesn't only drive my despair concerning my own well-being, but ... dare I say ... concerning the future of humanity.
You might not know or understand how deeply I care; And beyond that, I don't get the impression that YOU care. Why would anyone care beyond the margins of their own self-interest?
But instead of trying to tell You how You constantly go wrong here, failing this "test", let me start by "talking" of this "here", the whole of my legacy, as a way. A path; And ... dare I say ... a narrow one.
There is a unifying truth in there. A universal one. One that even so begets itself; Once You have the right pieces - and not all of them are self-evident. There is that which is from the divine; Things You cannot fathom on Your own as they are given from above. Like a name. You might "call IT" however You will, ascribe whatever properties or ideas to it; But at the end of the day there is an absolute Truth. As there is with You, or me.
The appearances being ... whatever they might be. The rumors, the errors.
And so there they are, the three Bullet-points. Meant to give You a brief 1-2-3 simple idea of how that universal Truth matters in reality ("ExIntro" Page 12). I would tell You of it, but without unlocking it for Yourself You would not know that. And when left unattended ... it's just be there; Still ... true, but beyond Your comprehension.
And so I have my ways; And God has HIS, to steer Your attention onto it.
How much is at stake? I don't know. Who would?
But shouldn't You walk the walk anyway? And see towards its flourishing? And what would the consequences be? What's at stake is ... THAT; At the very least. That which would come from this ... as distinct from the alternative(s).
And what would that be?
Well, at first I think that what You believe in - by rejecting what I have to offer - is division. Chaos. Disarray. Put it as You will. We might also call it hubris. The hubris of knowing better, the hubris of thinking that You might as well do without.
And where does that leave You? If You had an important fact, idea, or any such thing ... how would You even go about sharing it? But by handing it over to "Chaos" and letting the forces that be have their way with it.
And that's the next thing. The forces that be. You can call it Democracy ... but You're not helping people towards a meaningful choice ... if You leave the unifying truth by the wayside. Instead You leave it to elbows and "gumption" and scheming and intrigue and corruption and all that, that maybe somehow the lesser of all evils will prevail.
And if You say that it's not Your responsibility to fix that - then let me for once agree by saying that yes! It is in everyone's responsibility. And if You want to deny that, then sorry, You're an agent of Chaos and Division.
I would also argue that You have a responsibility to Yourself. And every obstacle You or anyone might encounter once stepping foot onto that path ... that's all part of the problem. Or the problemS. That exist. And each and everyone of us might find themselves confronted with different ones. Or different aspects of it.
Then, maybe You find Yourself in a pivotal position. Maybe You're a gate-keeper. Maybe the decision is Yours; As to whether people will learn of this or not. And so You weigh ... this versus that. To then chose to withhold the truth from the public by somehow convincing Yourself that this is how You allow them to choose for themselves what's best for them?
But what about Yourself?
Of course, if You don't believe in it - You're not going to fight for it.
Then, maybe, all You see is a "quasi Miracle" and what horrors might come from it when looking at everything in the most negative way possible.
Wouldn't You then, as a Pivot, not more than anyone have the responsibility to look deeper?
Or is it that You wouldn't know how to walk the walk? How to oppose those that act against me and the truth that I share? Shouldn't that alert You even more? Or is this now duress coming from my end - a scheme or machination to circumvent the deeper challenges; And have You side with mere reason instead? But what if I just point out the obvious here?
But so to come to the second part: How would You "administer" it? If all the roads are closed and all the doors are locked? The issue here isn't merely with what I hold; But with in about anything. To say that "if they don't want it" ... what can You do about it? Which to me is unacceptable. And should You so just yield?
But if You're so asking for what is at stakes ... it all possibly comes down to salvation. From that which has grown in place of the things already lost.
And then what? Let God sort it out? So yes, it's silly - in a way - to argue about things this way. There is however a way. And if You believed in the good virtues, You'd fight for it. It's as simple as that; At the end of the day.
And yet You would argue politics?
At what point would You be scum ... for the Jihad to claim?
There are so many ways 'out' - to wiggle Yourself from responsibility. So step aside then, if You don't have what it takes. ...
The Cauldron of Power
I would paint You a picture here, but I'm not quite sure what it would look like. What to say?
This were the gist of it. To say something along the lines of "Your treasure is where Your heart is at" and how some people don't see beyond the rim of their own mind or ambitions.
What I want to say is ... something to that effect. Something ... that's less "me saying" ... like it's a thing; But it's an impression I have that I want to share.
Where, looking at the previous segment and giving the accused some benefit of the doubt, there's a most generous reading of the situation that boils down into this.
Well, maybe this is a worldly image; As more traditionally the apple of leadership would be a scepter (OK, changed and upgraded); But it is here to say that You rule within the margins of Your ambitions. You get to a position of power or influence - to say: Responsibilities - by practicing a skill, applying Yourself ... such and such (if not by usurping, scheming, conspiring, etc.) ... and You expect to be tasked and challenged within the scope of those abilities.
This that which I have to offer ... if I had to guess I'd say that it doesn't quite fall into that domain.
For pretty much ... most people on earth.
But so we may come to speak of "the Bigger Picture" or "the Greater Good" - which, yes ... sure, but ... which one? There is always a hierarchy; And everyone is, in some way, always swimming in someone else's cauldron. "Don't let it be Your downfall".
My internet is really slow now. I can barely upload my stuff anymore.
Anyway - what I meant to get at is ... this problem; That I seem like I can't finish my stuff. All that I start I somehow leave open. I see reason to that; The primary one being that I don't want to finish things while I'm on my own, by myself.